The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread

[frenchhorn]

ah ok Mark *hug* how are you doing?

[Doikers]

feel better now 9 of us are not in the same house , Oliver :)

Hi Oliver I'm not starting uni as such im coaching there netball team so get best of both worlds I guess

Struggling to take MEDS argh I know I can't sabotage this

Hope everyone is ok

[havealittlefaith]

... College is still very rocky ...

Is there anything U can do to help situation

[havealittlefaith]

Tbh I need
To go to the welfare centre and not get upset or have another inncident I am gonna move chairs tommrow I jeed
To show
I am
Commited and able all the tutors
Love my attitude and think I can do the work but are worried that
Personal
Stuff will get in the way that is why my tutor said to
Go
Welfare about counsi g and stuff
So
They can get inved I also need to find out about burasries and I think I might have to apologize wed.

Hugs all x

[frenchhorn]

oh cool Cheryl, coaching netball sounds awesome. Have you manageed to take your meds?

Glad you feel better Mark :)

I'm sorry it is still rocky Chrissy, anything you can do to change that/help it?

I'm having awful abandonment fears again, over the weekend and tonight, I have decided that I would like to do a history degree with the OU, not 100% decided yet, but I am about 85-90% decided I want to. However, I am now terrified to tell my GP or anyone professional, because they will abandon me.
part of me also feels it is a sudden impulsive decision because I feel a bit high and I'm trying to trick the spies into thinking I am ok. ahh this is stressing me out. sorry to go on everyone.

Nah no MEDS last night I'm so angry at myself I'm just sabotaging myself it's frustraiting

Got Slimmingworld job interview cafe then training today so another busy day

[havealittlefaith]

Head of subject Just told me " I'm watching you " which I can only assume is a bad thing ? I still yet to go to the welfare team about support would be a good idea ! I have moved tables today so I can concentrate , everyone says hello
And has been asking me if I'm okay they saw me crying yesterday I didn't want to come in Cuz they saw me on the Wednesday bene rude and I was afraid and then I burst into tears I feel pathetic really

Hugs all x

[Doikers]

*Group Hugs*

Maybe it isnt a bad thing maybe it's to reassure U that there is support if u know u have to go to welfare U need to do it


Not lost any weight today gutted now I got to go to an interview that I know I'm probably won't get it

[Doikers]

Good luck with your interview Cheryl :)

[frenchhorn]

good luck Cheryl.

How are you Mark?

I think you need to see welfare Chrissy.

I've just had a phone call with the CMHT manager, she is going to look at allocating me a new care co-ordinator who will come and assess me and see what I need.

[havealittlefaith]

I decided to go home at lunch as I really has enough now it's not the course. That's a problem it's the college and the staff and I had to take a call about stuff to do with bailey and my teacher was rude and aid it don't matter but you wouldn't say that to the girls on my course who have theres on for there kids !!

[frenchhorn]

the trouble is Chrissy, teachers can't have you taking calls in lessons/classes, I realise it was about Bailey, but they still can't let you answer your phone whenever you want.

how is everyone doing?

How was the interview Cheryl?

I got the job yay I had a message on my phone when I got home to ring them back n they said I eyd be temp staff to stare with :) can't wait

[frenchhorn]

awesome Cheryl well done :)

Thanks :) hope it all ok

[Doikers]

Way to go Cheryl! :)

[frenchhorn]

how are you both?

well the crisis team were useless, I said I'm really suicidal and getting a lot of intrusive thoughts and he just told me they will start reducing the amount they see me, that was it.