Insanity lives,
Perhaps instead of teaching Morgan to drive it would be more productive working toward co-consciousness, so while Kyle is learning to drive Morgan/and or others can learn at the same time.
Hiding,
Sounds like it was a full-on day. We think overall it could be a very positive experience, you're in the process of getting the help and support you need, and most often hospitals aren't nearly as bad as people expect. Hope you're doing ok.
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We're having a shitty day, had a really rough night, the memory of it is fragmented, was a full moon, the biggest all year.
Ash was going to catch up with Cougar this afternoon, but we weren't upto it. We're at home and resting. Feeling useless.
Hazel, have you tried re-booting your router and pc?
Thanks scath.
lost boys, I hope your day improves. Full moons effect me/us as well. Probably in a different way - a female, unstable kind of way rather than abuse flashback kind of way.
Hiding, I hope you get some clear answers and reliable help soon.
lostboys - we're offering *safe hugs* You're not useless, none of you are. We hope this day gets better and tonight is less triggering for you.
Palemoon - it is a bit overwhelming when lots of alters pop out, I've been having the same thing... my journal (well, our journal) keeps getting random entries from people, or they write back to me in it.
I'm a bit scared about it... I'm not ready to deal with this. There's no one to help me either, and I kind of want to keep going and talk to them but sometimes my head is going "what?! no! run away and don't look back!"
For those doubts that swirl all around us
For those lives that tear at the seams
We know… we’re not what we’ve seen
For this dance we’ll move with each other
There ain’t no other step than one foot
Right in front of the other
Couldn't sleep last night, felt sick pretty much all the time. This morning I am not coping well. Had to stop on the way to work to hide in a ditch and cry. Feeling very suicidal and very triggered to self harm. As yet, both have been avoided. I have no idea how I'm going to get through the day.
I want some contact, thinking about maybe even trying to speak to the boys my side, which could easily make it ten times worse.
Still living alone. Really need a hug/ a cry. No one's here. We're isolated, well I'm isolated.
And I don't know what to do. Genuinely.
T
System A
Sophie Mandi Max Gwen Mercy Erin AVA Tracey Bridget My Isaac
*offers hugs* isolation is awful, we're keeping you in our thoughts. Is there anyone around that you could maybe chat to, to try and stave off the feeling?
For those doubts that swirl all around us
For those lives that tear at the seams
We know… we’re not what we’ve seen
For this dance we’ll move with each other
There ain’t no other step than one foot
Right in front of the other
Well currently I'm in work (I don't think I'll manage the whole day but I have no idea how to tell them that) and I'm writing up some of my paper, I've got my own office so nope, pretty much on my own. T
Thanks for replying though.
System A
Sophie Mandi Max Gwen Mercy Erin AVA Tracey Bridget My Isaac
Hi everyone, this is Allison. We're having some trouble with Mishka. Most of you know what he tried to do about three weeks ago. We don't want him to do that anymore, it's not necessary anymore, but he doesn't know what else to do. The poor thing is crying and upset. I've been asked to give him another job but I don't know what to do. Anyone have ideas for a positive thing he could do for the system?
My name is Matt, and I am a boy. Feel free to PM me :)
I have learned that the world is not a safe place. Not at all. But there are so many people who love me and want to keep me safe. And that is enough.
Hey Allison. Perhaps you could ask him what he would like to do, talk with the system about what needs doing, what you guys are struggling with that he could assist with. Something that utilizes his strengths. What do you think?
T, that sounds hard, are you able to stick it out till the end of the day? Maybe if you plan to reward yourself once it's over it would give you a boost. What could you do when you get home that you would enjoy? I understand that it might not be feasible for the people you are doing work experience for to know about your... Issues? Are you getting anything in he way of support? Hope you are ok
I ran away. Said I had an eye appointment. At the moment I have no support and won't for another 3 weeks. At least I'm home and safe. Reading a physics book and playing sims. Tab
System A
Sophie Mandi Max Gwen Mercy Erin AVA Tracey Bridget My Isaac
Labyrinth -- We don't have a lot to say except that we're sorry that's happening. Take care.
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Thanks for the replies everyone. Mishka thought he was protecting us by killing the body because the secret was out. We have suggested he be a protector in his sytem, like Luke is in the main system. He likes the idea, and we have gotten him his own little badge for him to wear inside that says "Protector." We're glad to have gotten this cleared up in a positive way.
My name is Matt, and I am a boy. Feel free to PM me :)
I have learned that the world is not a safe place. Not at all. But there are so many people who love me and want to keep me safe. And that is enough.
*sits in thread*
It's hard when Katie goes away.
[It's hard when I, Katie go away.]
[Now is not then but to my Others it sure as hell feels like it.]
I hope Katie's coming back. I really hope so.
Dr now says he hasn't made a DX - even though he said he did, it's just his first impressions. *closes eyes* he's got me down as: emotionally unstable personality - impulsive type. and: Dissociative Disorder Not otherwise Specified. I guess the DDNOS explains most of my issues...
You are talking to: Kat The Others are: Annabell (Belle), Rosie, Lotty, Kate, Amy, Jessica (Jess), Sarah, Ramiel(Miel), Elizabeth (Liz), Shadow
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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Hey hope everyone's been okay, I haven't posted around for a while but I've been reading.
Just wanted you to know I'm thinking of you all.
On a completely unrelated note, I'm feeling weird. For a while.I don't really understand what's going on, so I can't try to rationalise it...
As far as I know, everyone except Blue is with Onyx, because they don't want to risk letting her out in case she gets out of hand again.
Blue refuses to come out anymore because one of my "friends" got extremely graphic to her and now she's too afraid to talk to anyone, even me.
I'm still forgetting things though... Little things, not huge amounts of time but I'll forget that I've brushed my hair and wonder why it's on the floor in front of me, I'll turn off my iPod then wonder why it's turned off because I always listen to my iPod, I'll think of a top to wear, go out the room and when I come back it's laid out on my bed... It's confusing me a bit.
Trini!! =) i mis you. you do not talk lots anymor. I hop you bes ok and katie comd bak.. you do know hers nevr reli leevs you rite? I wil sit wif you if you wan me to k? <3 Sarah
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Yeah I know, I don't know when that'll be though, I don't want to take any risks as next week I'm going on holiday with my friend and her family for 11 days.
There might be chances to let her vent then though because if its danger and wildness that she craves then we can let her do the white-water rapids and parachute jumping and all the dangerous/exciting activities. Not sure if that'll work for her but it's something a little more constructive than what she has in mind.
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Yeah that's what I'm trying to get at, because those things will be safe.
I think she's feeling a lot calmer.
I went to Thorpe Park today, and it was really weird because before all the other rides I went on like Nemesis and Stealth I felt really apprehensive but when before I went on the Saw ride I felt really exhilarated shortly before I got in the carriage and I really wanted to do it, which is unlike me. I have a feeling she got a kick out of going on a ride that looked potentially life-threatening.
