Hey Kat. Thanks. I'll probably have to go back to my GP and explain. I just hope she listens. She seems to blame everything on the depression and my past anxiety problems =/
Hi everyone. Feel a bit rude interrupting and everything but I have a question for anyone who is more 'in the know' about this sort of thing.
Basically I've been experiencing energy and mood fluctuations for quite a while now. I never know what mood I'm going to be in one day from the next. It's incredibly confusing. My sleeping habits have been screwed up for five years. Most of the time I can't sleep till 5am/7am and sometimes don't feel like I need sleep. I've done all sorts on literally no sleep the previous night. Granted, I'm completely mental/rambling/hyper/agitated.
I've been to my GP but because I concentrated on my depressive feelings she's leaning more towards clinical depression. I don't believe this is the case. The irritability and amount of uncontrollable energy is the opposite to the fatigue paralysing lack of energy which was symptomatic of the depression I experienced growing up. For instance, I've felt suicidal with my inability to control how I'm feeling and regularly use self-harm to control it.
I contacted a helpline and they said it sounded like a kind of rapid-cycling bipolar, but they obviously weren't in any position to diagnose. I've looked up bipolar symptoms and though I definitely have a few I'm really confused about this. I just don't feel I've ever felt manic enough or depressed enough.
Sorry, this is incredibly long (it's 3.30am and I can't sleep) but could anyone who has been diagnosed with bipolar enlighten me a bit and maybe give some advice on how I can explain this to my GP? She's the professional and I'm not exactly a mental illness expert, but I just don't feel it's just depression.
Sounds like me. Ask yr GP to send you to a psychologist/psychiatrist. Taking Anti-Depressants can make BPD symptoms much worse, which is apparently what kept me from getting better so long. Like I said, yr symptoms sound almost exactly like mine, but it took years for the proper diagnosis for me. No-one properly explained exactly what the word "mania" meant in the context of this illness. Once i figured it out, a lot of things fell into place. I'm nowhere near better yet, but at least I'm (hopefully) on the right path. Good luck, and message me anytime.
Hi Scribble. Thanks for replying. I'm going to ask my GP to refer me to a psychiatrist. The act of explaining all this to someone is exhausting to be honest, because they always seem to focus on the depression. I'm totally fed up though, this is screwing up my life and making me a pain to live with. I know that people can wait forever to actually know what's going on with them/get a proper diagnosis and that makes me feel like I should just sort it out myself.... But I can't control them, so that's a stupid thing to say. Basically I have periods where I feel it's all my fault and I should be able to control myself. Balhhh.
Hi everyone,
hope everyone is ok? Sorry not been around for a while. Seen the psycharitist who has now diagnosed me with boarderline personality disorder. Anyone have any info on this please. xx
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Well in terms of my mood, it's actually been okay! Really surprised, normally this time of year depression really kicks in... But I'm actually feeling pretty great (:
sorry I haven't been posting here for a while - I've just not felt the need to:) That sounds really selfish, but I have been lurking around and not posting and stuff. I've just felt too good to NEED to post anything - but I'l hang around the thread a bit longer:)
