I'm... not well, at all. This sucks. I'm sick of dealing with voices, and panic, and SI. I want so badly to be well, but I'm afraid of people leaving me once I am well. Make sense?
"Life is easy to chronicle, but bewildering to practice."-- E.M. Forster
Yeah Felcia, it does. No one will leave you, we'll still be here, either if you want to support others, if you ever need help again yourself, or if you just fancy a chat. Friends don't desert each other. Ever. And we're just basically one messed up, dysfunctional, diverse, geogrpahically challenged friendship group.
Thanks :) It's just I had a fight with my friend and she played the guilt card and instead of backing down and reassuring her I basically just told her where to go. I really can be a cow in arguments because that's when I go into total 'I'm not going to let you hurt me' mode. It's not what I say, more my tone and refusal to show I care at all which tends to lead people to think I don't care about the friendship. Oh, and I love you too :)
*Hugs Ian* Other than that, which I am actually loling over now, I'm alright. You?
I phoned the voluntary crisis team last night but as soon as someone answered they seemed to want to hang up as quickly as possible. They just told me to go and do a jigsaw which wasn't very helpful. I don't know who to turn to for help.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Oh Lindsay *Hugs* I guess they were just trying to get you to focus on something else but a jigsaw sounds pretty ridiculous when you feel like you do. Could you call someone in your support team? Social Worker , professional Crisis team , Therapist ? Etc . I'l always listen if you just want to talk on here it's fine too :)
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
You called me an angel, there must be a twist,
Have you ever seen an angel with scars on her wrist?
And blood trickling down from a gash on her arm,
Have you ever seen an angel self harm?-Unknown
*hugs helen* I'm not good :( I Hate the christmassy atmosphere, my mum has christmas music on really loud and is putting the tree up and making mince pies. It's really triggering me. You?
You called me an angel, there must be a twist,
Have you ever seen an angel with scars on her wrist?
And blood trickling down from a gash on her arm,
Have you ever seen an angel self harm?-Unknown
*hugs helen* It's just making me think about my plans. I mean, I know I don't wanna do it anymore, but it's still on my mind, and i just want christmas to be over. :(
You called me an angel, there must be a twist,
Have you ever seen an angel with scars on her wrist?
And blood trickling down from a gash on her arm,
Have you ever seen an angel self harm?-Unknown
