Thanks everyone. I'm not doing so good today. I passed out sometime after 5 am and didn't get much sleep...I feel more like a zombie today than I did yesterday. Gawd, I hate insomnia. I want to cut, but...I'm kinda afraid that if I do I will go deep...
Right I've HAD ENOUGH!! Why do I HAVE to feel so Low , Isn't My Lithium supposed to control that? , My Lithium can't wear off , It simply can't , I NEED it it's making me Numb and low at the same time , Do I really need a 3rd increase in doseage?! I was on 800mg then it stopped working , so 1000mg and it stopped working not 1200mg and it feels like Its stopping working what not , PLEASE PLEASE be a short term blip . Lithium , My Psych Dr told me would make me numb but would get rid of the Low depression.
Positive thoughts and thoughts and prayers whatever your spiritual path would be very much appreciated .*Thanks*
*Night Time Hugs my Wardies* I love you guys.
To Bed now , I took 20mg Diazepam , Please sleep Pleeeease.
"Asleep is the safest place you can be"
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
Kitty , Could you put on Music , watch t.v., have a bath, eat some cereal Read a favourite Book , Play in the RYL arcade? , And just try and distract yourself. Stay safe Kitty *Hugs*
Night Night .
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
Yeah, see the problem is I have a husband that doesn't really let me do anything. If I listen to music on my computer, I'm distracting him (we don't have headphones and can't afford to buy any). Even though he is not doing anything important - all he does is sit and play in his computer all day and read news on it. No movie is showing interest to me - watched a couple of triggering ones yesterday and just feel blah today and movies don't sound good. I hate reading...when I read I read triggering books, too. Especially when I'm like this. I need a straight jacket.
I will try to stay safe. I just need someone to talk to...support. I can't talk to my husband because he doesn't understand, then gets frustrated because he can't understand, and he starts yellin and bitchin at me which in turn makes it worse. I dont have any friends where we live. Hell I cant even leave the house! If I tell my husband I'm going to go on a walk, he insists on coming with me. It's so annoying and its killin me...
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
*Hugs Kitty* I don't know if it's my place to say, but your husband sounds very...controlling. How is he generally? You can talk to us any time you want, there's usually at least one persno hanging.
OMD. My heart is thudding. My 'Glee' poster just fell off my wall and gave me a heart attack!
*hugs Lia back* thanks...controlling doesn't even begin to describe it. It's sad. He never used to be this way before we got married...we even lived together first and he wasn't like this. Yet he claims that I am the one that has changed...
And *hugs Laura* I know how you feel about no motivation, darlin, and I'm sure I'm not the only one. No need to be sorry.
Kitty, sorry, another personal question. Tell me to bugger off any time you like, I just tend to open my mouth and keep opening it until I go too far. Then I back off. Usually. Anywho, are you happy with him? It doesn't sound as if you are much :/
*Hugs Laura* We've all been there Laura, like Kitty said, there's no need to be sorry. I hope you're alright.
That is a complicated question, and I have a complicated answer. I love him, but I am trying to figure out why. I knew why when we got married, but things have just changed so drastically in the past 7 months that I just don't know anymore. I can't work at this point in my life, but he is not willing to go out and try to find a job, even though he doesn't do anything but sit and play on his computer all damn day long. He complains when I watch shows or movies that he does not like, so I have to wait until he goes to bed to watch anything I want to watch, but he finds it perfectly OK to sit and watch shows that I don't like while I am around. If I am not there or available when he checks the mail, I do not get to open my own f**king mail - he opens it for me and claims he was "just curious". I have caught him in the act of doing so several times and have made comments on it such as "wow it's nice that I don't get to open my mail" and "You know, I don't receive much mail, but when I do, and it's not junk mail, I appreciate opening my own f**king mail", but it doesn't do any good - he still continues to do as he pleases. He tells me to talk to him when I feel down and all, but then all he does is yell and bitch at me and somehow makes it seem like it's my fault in one way or another. I just don't know anymore. :(
~*~*~ I love my wardies ~*~*~
hi. Im Danika. 14, sad, and alone. Dont really like bein touched.
Im Chloe. Im 6 years old and shy. I like to play and color.
I'm Clarissa. I'm 17 and a protector. I do what I need to for everyone else.
laura.. you and me both =s. cant afford =s stupid finals week/papers/craap
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
*curls up in the corner and hides under a bunch of blankets and doesn't move*
~*~*~ I love my wardies ~*~*~
hi. Im Danika. 14, sad, and alone. Dont really like bein touched.
Im Chloe. Im 6 years old and shy. I like to play and color.
I'm Clarissa. I'm 17 and a protector. I do what I need to for everyone else.
=[ sup?
*offers a jar of hugs you can take from as yuo want :)*
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
