I understand that feeling of wanting to be in hospital because you feel too unsafe to be on the outside. However with funding cuts, psychiatric wards being shut, secure units being closed, the amount of front line people such as social workers and CPN's being reduced in my area, I would have to be on death's door to get an admission and if your area is anything like mine you won't find a spare bed for all the tea in China. If your area is not like mine then you're bloody lucky.
So that leaves you putting coping mechanisms in such as distraction. You could bake, dust and hoover your home, go for a walk, a swim, to the gym, watch a film, take an early night, phone a friend (no pun intended there)etc
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
I know!
I wouldn't even ring cmht cos they'll say I'm acting out and have insight thereby not needing support.
I have no energy to do anything.
I will just lie here on the bed
I haven't even got enough energy to cry or SH
I hate myself so much
I don't understand myself... I'm searching for the person I am, and the person I want to be..
Hi guys I'm freaking out bout the dad stuff spoke to Shirley she said she understood m I had to make the most of the time that it wasn't so intense in my head n keep distracted etc
Bpd hell wat wud actually going into hospital solve
Luddy how r u
Run with scissors can u explain wat u mean might have missed a previous post
Oliver how r u
Y do u think they will move tbh if there is an agreement In place they can't just move due to social services n from ur post on the other thread iv just replied to it sounds like they r trying to get U more involved with sending U stuff...
U neec to use ur son as a reason to get better so u can get him back
ah that sounds a really difficulty situation. I hope that your little boy can be an inspiration for you to get as well as possible so you can take back full control. Although you are going to not like it, I would just do whatever they want you to do as it shows that you are committed and compliant. You can express your concerns in a rational way and say that you want it noted that contact must be remained and they cant just leave him. Do you still have PR?
Sorry Cheryl. I don't know. I was safe there. They gave me medicines which made me feel ok for the first time in my life. I am not safe here. I know its selfish and very BPD like, but I would just love a break from this, even for an evening.
I don't understand myself... I'm searching for the person I am, and the person I want to be..
Wanting a break is normal cus u get away for a few days or have a DVD day...the Meds can be giving to U In the community etc
Cud u ask for support from cmht tesm but word it in a way that they knew w ur not acting out like wen I tect Shirley she wants to know wat emotion I'm feeling wat my thoughts r and wat iv done to help my self and sometimes wat I want from her kick up the arse encouragement etc
I know what u mean but I just feel like I want to properly escape and I can't do that here. I don't really have anyone I can contact at cmht as I only see the psychiatrist who is still assessing me throughout the year!
I will be ok. Always am. One day hopefully I won't be. Hopefully one day it will work
I don't understand myself... I'm searching for the person I am, and the person I want to be..
I just don't not trust them I have only meet them twice once at court and once at the contact review ss say one thing his dad says another and I never hear what the grandparents say and what sort of mother would I be if I just agreed to everything without questioning it ....
Very good point, I can see that
I didn't realise you didn't know them sorry I don't know your circumstances.
I just know in the main SS want people to be well settled and agree with them before they allow the kids back
I don't understand myself... I'm searching for the person I am, and the person I want to be..
