hey guys, sorry u r all having tough times .. Not any different on my end... Had a few good days I've the past 2 weeks or so but only a few.. Keep thinking about my ex which is making me want to hurt my self sooo bad... Like pass out bad.. I've held back... But its not easy
read most of the posts, and fresh eggs are so much better then the ones from the store.
and Oliver I hope u can get what u need.
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thank you Mason, well done for holding back on hurting yourself, know it isn't easy though.
The Golden Hind shall be finished today, the last bits to do. I shall post loads of pictures in the picture board. I feel weird, sleepy, but I think I actually slept last night, I'm rather confused, had to look at my phone several times to make sure I knew what day it was.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
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I know Mark!! lol. and I just had another few hours sleep, ws exhausted and couldn't concentrate so went back to bed for a bit, cracking on with the Golden Hind in a minute.
how are you Mark?
Stressed Kat, about my GP appointment tomorrow and about a letter from the bank which I just do not understand because it is in technical terms, wish they had a simple version for people who aren't business or economic geniuses.
Whats up Kat? about if you want to talk.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
My CC came round, started off me not talking, then she got annoyed with me and said she wasn't a mind reader, I then got annoyed, then started crying uncontrollably and actually told her some stuff I feel I need, because she said she doesn't think I need a CC or the CMHT because I don't have a physical illness/disability that means I need practical help, I thought to myself why is it called the community mental health team then if she is basing it on me not having a physical disability. Anyway I said I needed help with practical stuff, I may seem independent and capable because I live alone and moved away from my parents at 18, but I am really not capable, it can take between 30-60 minutes to get out of my front door, I have to self harm before I even try, then when I am out it is hood up, music on loud and walk quickly, except then I slow down round bridges, or I start yelling and swearing and people get angry with me so I panic and freak out more. So in the end she said she would refer me to the support worker in the CMHT, she said there is a great guy called Lee who she thinks would work well with me, he could take me to the shops, or town or the gym etc and help me get out and about and maybe go back to some of my activities I haven't been o since december. So that is a positive, no idea if I will keep seeing her or another CC, not sure how that was resolved, but I feel we needed the annoyance today from both of us to get somewhere. Have to force myself out now and into town, for a bus pass form and paints for my ship otherwise it won't get finished and I won't have a bus pass anymore. Feel stupid for crying so much, I literally couldn't stop for ages.
sorry to go on and on there everyone.
how are you Liddy?
It does sound like a good film, don't it, lol!
I agree with you regarding any physical problems you may or may not have. I also am under the impression that CMHT meant MENTAL health and that should have been her focus. Lets hope something good comes from it.
I really want to cut my leg. I fantasise and dream about it, problem is I have another bowel operation in 2 weeks and I don't think they will operate with me having *** staples in my leg. Plus the burn on my arm still isn't healed. Why did I get addicted to self harm. Aaargh
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*Squishes Liddy*
*squishes you back*
How is everyone? Anyone doing ok otherwise you'll get another egg story out of me again to cheer you up, haha lol!
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
*huggles Liddy* try to focus on the fact you have your operation, you are right, I know people won't operate if there are any kind of cuts or wounds that are not healed due to increased infection risk.
I too wish I had never got addicted to self harm, it is horrible, I am doing it most days at the moment.
ooo I want a chicken story!!!!!! please :)
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
This morning I heard a racket in the garden. Isabel the chicken had escaped and my cat was in the garden scared (embarrassing right?!) then I spotted another cat and it went after my chicken. I raced outside and shooed the stranger cat away, reprimanded my cat for embarrassing me and told him that it was his job to scare other cats away not me. I ran in my nightshirt and underwear round the back garden, caught Isabel, put her under my arm and stalked off back to the chicken run and locked her away from the rest (hoping that by punishing her she would stop escaping the non-roofed run.) Unfortunately I had left the gate opened and all 4 other chickens had escaped so I had to chase them back in the run. I got home from the dr's and supermarket and went to let her out (I'm not THAT cruel) and to say sorry she laid an egg for me!
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
The chickens do keep me fit and so do my rabbits - Pippa (the 3 leg rabbit) has just thrown her food bowl across the hallway - she picks them up with her teeth and front paws and hurls them. Shes a strong rabbit. Last week I saw her with her bowl on her head *rolls eyes* I think shes slightly unhinged (gets that from her mother!) She likes to play 'removals' and moves things on the floor if they are in ''her'' way!
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
just sent mum a really bad text in the heat of the moment - scared now of her response. if she shows dad im fu*ked. he will come round here and break my door down
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
your animals are funny Liddy.
How are you doing this evening?
*hugs Liddy* anyway you can ask her not to show him?
Hi Cheryl, I'm anxious and stressed but also happy as I finished the ship! How are you?
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
