KitKat, I totally agree with that we're family which is not good enough for both of us :/
She didn't believe you but guess keep trying that they will believe you..
It's all good for you right now :)
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Oh no my old T eventually did believe me after talking it over with some other therapists. Cos in September I had a police officer and a social worker round to talk about the whole thing with me and ask me in detail what happened. Wasn't exactly a nice experience.
That bit's good but everything else seems to be not working. Urgh. When one's up, everything else is down.
KitKat, Oh dear, this is not good at all! Was police involved with your cousin about it? That's sucks, it was a bad experience for you to deal with those things which is not good.
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Well the social worker said that she knew all about Freyja and how troublesome she is (she's been in care for a while now). They asked me to go into detail about what happened, then they were like we need to talk to her as well, and I was like but you can't, she'll go mad, she'll kill me blah blah blah and I don't know whats happened since.
My mom had many different ways of sexually abusing me. Sometimes she would have me do things to her or do things to me. Often she was "accidentally" seductive by letting her robe fall open in front of me and then touching herself or she would come into the bathroom and use the stool in front of me when I was in the tub. If I would go upstairs to m'bate (I know, i'm disgusting), she would come up to catch me in the act or to find evidence. Then she would punish me for it. Sometimes she would direct one of my brothers to sexually molest me or do torture stuff to me and she would "enjoy the show" as she put it. I hate myself for it all. I have alot more that happened but I can't say much more right now, sorry. take care everyone.
Welcome splitperson3, I'm Tracie. *hugs* You did a really good job of sharing, that's a lot to get out. It's hard to talk about. And you're not disgusting if you masturbated as a teen. That's normal sexual development, and when in private it's ok. That stuff was really wrong of your mother to do to you, and it's not your fault. We're listening if and when you'd like to you can come to get out more.
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
Well done on letting that out, love. Your mum sounds disgusting, not you. Masturbation, as Tracie said, is a normal act of sexual development & lots of grown-ups keep doing it. It's a great way of knowing what you enjoy sexually.
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You are not alone with this, it's pretty normal when I do Masturbation for myself since that happened as a teen and a adult now..I know it's has been long coming..it is pretty normal to me anyway.
Your mom sounds disgusting to me and she shouldn't do that to you really. It's horrible that makes thing bad from your mom wasn't not nice at all..
I would have been turned on by my mum if I hadn't been able to block out my sexual feelings at that time. Due to those events & the blockades because of that, I'm barely able to orgasm nowadays. So be grateful your brain didn't block it out & please try not to feel dirty or guilty about it.
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Becoming physically aroused or having orgasms does not mean you are "turned on" by something. It only means that you have been sexually stimulated. You are not disgusting and it doesn't mean you want it, asked for it or wanted to participate.
The brain also associates certain emotions with sexual arousal. For many people who've been sexually abused, their body may give signs of arousal when they are very frightened. This does not mean you are "turned on", but your body is preparing itself for sexual activity it anticipates. Your body and that part of your brain does not realize if you are unwilling or too young to experience this, it simply goes on instinct.
None of you are dirty or bad if your body reacted to abuse. *hugs for all*
Farewell the Ashtray Girl
July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
You're welcome. *hugs everyone* Anyone can PM me if they have any personal questions or issues they aren't comfortably posting on a board. Feel free to ask me to post things as well if you want.
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July 12, 1987-April 30, 2010
