All I know
Is everything is not as it's sold
but the more I grow the less I know
And I have lived so many lives
Though I'm not old
And the more I see, the less I grow
The fewer the seeds the more I sow
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
I wish I hadn't seen all of the realness
And all the real people are really not real at all
The more I learn the more I cry
As I say goodbye to the way of life
I thought I had designed for me
Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
I cannot get up by the howling cry
Just justify my longing to die,
Bury me down at last,
I think about it in the shadows and cry!
Can scissors heal a man torn of tears,
A fading I fear inside.
The reaper in sheet will stand by me
I'm dreaming, I'm wearing a black dress that night!
I'm just a being tonight,
And still I'm dressed so black...OH YEAH!
Maybe I'm just blind,
But maybe I should try...
Can't you see why the vision is calling you?
I got the one, the dream of horror!
Dreams of blood, dreams of war!
Rudest eyes have seen the fright
Welcome to the eternal night!
You won't be a butcher
No, you won't be at last
Somebody's the trigger
Take it off!
What, you are the priest's son? So f**k -
SO F**K YOURSELF AND DIE!
Sill I stand against the death!
Am I just a shade?
Always I'm awake and in black!
Sill I dare to praise the Lord -
No I won't pass to the lord
Goodbye - no...
So the keeper waits upon,
He waits upon a border
Let me own your punishment,
It's time to break the border!
The Candlelight fades away
There's nothing at all but me...
I stare at death and the darkest one's
Watching me with cold eyes
A god has been with me in the shadows
I lost my reason to hate! ya!
[Voice:]
(So it's right...)
(I can leave the shadows!)
(The last one has to survive!)
YAWW!
WOW -RIGHT!
With my light shining bright
I got my way, to regret ?? (just my hearts)?? !
With my last dying ryhme I got my world
To betray for what I did by my motherf**king heart!
The shadows draw back into honesty and love!
Obey, and it will cut your throat
I can't speak and you shant be the next,
The shadows strike in your blame - YAW!
White boys with tattoos,
We are pointing right at you,
We are breaking everything, r-rowdy like a classroom,
Pack of wolves,
'Cause we don't follow the rules,
And when you're running your mouth,
Our razor blades come out,
help I have done it again I have been here many times before hurt myself again today and the worst part is there's no one else to blame
be my friend
hold me
wrap me up
unfold me
I am small and needy
warm me up
and breathe me
ouch I have lost myself again lost myself and I am no where to be found yeah I think that I might break lost myself again and I feel unsafe
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I never noticed, until I focused
On everything you did, you said,
You lit the fuse inside my head
Thank you for reminding me
Of why I'm sick inside
Thank you for the venom, did
You think it would paralyze?
These scars I scratch, I tear
Are there under my skin
Where you've always been
the air was all dust and not so untamed
the ground opened up and swallowed all of the rain and it swallowed you too into distance unknown
as they sat down for dinner they waited for you to get home
yeah, they set a place for you.
so don't believe everything you read in that diary of yours
and this nervousness, it isn't all your fault
its just these shaking hands won't do what i want...them to
and i've tried to guess what it is that you thought about that act of contrition that rolled off our tongues as you left what are you crying for?
just dust my heart and you will find
there are no fingers printed there
just the untouched place that lies inside
of every lonely boy tonight.
and all of this open air has caused me to choke
on your new found hope for me.
