“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
I am trying to recover from self harm, but still have thoughts and things. It has nearly been 8 weeks for me.
Woot 8 weeks :). That is so awesome! I am awe. I've never gone that long
So I have a question. Has anyone ever tried to tell the people at your youth group about your SI and gotten...less than supportive responses? I mean, no one said unkind things or anything, it was just...super awkward. But I (in my paranoid way) could practically read their minds, and they were thinking "freak."
My name is Matt, and I am a boy. Feel free to PM me :)
I have learned that the world is not a safe place. Not at all. But there are so many people who love me and want to keep me safe. And that is enough.
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
Hi All,
Have been reading the thread again for a few days but only just found the inspiration to post.
I'm doing ok, been SH free since mid February, which for me is amazing. Had a wobble last week and my chirch family were brilliant to rally round me and support me.
Tried to talk to my Fiancee about it last night but got completely tounge tied and messed up. I really hope e understands, I want him to understand a little of why I do it so that he can continue to help me. He's been fantastic so far, not asking too many questions but being there when I need him.
Anyway, just wanted to say Hi and I'm praying for you all, may God Bless you with His Love and grace.
God Bless
Liz
I'm a Christian as well, but lately i have been having a hard time reconciling the fact that God is perfect and loving and all-powerful, but all these crappy things are still happening to me. No, I don't believe that God is 'doing' mean things to me, but He allows them to happen; He has the power to stop them from happening! I know there is probably a lesson to learn from all of this, and when I am on the other side of it things will be alot clearer, but right now I am just angry and upset.
i know how you feel, it's such a tough feeling. God does have plans for you and i know at times it's tough to know that he is in control but he is. Just think of the bit in the bible where Lazarus dies, Jesus could have saved him but he let him die. everybody is angry at him and they can't believe it. But jesus has other plans, Lazarus not only lives but Jesus performs a miracle. He makes something beautiful from a situation so dull and sad. Just think of all the beautiful plans jesus has for you when he 'brings you back to life'.
Another beautiful thing about this part in the bible to keep in mind is that Jesus CRIES. it's so easy to think he doesn't care but he is doing this out of love, and it hurts him so much to see his best friend, the person he loves most in pain. It is in times like these that, even when you don't feel like it, Jesus is so close to you.
The couple who took our Home and Family weekend were very good, but we had a meal together. I was near the end of the table and virtually nobody spoke to me.
As you know, at the moment I'm having a lot of physical problems and feeling increasingly isolated and low. very, very much want to use my tool and go to bed. I isfeel I don't belong anywhere, or to anyone except God.
You may know that I have one "surrogate sister" locally. It is extremely difficult to get hold of her at the best of times because her husband seems to feel he has to 'protect her' from all in-coming calls etc, but at the moment she is in hospital getting her diabetes and an infection under control.
I've had a lot of faith in my Christian GP, but the way she is handling the treatment of polymyalgia rheumatica is really upsetting me. Standad treatment is steroids for a MINIMUM of one year, normally two. She is anxious to get me off in MONTHS. I know there are side effects, but there is also PAIN and it's ME that has to put up with that, not her!
My little animals leep me from doing anything more serious - I feel that I don't belong anywhere
Thank you for your prayers. Still feeling extremely low. I'm 64 next week! I'm actually going on holiday that day, but walking anywhere is hard. I also feel I just don't belong anywhere - too old for the families, too young for the 'OAP home' group. Really scared about what will happen if this pain continues. I'd hate to have to leave this rented house as I am very unlikely to find an affordable bungalow where I could have my cage of lovely rats, and often they are all that keeps me going.
So I have a question. Has anyone ever tried to tell the people at your youth group about your SI and gotten...less than supportive responses? I mean, no one said unkind things or anything, it was just...super awkward. But I (in my paranoid way) could practically read their minds, and they were thinking "freak."
yes and no. My experience was ok, since my youth pastor had dealt with students with self injury before, and has had appropriate training.
Although now, I am out of 'youth group', and actually one of the leaders. I've seen both sides of it. The girl I am currently coaching has been going to 2 youth groups depending on her schedule that week. My church's group has been supportive, where the other was completely un-helpful. Sometimes youth-workers just don't understand, or are under-trained. It happens.
I'm sorry your experience was less than helpful, and hopefully you can find someone that can understand/ offer the support you need.
higher and higher and higher,
higher and higher and higher.
-passion pit
06.24.09
my kitty's missing. i don't even remember letting her out. i just woke up yesterday morning and my cats were both outside. i was dumb and took a shower before letting them inside and there was only one cat there. the other cat has been missing ever since. i've barely been able to concentrate. :/.
Happiness is like a Butterfly: The more you pursue it, the more it will elude you. But if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder...
"The best thing to hold onto in life is each other."
I was talking about this with one of my friends the other day and I looked up the website to re-read and it was hit by the sheer awesomeness of it so thought I'd share it. Especially in case no one had seen or heard of it before. You can print out your own copies on the website for keepsake and the video is really relaxing too
Sit, back, enjoy and listen to how much your Father treasures you for who you are and how much He loves YOU.
Happiness is like a Butterfly: The more you pursue it, the more it will elude you. But if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder...
"The best thing to hold onto in life is each other."
Then wear the gold hat, if that will move her;
If you can bounce high, bounce for her too,
Till she cry "Lover, gold-hatted, high-bouncing lover,
I must have you!"
Thomas Parke D’Invilliers
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