just added hide box cus its kinda a spoiler to the bell jar
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A contemporary reviewer of The Bell Jar once observed that Buddy Willard is a perfect specimen of the ideal 1950s American male. By the standards of the time, Buddy is nearly flawless. Handsome and athletic, he attends church, loves his parents, thrives in school, and studies to become a doctor. Esther appreciates Buddy's near perfection, and admires him for a long time from afar. But once she gets to know him, she sees his flaws. In what was considered natural behavior in men at that time, Buddy spends a summer sleeping with a waitress while dating Esther, and does not apologize for his behavior. Esther also realizes that while Buddy is intelligent, he is not particularly thoughtful. He does not understand Esther's desire to write poetry, telling her that poems are like dust, and that her passion for poetry will change as soon as she becomes a mother. He accepts his mother's conventional ideas about how he should organize his domestic and emotional life. Buddy's sexuality proves boring—Esther finds his kisses uninspiring, and when he undresses before her, he does so in a clinical way, telling her she should get used to seeing him naked, and explaining that he wears net underwear because his “mother says they wash easily.” Finally, he seems unconsciously cruel. He tells Esther he slept with the waitress because she was “free, white, and twenty-one,” acts pleased when Esther breaks her leg on a ski slope, and, in their last meeting, wonders out loud who will marry her now that she has been in a mental institution.
In some ways, Buddy and Esther endure similar experiences. They both show great promise at the beginning of the novel, and at the novel's end have become muted and worldly. Buddy's time in the sanitarium during his bout with tuberculosis parallels Esther's time in the mental institution. Both experiment with premarital sex. Still, they share few character traits, and Esther must reject Buddy because she rejects his way of life. She will not become a submissive wife and mother and shelve her artistic ambitions.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even
Did you hear about the nurse who died and went straight to hell??
>>It took her two weeks to realize she wasn't at work!
>>
>>You may be a nurse if.....
>>
>>You believe that every patient needs TLC...
>>Temazepam, Lorazepam and Chlorpromazine.
>>
>>You would like to meet the inventor of the nurse buzzer system some
>>night in a dark alley.
>>
>>You believe not all patients are annoying, some are unconscious.
>>
>>Your sense of humor gets more warped each year.
>>
>>Your kids get their presents in TED stockings
>>
>>And their presents are wrapped with Transpore tape.
>>
>>You know the phone number of every late night food delivery place by
>>heart.
>>
>>Almost everything can seem funny ... eventually.
>>
>>When asked by the doctor what
>>color that patient's diarrhoea was, you
>>show them your shoes.
>>
>>You can identify different causes of diarrhoea by the smell of it.
>>
>>Every time you walk you make a jingling noise because of all the keys,
>>scissors and clamps in your pocket.
>>
>>You can tell the pharmacist more about the medication they are
>>dispensing than they know.
>>
>>You use bladder lavage bags to drip water onto your plants when you're
>>on holiday.
>>
>>You refuse to watch Casualty because its too much like the real thing
>>and it triggers flashbacks or...
>>
>>Your family refuse to let you watch Casualty because you spend the
>>whole time correcting everyone and pointing out upside down X-rays.
>>
>>You avoid answering the phone on your day off to in
>>case anyone from
>>the hospital is trying to call and beg you to work.
>>
>>You've been telling stories in a restaurant and made someone at
>>another table throw up.
>>
>>You notice that you are using even more 4 letter words than you did
>>before you started nursing.
>>
>>You've seriously considered catheterising your children before a long
>>car journey.
>>
>>Every time someone asks you for a pen you can find at least 4 of them
>>on you. Most of them have the names of laxatives on them.
>>
>>You don't get excited about blood; unless it's your own.
>>
>>You live by the motto "to be right is only half the battle, to
>>convince the doctor is more difficult"
>>
>>You've basted your Christmas turkey with a 50ml syringe.
>>
>>You've told a confused patient that your name was that of your
>>co-worker and to shout if they need help.
>>
>>When checking the level of a patient's orientation you aren't sure of
>>the day yourself. Or if nightshift, the month.
>>
>>You find yourself checking out other customers' veins in supermarket
>>queues.
>>
>>You can sleep soundly at the hospital cafeteria table on your dinner
>>break and are not be embarrassed when you wake up
>>
>>You avoid unhealthy looking people in the shopping centre for fear
>>that they will drop near you and you'll have to do CPR on your day off.
>>
>>You throw a farewell buffet for a co-worker and use a bed sheet for a
>>tablecloth and bedpans to hold the nachos.
>>
>>You often stay awake for 24+ hrs at a time when you work nights and
>>realise you don't need alcohol or drugs to hallucinate just lack of
>>sleep...
>>
>>You pull over in a
>>layby after working nights because you are too
>>tired to drive home and wake up to someone knocking on your window
>>thinking
>>you've had a stroke because you're passed out in your car drooling.
>>
>>Your finger has gone into places you never thought possible.
>>
>>You've seen more penises than any prostitute.
>>
>>You've sworn to have "Do Not Resuscitate" tattooed on your chest.
>>Soon.
>>
>>If you are not a nurse and have been sent this by a friend who is,
>>it's just to help you understand our mindset and questionable mental
>>state!
x A mother holds her daughter's hand for a little while but her heart forever...x
“You and me, we’ll soldier on together, I was in the trench and you carried me out of it – we’ve lost no war”
oh ok, i think someone tried to keep it from her or she overheard it or something, cant remember precisely
hmm *ponders*
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell. I know, right now you can't tell. But stay a while and maybe then you'll see A different side of me Unwell - Matchbox 20
"Why inflict pain on oneself, when so many others are ready to save us the trouble?"
George Pacaud (1879 - 1937)
This feeling never leaves you alone
You pull the trigger on your own
You're hiding in your safe place
Hiding with your eyes shut tightly all the way to the hospital
Now will you ever rest your head
You end up feeling mostly dead
Pretending you're the last one
Hiding with your eyes shut tightly all the way to the hospital
You're quiet on the car ride home, You're waiting for your head to explode
You're hiding in your safe place
Hiding with your eyes shut tightly all the way to the hospital
Will you look them in the face
Could you look me in the face
Three cheers you fooled them all
Come on now, Hip Hip Hooray
It never used to hurt before it isn't funny anymore
Feeling so alone now, Funny how you wish some way that you'll die at the hospital
Before I cross my heart and hope to die at all
Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars
Before I close my eyes I'm gonna give it up
Take off my mask and leave the lies to the liars
=] the used - hospital i was sending someone it through an email
Favourite torchwood quote
Ianto: Would now be a good time to tell you i lost the car?
Jack: You did what?!
Gwen: That is just bloody spectacular!
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I'm gonna tap him like a maple tree. I'm gonna search him for some syrups. I'm gonna be having sex with him.
