I took the scarf off to go to bed and put it somewhere .
4 hours till my drs appointment ... i have to hold on till then.
Not sure i can.
Husband is sleeping ... am not going to wake him he has only been in bed for 3 hours and i woke him yesterday at this time.
Dont want to do that 2 days in a row.
Can see myself hanging ... cant get the thoughts out of my head
It's a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind it can control you
It's too close for comfort
Went to the drs told her how i was feeling she up'd my medication and told me to call the crisis line if i need to
It's a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind it can control you
It's too close for comfort
Location: In a glass vial in the pocket of a beautiful mind.
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As am I, but don't really want to be talked out of any feelings. Here to support anyone who needs it though.
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Asanunu - People do want to listen to you when you feel like that. It's better than not telling anyone. It's better to talk to someone and be safe and tell them how you're feeling. People who want to listen care about you and want to see you happy. If you ever want to talk, just send me PM, I'll always be there to listen :) xx
Watching her slip away in front of me. She wont open up, she wont talk to me..
I base so much self worth on helping others, because I cant and refuse to help myself, so feel like if I cant fucking help her, then what good am I? What good am I as a friend? As a person? Other than a waste of space?
Trying to help her while doing the same shit she is...
I know I need to go to hospital, but I'm afraid to, and feel like Id have to do something drastic just in order to be accepted.
Even then the only hospitals around are short term, insurance based and shitty.
With 'suicide watch' consisting of sitting in a room, being able to harm yourself anyways because no one gives two shits to pay attention, let alone ask you what the hell is wrong...
Thoughts, voices just kind of echoing...Honestly I see more days as why dont I just fucking end it...
Even though that wouldn't solve shit anyways...
But would be a hell of a lot easier than to deal with all this shit..
what is it with doctors and them making you feel even worse rather then better and making promises they just cant keep :'(
Feel even more like ending it after seeing the doctor.. I knew I should not of put my hopes up. I have lost all faith in doctors and hospitals...
A slow strangle with feet on the floor
I've got 14 angels and we're sleeping alone
In the back of a cave, where the rest of us go
To feel normal
I call baby up. Leave me alone.
I'm in pain but I won't let you band-aid the wound
I'm mad at a stage where I can't even handle my own
ShadowedSoul: Please don't give in. Can you tell anyone about the thoughts. Stay here and talk to us. Babysas: I'm sorry the doctors are making you worse. What happened?
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
no cant tell anyone, my dad has enough on there plate, trying to stop a war between his sisters. just want these thoughts and images to go away, just stop feeling so triggered.
Been talking to my husband about death things like would he kill himself if i killed myself or would he make sure my real name is said during the funeral service if i die .
He is worried that i have something planned .... i dont ...not yet anyway .
It's a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind it can control you
It's too close for comfort
