Thanks Laura. This thread is here to support, if you need it.
*Licks Hannah* I know what you mean, I do. Like...things get better, so in turn you stop worrying so much, but then that becomes and worry and stuff...Maybe if binging is rare now, when things start getting better just keep an eye on what you're eating? Meal plans and being cautious without halting any enjoyment/happiness you might have? Life, as I am slowly coming to realize, is all about balance and moderation. Which, unfortunately, some of us really struggle with. That doesn't make it impossible though. <3
Katieee, if you're going to lose weight, do it healthily and 'right', yes? I know how upsetting ill fitting clothes are, sorry you're feeling like that. *Cuddles*
Ahh, Amy, thank you. Good advice, I'll try to keep it in mind. I've never really put enough effort into meal plans and such, need to give it another go.
How're you doing?
I'm alright, just did some progress pics and can see some changes in my body, which is nice. It's only been 4 weeks though so I'm gunna keep at it. I dunno. Just a bit...fed up I guess. Wanting a magic wand to wave and make it all ok. I'm pretty good at fooling myself just recently, but hey ho. =]
Progress is good, I'm glad for you. But please please make sure you're doing this healthily and looking after yourself. I know the feeling about wanting a magic wand, I wish there was one. Try to be honest with yourself, and then maybe with other people so they / we can help. Bah. I'm sorry I have no words right now. But I hope you're okayy. <333
I'd have to do it healthily, if I don't eat I get really stroppy (seems to be a side effect of the contraceptive pill I'm on), especially in the morning. I'm wondering if its the mirtazapine that's made me gain weight. I'm almost wondering whether to ask to change meds again because I know its one for actual weight gain, not just increased appetite. I'm just sick of being larger than everyone else, and lying by saying I'm comfortable with myself. And I'm sick of everyone else lying to me to make me feel better, I don't want the pity vote. I just wish this was easy.
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
no i doubt it it'd been going on for years. Started with binge eating then led to restricting then a cycle and now back to this.
Just rang b-eat who were al very nice and everything but they can't fix me I have to do that myself.
B-eat suggested I go to my GP.
I'm already in group therapy in a young persons group for other mental health issues - just general unhappiness.
I need to have a proper eating disorder. I need to stop eating. I need to get thin. I need to feel beautiful. I need to be able to concentrate on my Uni work.
Nobody needs an ED. I'm sure everyone with "ordinary" end of spectrum disorders (AN/BN/etc) would agree with that, as well as those of us with binging & overeating problems, which in themselves are EDs, although society may dictate otherwise. Anywho, thin is not equal to beautiful, and beautiful is not equal to happiness. And if you want to be able to concentrate on uni work but want/need to lose weight, the best sort of option really would be to lose it healthily. You can't focus if you're starving hungry and craving food, and the information you need to learn won't go in as well as it should, at least in my experience. I think the b-eat people are right- a conversation with your GP may be a good idea. Maybe they could refer you to a dietician or something, who can help you lose weight healthily but also maintain enough intake that you can function well.
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
Well, that's your choice, but there's no reason to be. They've heard it all before from people probably huge amounts larger than you, and they are there to help afterall, and not judge. Though I'm sure there are plenty of online resources to help plan a balanced and healthy diet, as well as taking on the mindful techniques in Aimee's sticky on COE/binging at the top of this forum.
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
Wake me up before I change again
Remind me the story that I won't get insane
Tell me why it's always the same
Explain me the reason why I'm so much in pain.
Haven't binged tonight but god knows I would like to. Went into Tesco today and I was so close to just buying everything I saw. Urgh. I'm glad I didn't though.
erm... I know I don't really belong in here but I am constantly binging. Even when I try to eat 'okay' sized portions I end up binging.
Uni and the combination of stress and tiredness and boredom being sat in my room all the time, along side the sheer number of convinience stores, supermarkets and fast food outlets within 10 minutes of my flat is just making it too easy for me to binge. I'm spending all my money on food and not purging which I think is contributing to how bothered I am about this
Plus tomorrow I'm in lectures from 9-4 straight with no time to get lunch, so I'm going to be starving when I get out and I have to walk past several shops and takeaways on my way back, no matter which side of the street I'm on.
Amy <3333 I'm glad (that it has been healthy for the most part). If you gain it back or not, in the beginning, I tend to view as more of a side effect to stabilising your diet. And then once it gets healthy it will generally fall off again - but, will remain off because it was done in a healthy way. I'm proud of you Amy, please be safe x.
Airlyeth, that was very good of you not to buy the binge food, it shows your in control. What's been going on for you at the moment that's making you feel so bad?
Hey Katie <3 I don't know why you don't belong here - everyone does, especially if you're struggling with binging.
Can you bring some food with you into the lecture? Maybe pre-pack a sandwhich or some nuts & fruits to munch on? And then when you get out you can either buy nothing or a little bit and say "I don't need any more cause I've had stuff during the lecture". If that's not possible, maybe a big breakfast to keep you full?
As for the binging it sounds so familiar, especially when you say all your money is going into it. Something that helped me was to remind myself that I couldn't really afford to buy food, and it stopped me for that small second to think about what I was really doing. Sometimes it worked, sometimes it didn't, but each time it does you're a bit closer to getting better.
When you've had a normal sized portion, do you go back and get more? How does it turn into a binge? I wonder if we could work on some idea to break the pattern there- slowly.
Hope everyone is okay. 
erm... I know I don't really belong in here but I am constantly binging. Even when I try to eat 'okay' sized portions I end up binging.
