The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Don't worry, Laura, 1 teeny weeny cut and is ok to steri-strip once I am sure it has stopped bleeding as it keeps trying. Ihave plenty of steri-strips and dressings to look after it once finished.

[whirlpools]

Cuts needing steri-strips are still pretty bad :(

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Nah, I am just vain and don't want them to scar too much. They will be fine.

[whirlpools]

Will you be fine? How are you?

[ThinkingofRecovery]

I will be fine, physically.

Hanging on in there at the moment.

[whirlpools]

Do you think you could try to go to bed and get some sleep? It might make tomorrow a bit easier (I know that's a bit hypocritical, as I'm still up).

[ThinkingofRecovery]

I'm not able to sleep yet. I kind of don't want to as when I turn the lights out, the men are way scarier than when the lights are on.

[Left in the centre]

thats the reason i cant sleep too.
im scared hun.

we can be scared together.. try and sleep with the light on if u can that can help

[whirlpools]

That's a good idea, Sarah.

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Sorry, busy trying to resist the urge to harm properly.

[whirlpools]

I hope you will manage Carrie. Keep distracting or ring a friend/helpline if you need to talk, or stick around here. xxx

[ThinkingofRecovery]

I can't call anyone. Will prob lurk on this site for a bit.

I wish I could really damage myself. My cuts are pathetic these days.

[Left in the centre]

i know how u feel bout "pathetic" cuts.
but really we all know the serverity doesnt really count its the fact we needed to do it.

you need to try and keep yourse;f safe hun. if ur worried about going to the TC... then wont resisted urges ect work in your favor

[x-dying-inside-x]

Hi everyone.
how are you all??
sorry ive not been online the last two days have been really bad.

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Quote:

Originally Posted by Left in the centre

i know how u feel bout "pathetic" cuts.
but really we all know the serverity doesnt really count its the fact we needed to do it.

you need to try and keep yourse;f safe hun. if ur worried about going to the TC... then wont resisted urges ect work in your favor

I am not looking forward to having to tell them that I have failed and go through the whole od incident last week -argh lol

[Left in the centre]

i know ur not.. but if you dont really talk about it .. and things havent improved maybe this really is the way to actually changing things.
its difficult to trust them when your already unsure about them.. but
you wouldnt be put in therapy/group situations just for the sake of it.
i promise

[Left in the centre]

still cant fecking sleep.
i have my candle, and oil and music.. and read and watched tv and lay there and wrote down everything bothering me.
argh i have to be up in 4 fecking hours.

make that 2 hours now.

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Aww Sarah, I hate not being able to sleep. I hope you managed to get a little sleep in the end.
*hugs*

[ThinkingofRecovery]

I should be in work this morning but called in sick. Going to work Wed, Thurs, Fri mornings instead of Mon, Wed, Fri as planned.

Why is it that my anxiety cripples me so much on a Monday? It doesn't make sense, there is no difference in terms of work for me on a Monday. I failed.

Need to make sure I still have a shower later. Trying to make sure I do some constructive things to try and alleviate the guilt of failing to go into work.

[zowie]

I need to go to the Jobcentre today to sign. But I woke up feeling really really horrible and anxious. I really don't want to leave the house, but I have to.
And, since I have to leave the house, I have to have a bath (I look disgusting) but again, really don't want to.
Ugh. Why couldn't I feel like this on a day where I have nothing to do? Or not at all??