Shhh… quiet you might p*ss somebody off
Like me motherf*cker you've been at it for too long
While you feed off others' insecurities You stand in front of me and bite the hand that feeds
Self-righteousness is wearing thin (Lies inside your head, your best friend)
Heart bleeds but not for fellow men (Broken glass, your fake reflection)
I've had enough
It's time for something real
I don't respect the words you're speaking
Gone too far
A clone
So how does it feel to know that someone's kid
in the heart of America has blood on their hands
fighting to defend your rights
so you can maintain a lifestyle
that insults his family's existence
Well, where I'm from we have a special
salute that we aim high in the air
towards all those pompous assholes
who spend their days pointing fingers (F*ck You)
Shhh… quiet you might p*ss somebody off
Like the heartbeat of this country when antagonized too long I'll be damned if you count me in as part of your generous hypocrisy
collecting enemies
Tabloid gossip queen worthless man (There's no need for us to bury you)
Selfish agenda once again (Right this way you've dug your own grave)
I've had enough
It's time for something real
I don't respect the words you're speaking
Gone too far
A clone
All the way from the east to the west we
got this high society
looking down on their very foundation constantly reminding us that our actions
are the cause of all their problems
Pointing their fingers in every
direction and blaming their
own nation for who wins the elections
They've never contributed a ****ing thing to the
country they love to criticize
Excuse the obscene, ignore the untrue
Depictions we see try and get through
Admitting mistakes can hurt
I'm not the last but I sure ain't the first
Shhh… quiet you might p*ss somebody off
Self-righteousness is wearing thin (Lies inside your head your best friend)
Heart bleeds but not for fellow men (Broken glass your fake reflection)
I've had enough
It's time for something real
I don't respect the words you're speaking
Gone too far
A clone
Hooray for the last of the madness
Hooray for no more misery
Cause I'm in the middle of darkness
Ya see no hope's a dangerous thing
Come on and kill me
I know that's what you want
Kill me, I know that's what you want
Kill me, I know that's all you want Kill me, I know that's all you, all that you want
One way takes away all the sadness
One way take away all of me
You pushed me to a suicide darkness Gimme some death mama, my name's misery
Come on and kill me
I know that's what you want
Kill me, I wanna die in your arms forever
Kill me, I know that's what you want Kill me, so my tortured eyes
Never see you again
There's hate on face, the last that I'll ever see
As I stare into the eyes of my misery
And I'll leave you with the memory of me My sweetest revenge lies here in your misery
Hooray for the horror of darkness
Hooray for the horror is me
I'm inside on the dark ride of madness Gimme some death daddy, my name's misery
Come on and kill me
I know that's what you want
Kill me, I wanna die in your arms forever
Kill me, I know that's what you want Kill me, so my tortured eyes
Never see you again
So I never see you again
So I never see you again
Now it's your turn, take a shot
Baby, show me everything that you got
Maybe you can keep me alive
Maybe you can get in my mind
But it's only a matter of time
Before I run far away
I need to take a holiday
Maybe it's a fall from grace
I gotta find a new place
A holiday
I'll set off on a new chase
I gotta see a new face
I need to take a holiday
I had visions, I was in them
I was looking into the mirror
to see a little bit clearer
rottenness and evil in me
Fingertips have memories
mine can´t forget the curves of your body
and when I feel a bit naughty
I run it up the flagpole
and see who salutes
(but no one ever does)
I´m not sick but I´m not well
and I´m so hot cause I´m in hell
Been around the world and found
that only stupid people are breeding
the cretins are cloning and feeding
and I don´t even own a tv
Put me in the hospital for nerves
and then they had to commit me
you told them all I was crazy
they cut off my legs now I´m an
amputee, god dammn you
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I´m not sick but I´m not well
and I´m so hot cause I´m in hell
I´m not sick but I´m not well
and it´s a sin to live so well
I wanna publish zines
and rage against machines
I wanna pierce my tongue
it doesn´t hurt, it feels fine
the trivial sublime
I´d like to turn off time
and kill my mind
you kill my mind
(mind)
Paranoia, paranoia
everbody's out to get me
just say you never met me
I´m runnin' underground with the moles
digging holes
Hear the voices in my head
I swear to god it sounds
like they're snoring
but if you´re bored then your boring
the agony and the irony,
they're killing me (whoa!)
