she sent me a PM on the 3rd of March Hellz that I've just seen, as I've been offline for a few days and it says under her username that she is currently banned.
Awesome news Mark. how is he?
How are you Hellz?
*hugs Dawn* I'm sorry you are in so much pain and your mum said that to you, ignore her. how are you doing today?
How was work Mason?
*hugs Nil and angel of despair*
*hugs Kat and Liddy* how are you both?
Susie and Lucy haven't been around for quite a while, has anyone heard from either of them, or know them outside of here? I know Lucy was busy with school and doing her UCAS stuff, but she hasn't been around for a few weeks now, neither has Susie.
*hugs anyone I may have missed*
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
It says Susie was last online earlier today, but hasn't posted since 20th feb. She sometimes does come online, but not post, I know she has done this before.
Lucy hasn't been online since 19th Feb, but her facebook link is on her profile so I've had a look at it and it seems she posted something on there about 4 hours ago. Does anyone think I should send her a message on there just to see if she is ok?
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Oliver, thanks. I just overheard her say it. Still disturbing.... Especially when...yeah...you've survived a lot of trauma. Yes, I would say to please send Lucy a message. I've been hurting a lot today, probably overdid it yesterday. Sinus infection, and just feeling like sh*t today really. How are you doing? *hugs*
Mark, glad your dad is home. *hugs*
*hugs hellz, liddy, and everyone else*
So your scars fade away/You soaked up the pain/A better person 'cause you lived through those days/And now you know what it's like to prove/You can overcome anything that gets to you/Well it's alright/We're sayin' our goodbyes/To the past and everything that ain't right/We won't waste another day/With all these silly things in our way-Crossfade
Light a candle for the sinners...Set the world on fire...
*hugs Dawn* sorry you are in so much pain and not feeling good.
I will send Lucy a message in a minute, shall just say something like 'hope you are ok as we haven't seen you in the BPD thread for a few weeks now and were just wondering how you were doing.'
I understand that Dawn, I overhear people say things like 'oh verbal/emotional abuse isn't really abuse it isn't as bad as physical or sexual abuse' that makes me really angry, if only they knew what it was like being verbally and emotionally abused by your own father for years.
I feel weird, Wednesday afternoon I started two new meds from my psych, they won't make the spies go away and the police reading my thoughts, because they really are, they (my GP and psych) don't believe me, just say the meds will stop them. But I'm only taking the meds because the police are watching everything I do and can read my thoughts so they would know if I wasn't taking them and come and get me. anyway yesterday at about 3am I was really ill, collapsed in the bathroom and felt really sick and dizzy. slept all day then and then slept a bit last night until about 10pm, been awake since then and it is nearly 7am now and I feel like I need to do loads, I've just had breakfast, I haven't had breakfast since last year and now I'm going to wait about an hour for it to go down and then do a workout with my gym ball and weights. feel really weird. got to leave my flat to post a parcel, the post office is only a two minute walk, but still, terrified about leaving my flat. everytime I leave I have to self harm beforehand just to feel slightly better, so suicidal as well. sorry went on a bit there.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
my social worker cancelled her visit to me today, dammit, I wanted to vent. something about a flat tyre.
i want to s/h bad on my leg. keep thinking about it, dreaming about it, even fricking fantasising about it - does anyone else do that or am i just weird?
got my operation date for 5th april, not long to wait - luckily i can take saturdays and cancellations. hopefully no more bowel operations after that.
xx
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
sore backside, swollen arm, worried about stuff in general, just need to get to my birthday unscathed as thats a very unsafe time for me - april 4th is my birthday then april 5th they will cut my bowel up to disable the muscles from being able to spasm
*hugs oliver* hows life treating you? x
GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE
THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN
AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE
Um... all over the place if I am honest, angry at channel four and ranted on facebook about it, getting into an argument with someone on a facebook group, got to go to the shop over the road as I have nothing to drink except water and I need something with flavour. but leaving my flat, even to go and check my post is so hard, but then being in my flat is hardly safer, the police are in my head constantly knowing everything I think and then their spies and camera's are outside everywhere. I'm going to maybe put a film on and do some weights and exercises with my gym ball and dumb bells.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Hi Rabbit ferris, of course. I'm Oliver. do you have a preferred name you would like us to call you. we do our best to support each other in here, plus have a laugh and a bit of fun as well.
How are you?
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
