Hey Roobarb, welcome! I started therapy today for this..or so I believe as they havent officially diagnosed me. Yes theres a lot of stigma, Ive read some of it! All I can say is **** them...they can call us "needy attention seekers" but they have no clue what it feels like to live with my brain and trying to function normally!! I just wish others could hear my thoughts instead of just the words coming out of my mouth....maybe then they could understand me better!
If only you all lived close by we could meet up and have BPD venting sessions together :D Now that would be therapeutic !!
Hey Doikers. Sure, didn't mean to come on all intense! Are you OK? Sorry, stoopid question, but you know what I mean.
Hey OverEmotional, Nice to meet you. How was the therapy? Was it any good?
Psychiatrists really scare the bejeesus out of me and I don't really talk to or see my CPN, but have a meeting before starting group therapy today. TBH, I think chatting to other people who share similar thoughts and feeling would be far more helpful. A group vent/rant would definitely be therapeutic. Could that be the new DBT?
I feel like crap all I want to is cry all I want is get out of were I live know it like hell yet no body takes peopleon benfit just sucks more resons to hate life right feel like even my support workers hating
Kelly-Louise , I'm sorry you feel so wretched , I've no good advice but certainly can empathise with how you feel , I hate my life too some days and am on Benefits . Please be kind to yourself :)
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
I'm ok thanks =). Been busy, we're moving to a new site in work so have been packing up labs today. Had first ever driving lesson (finally!) on Thursday, wasn't too bad! Bit meh sometimes but keeping distracted it's ok.
I'm anxious , No Money until Tuesday , at least I have food though but that's not causing it , I'm sleeping 13 hours a night recently , I'm Hot and try as I might I can't lose weight so I'm bummed about that and am feeling pointless :/
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
*Glomps* I'm sorry you're feeling anxious and pointless. Having no money must be annoying, but at least it isn't too long to wait and you don't need to worry about buying food for now. I hope you don't have any bills or anything concerning you.
I'm familiar with sleeping a lot! Don't feel bad about it. I get criticised for it like "how did you sleep so much?" and "you're just lazy for not getting up" but I think they don't understand. I genuinely just feel really sleepy sometimes and it can be quite annoying.
Yesterday I tried to go running (I've signed up for the Swansea 10k which is only next week =S and unfortunately I've done bugger all training this year because of lacking motivation but I'm just going to do what I can) I did a little and then I sat down a bit and felt my self wanting to go to sleep... outside! Felt very peaceful (was in a field/hill overlooking Swansea) and breezy and I really could've but wouldn't have been a smart move to fall asleep especially on my own.
Of course other times I just want to go to bed if I feel like nothing else is worth doing, have also gone to bed when I feel the alternative of staying up by myself wouldn't be so safe.
Could you splash some cold water over yourself a bit and sit by the window?
Don't feel bummed, remember little victories are important and you're trying hard I'm sure things will improve, you certainly aren't pointless. I hope there are some nice things you can do today/awesome music you can rock to.
Music is a good idea :)
I'm glad you didn't sleep on your own outside :)
I have my Elderflower wine bubbling away to my right , just playing the waiting game with it now.
I too Have just gone to bed out of desperation.
I'm on Olanzapine , makes it so hard to wake.
Do you have a sponsor page for your 10k run if you are doing it for charity? If so let me know and I'll sponsor you a few pennies on Tuesday :)
I dunno what to listen to , I have lots of CD's I've collected since I got my first CD player at 14 yo .
Plus bakeoff in an hour :D
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
