We're having trouble..
Being sick isn't helping anything either. Going back and forth between trying to read/laying in bed trying to sleep and feeling...odd, lips are tingling, feeling shaky and all just bizarre up in the head...
Seeing Navas's posts made me want to ask: is it ok if I read this thread? I read it almost every day. I don't have DID, but my girlfriend does, and I believe -------------. I often read this thread because my girlfriend doesn't like to talk much about her DID (or, most of her parts don't) and reading this helps me get some sense of what she's going through. Sometimes you guys raise issues that I know she's dealt with too and it can help me to understand them better, or I know better how to talk to her about them. I guess reading this thread kind of indirectly supports me and her.
I didn't realise you guys could see it as unhelpful or intrusive though. If it bothers you that I read this thread regularly, I'll stop. Just let me know?
conor- for one thing.. you prolly wouldnt know if you met someone in real life with DID or who disoociate or has "others".. for most its a secret. we dont just going telling everyone.. we only tell those we highly trust...as trust is a HUGE issue with dissociation.
online is different as well.. we can just not go back to the site if we want.
Rosy- you are welcome here as far as i am concerned. DID and dissociation closely affects you ..although it isnt you experiencing it personally.. you do have a reason to be here and a true reason to try to understand it more. no worries. SADIE
I broke up with my boyfriend today. I don't know if I am allowed to do that. I don't love him. I don't want to have s*x with him. It feels like abuse sometimes. Mercy might be able to force her way out, I normally wake up, having been chucked back into the body, n*ked and hurting. But I worry it's wrong because Sophie and Mercy love him. Idk.
:S
Help?
Oh and also, complete paranoia set in when on the train, I was hypervigilant (more so than normal) and just wanted to run and hide. I wonder if anyone has any tips to help when that happens?
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Thanks for that. I feel better about reading along now!
I'm sorry everyone here is having such a tough time. :( I know I don't have any direct experience, but if anyone ever wants to vent to me in a PM or anything, you're always welcome to.
Rosy, it's fine with us if you post, as a supporter of someone (or someones :P) like Katie said you are welcome. If you have any questions that you think might help you understand more, feel free to ask :)
Hiding,
No we haven't had them checked, if it keeps up we'll ask our GP.
Tabitha,
It does sound like high anxiety levels.. Do you have things you do when you are anxious/distressed? There are lots of grounding/mindfulness techniques about that can really help (they help us).
We are going to try 9again) to sleep.
Take care everyone
rosey- youre welcome hon. as lostboys said feel free to ask anything you need that may help you understand you girlfriend better. I know ..it was weird for me ..i started out believing i was singleton.. some here can vouch that knew me then.. i was psych student interested in DID made friends learned supported them.. then well everything crashed it seemed and then i had sarah and now sadie.. i dont know ..sometimes i still feel like a big fake ..but well guess it really meant something if sarah was out with dr other day.. i was suppossed to be not her.. not sure what went wrong there.. anyhow rambling sorry.. anyhow feel free to ask questions or ask for support.. cant be too easy being the SO of someone with others either i would guess... i know my hubby has a little trouble with it.
lostboys~ good. its nothing to be too alarmed about if that is what it is.. symptoms list with it goes on forever but it is tolerable although annoying lol
It's just weird. I guess the stuff with Tom wasn't helping. I felt I was in everyone's way, that I had to curl up and be very small so I wouldn't make anyone mad at me. Also, and this is weird, I am eating baby food atm, it makes me feel safe. Has anyone else done this, or similar?
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Rosy- you are welcome to post here. I think it will help the people you are supporting so much.
Hiding me: Sarah: I hope you are feeling okay today. I bought Gwennie a camera and put stickers of Russian Dolls (like us) all over it. It's a film camera, like they had when you and her were outside, so she knows how to make it work. Cool huh?
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I don't have DID obviously, but I do a few babyish things, including eating baby foods sometimes! I've also drunk out of a bottle and I have a sippie cup. I think it's fairly common among survivors of abuse to have a few childish habits.
Thank you so much what you've said. :) It's really, really helpful. My girlfriend was diagnosed with DID about a year ago, and I think it's been really helpful for her, and me as well. Before, we just had no idea what was going on. Now we have a name for it it's a lot more easy to understand. I find it a lot easier to support her, or just back off if that's what she needs.
Things with my mother are a lot more difficult... I don't really know whether she has DID or not, but she has a lot of the same symptoms as my girlfriend and I have seen her switch to different people many times. When I was little and the one I think of as the 'mean' one used to show up I would shout 'You're not my mum!' over and over. Lately I've been trying to encourage my mother to go to her doctor and discuss her symptoms, but it's really hard to get her too. She just won't acknowledge she has alters or any other symptoms as well, although my dad and I are aware of them.
Ugh, sorry for writing an essay!
I'm really sorry you're feeling insecure and needy, Katie. :( I feel like that a lot too, it can be really frustrating. Can you try being good to yourself? Have something you really like to eat, or take a bath with lots of lovely bubbles, or cuddle a teddy bear?
