is going to be about 11ish, wanna drink but he wants togo for a drive
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Well, we can both be boring and sober. I have had 1 bottle of wine that I have been drinking for hours and still got a couple of glasses in it - apparently this is the normal way to drink :(
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
ooft i've had 1 drink, want more but can't if i am going out for a drive later...just going for a quick bath
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
He did't text and although he said he would txt when his parents went to bed, coz he wanted to spend time with them whilst he was up and blah blah, he said about 11...well I am working at 7, my head is pounding and now I've taken my meds, so he has had his chance and I wish I didn't even know he had been home this weekend, :(
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
Hey Cheryl. I don't actually see the point in life, a thing I always struggle with. Loads of peeps I know with mh problems say that they understand the want to live when they have happy moments but I don't understand that. I want to escape frmo life.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
i undestand exactley where ur cuming from chick. im like that. i keep being told to keep fighting by people so i guess thats wat we gota do untill it becomes 2nd nature to be happish and want to live. sorry i dont know ya name chick. if u wanna chat pm or sumthing k. uve been so much help n support for me i hope u havent done nething cus u seem like a real star xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Yeah I'm fine, thanks had a fab time out first time in such a long time that ive enjoyed being out, odd thing is i mostly talked to random people and not the peopel i went out with lol i love that.
I know what you mean carrie, even when im not hopelessly lost and depressed i still think well theres not much point really is there, i can be in a perfectly decent mood and still think that possibly being dead or SH would be the way forward
Hi everyone.Sorta drunk and really depressed. I really want to cut my wrists. I know what it would do to my family but I cant seem to care. I SI'd already tonight.Wish I could see my doctor sooner. Over 6 weeks left till my next app.
Helen
Nobody realizes that some people expend tremendous energy merely to be normal-Albert Camus
cant you call up and get an emergancy appointment. Im sorry you are feeling that may, it might be best have have a nice bath and going to bed early to try and avoid all these thoughts.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
*hugs crazy pink socks* i think asking for an earlier appointment wouldnt be wasting their time if you feel as bad as you seem to *more hugs* try and hold on
