Its all too much. really need some words...*triggering*

[Rain Keeper]

How did it go????

Anxiously waiting *tapping foot*

Love,
Rain

[Bitter_Angel]

How did it go?
Remember you didnt get ill over night so your not going to get better overnight. Cut yourself some slack an be proud of what you have achieved rather than what you havnt. we can all be disappointed from not meeting expectations but it dosnt get us anywhere. in the end you have to look at what you have done an draw strength from there. You are so much better than you were last year an deciding to get well instead of ill was a huge change for you. You can do this.

[Margo]

Im really struggling. I feel so ill. Cut for the first time in months....................

[Rain Keeper]

i am sorry your not doing well right now Matthew. Please be careful with the wound.

How are you doing now?

[Margo]

bad weekend and bad head. cuts are fine. nothing bad. closed up too. I dont want scars anymore i just wanted the pain.

how sad is it that i have tyo resort to cutting to feel something close to a hug when a hug is all i really want.

Im ****ed up in the head.

Psych today made me feel a bit better. said how ill i have been. Was comforting cus sometimes i feel i made it all up. told him im finding the transition to well person hard. He was nice :)

i feel i have no one and no thing. i have my stupid game. I play it and i dont think. i dont play it and im either in tears. riddles with anxiety or planning my own death.

new levels of loneliness. *sigh*

work tomorrow for another few hours...................................

gonna die alone i just know it

[Rain Keeper]

emailed you my # . yeah long distance.. but you have it if you need it,
Rain

glad you have a good psych that you see. did you tell hime what you did?