The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread

Yeh the psych said I needed hospital on Tuesday but weds more the osych liason team sent me home because there was no beds and I wud of had to of been sectioned to get a bed :(

[Doikers]

sorry I've nowt to add...why do I have a new temp Dr? it takes me a year to trust one . I thin k it is unacceptable that my Dr of 5 years leave without a word.
Please excuse me as I freak.....

Us borderlines like to freak it's only natural try n think that this might be a good thing a new insight into the illness

[frenchhorn]

I am sorry to hear that Cheryl. how are you doing?

*hugs Mark* try to go to the new psych with an open mind, know it is hard though.

I have to be up at 6.45am tomorrow morning and I am completely freaking out about my apt with the neurosurgeon, I am convinced that my GP or any of the others will have recruited them as a spy, so they can plan to put a tracking device in me.
I do have a friend meeting me at the tram stop and walking to the hospital with me though, which will help calm me down a bit I hope, but she doesn't know why I am so anxious about the apt and I can't tell her. This could be a very long night, not betting on getting much sleep.
sorry for going on.

[Nosamason]

I freak over everything.. Buts is a far worse reaction then normal one ..
butttt yeah I've cried every night for the past week at the least.. When u try to think why I just.. Remember that when I do fall asleep.. I'll still be the same person .. The one with nothing to wake up too.. The one who will still be alone... I'm in a really bad place right now..

[Doikers]

*Hugs Mason*

*Glomps Oliver*

*Huggles Cheryl*

[Left in the centre]

hey guys.
i've been doing amazingly.
but I can feel it all unravelling.. like my urges to SI to come back, to spend, to act out... I'm scared. i start a new career and training in september and i cant afford to go backwords health wise.

Hi chick well done for doing so well
Is there anything u can put on place to stop u from going backwards

[Doikers]

*Hugs Sarah* Really great that you are doing well ,Do you know what's triggered you? What will you be training to do?

*Hugs Cheryl* How be you hun?

Struggling massively iv got to write down everything that happened to me for my sw but don't know how to write it or where to start

[fragile as glass]

Sarah, you could think about what turned things round for you the first time and see if any of those things could be used again.

Cheryl, you could write things down in bullet points in chronological order - that may seem less daunting than writing paragraphs and pages of stuff. Start from the beginning - did you have a normal birth or was it traumatic, what was your first memory etc.

*gives Mark a hug*

*hugs for anyone who would like or needs one*

[frenchhorn]

Hi Sarah, glad things are going well, like Liddy said try to think what turned things round for you before when things got better, can you put things in place to stop you spiralling downwards.

Cheryl, I agree with Liddy's idea, will hopefully make it less daunting to do.

Mark, *hugs* how are you?

Liddy, how are you doing? *hugs*

I saw neurosurgeon yesterday and shall be having an operation on my back to remove part of the disc which is compressing my sciatic nerve, terrified about it, as I will be under general anaesthetic and vulnerable and it would be the perfect opurtunity to put a tracking device in me.
feeling very anxious and triggered with urges to OD.

[Doikers]

any last words on how to cope with new pdoc?

[frenchhorn]

go in with an open mind Mark, be as open as you can and be honest. best of luck

[fragile as glass]

I wish I had words. I'm seeing my social worker one last time alone then I have to cope with a new social worker and new psychiatrist myself and I'm falling to bits over it all. All I can do is give you a hug *hug* wish you luck *good luck* and I'm here for you if you need to talk either on here or via PM. x

Oliver, you need that operation or they wouldn't say you needed it. It should hopefully stop the constant pain you must be in. Try and let that come above any other negative thoughts you may be having about the operation and spies. Its natural to feel nervous about operations in general though and I'm here if you ever want to talk x

Thanks I'm writing it in bullet points but trying to put details in I'm in my 4th bullet points I'm also having a drink of cider every time I write one so I'm pretty tips I'm getting flashbacks left right n centre it needs to b done by tomorrow so it's going to be a long night

[Kittyenna]

*waves* hey, it's been a long time, hugs to all you guys

[frenchhorn]

thank you Liddy.

Cheryl I hope it went ok and you got your bullet points done.

Hi rinnagirl, I'm Oliver, sorry can't remember your name, how are you?

[Kittyenna]

Hi Oliver, I'm Nat :) not so great to be honest, yourself?

[frenchhorn]

Hi Nat, not great either. here if you want to talk at all.