I´m not sick but I´m not well
I´m so hot cause I´m in hell
I´m not sick but I´m not well
and it´s a sin to live so well
I wish I could have quite you
I wish I never missed you
or told you that I loved you every time I f*cked you the future that we both drew and everything we've been through
obsessed with the thought of you
the pain just grew and grew how could you do this to me look at what I made for you it never was enough and the world is what I gave you I used to be love struck now I'm just ****ed up pull up my sleeve and see the pattern of my cuts!
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I am not so serious
this passion is a plagiarism
i might join your century
but only on a rare occasion
i was taken out
before the labor pains set in and now
behold the world's worst accident
i am the girl anachronism
and you can tell
by the red in my eyes
and the bruises on my thighs
and the knots in my hair
and the bathtub full of flies
that i'm not right now at all
there i go again
pretending that i'll fall
I f*cking swear that I care but it's hard when you stare into the bottom of a bottle that's so empty and bare oh my desolete soul in my desolete home it's my desolete role yeah I'm here all alone I can't think of a reason to get the f*ck out of bed curtains closed lights are off am I alive or dead I haven't shaved in a week I always slurr when I speak tolerance at it's peek anotehr fit just to sleep
oh woe is me woe is me I guess I need love
hoes you see hoes you see I'm just in a rut and I swear I'm trying baby please baby don't leave god damn I'm a f*ck up but I guess that's just me so I'll sit in my room and I'll cry in my bed thinkin' about all the sh*t that made me wrong in my head.
“Because everything that goes around comes around. Maybe it's luck or maybe it's fate, but either way, it comes back around."
Rest in Love Sar-sis. I'll see you the next time around hopefully <3 12/11/92-05/18/16
AJs mommy ❤️ 11/26/17
Married to my best friend and Soulmate 3/5/18 ❤️💍
I think I'll get out of here
Where I can run
Just as fast as I can
To the middle of nowhere
To the middle of my frustrated fears
And I swear
You're just like a pill
Instead of making me better, you keep making me ill
You keep making me ill
RIP Mike [4.1.06] RIP Grandma [8.2.08] Jon&Nicole[1.6.09] Sometimes when i say "oh i'm fine..."
i want someone to look me in the eyes and say "tell the t r u t h"
Murder murder a ripe blood stain
Pulled the ****ing trigger cause Im sick of it all
Murder murder a ripe ****ing hate
Pulled the ****ing trigger cause Im sick of it all
I went to school today with an oozi Theres this kid he teased me so i shot em in the face
All the worlds light wont ease my pain
It wont cease im diseased will you hang me please i'm a nihilist raised on violence
What do i do im american youth
All my life ive lived in silence
Im gonna snap ill get you back
Im a girl im only 13 my body rots
Cause i wont ****ing eat
Im a silent star on a b-roll Im a mirror ****ing image of no control
Give me the award i conquered food again
What else is better in life than to purge my pain
If i cut, i wont look like that If i cut if i cut i wont feel like this ****
We are kids we think life is a scam
We come from wasted land
We are kids we play punk rock and roll
If we didnt we got no soul
We are different kids with the same heartbeat
We got one pulse running through the streets They are our arteries
I am part of this
Your rise and fall
Back up against the wall What goes around is coming back and haunting you
It's time to quit
Cause you ain't worth the ****
Under my shoes or the piss on the ground
No one loves you and you know it
Don't pretend that you enjoy it or you don't care
Cause now I wouldn't lie or tell you all the things you want
to hear.
I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU I HATE YOU
I heard you'rer sick
Sucked on that cancer stick
A throbbing tumor and a radiation high **** out of luck
And now your time is up
It brings me pleasure just to know you're going to die
********, ****face, **** smoking, mother ****ing, asshole,
dirty ****, waste of semen, I hope you die HEY
Red eye, code blue I'd like to strangle you
And watch your eyes bulge right out of your skull
When you go down
Head first into the ground
I'll stand above you just to piss on your grave
