My first love still haunts me.
As I admitted to someone for the first time the other day, he's the reason my depression esculated how it did, and he's the reason I have an ED.
I hate him, I really do....but everytime I see him....a little part of me forgets that....
I honestly don't think we do ever "get over" them....I just think we learn they aren't where we are headed in life anymore.
Location: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
I am currently:
Hey house... sorry I haven't been around much...
Life, ya know?
Can I have a hug?
Deep trouble, losing control. Primary resistance at a critical low.
On the double gotta get ahold. Point of no return one second to go. No response on any level. Red alert this vessel's under seige, total overload. System's down, they've got control.
There's no way out.
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
Location: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
I am currently:
Thanks...
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All I've been able to think about for the last couple days is how best to off myself.
It really scares me.
I'm sure it scares my boyfriend and my "brother" too (since they're the only ones I've told).
I'm seeing a counselor, and I can talk to her but...
I have commitments and I can't go into the hospital (like I probably should) right now.
I've already dropped out of psychology, and I think I'm going to fail English,
which I need to graduate.
I feel like it's so pointless.
I can't see myself past graduation like I could before...
I don't even know if I'm GOING to graduate at this point...
I feel like I'm just not going to live that much longer and that that's better.
And on the home front I've got my emotionally abusive brother coming home for Christmas.
My parents didn't even ask me how I might feel about that
and they just decided that it was okay for him to come home for the holiday.
I was actually kinda looking forward to Christmas until I heard that...
Now I don't even want to be home for it.
I have SO much trouble getting out of bed in the morning,
I can hardly get to school at all.
I feel like my life is falling apart and there's nothing I can do.
I just have to stand here and watch everything around me go up in smoke...
And it makes me want to die...
Deep trouble, losing control. Primary resistance at a critical low.
On the double gotta get ahold. Point of no return one second to go. No response on any level. Red alert this vessel's under seige, total overload. System's down, they've got control.
There's no way out.
Maybe talk to your English teacher and explain to him/her that you have a lot of emotional stuff (don't have to say what) and you need some help to pass. Or tell your teacher that you are going to be gone for a little while due to health reasons, talk to your counselor, and see if going to the hospital will help.
Location: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
I am currently:
She knows, but you still have to do a level of work to pass the course, and I only went one day this week...
As for the hospitalization, it isn't class work that concerns me.
I have a principle role in the upcoming school play, and we're so late in the game that there is no way I could be replaced.
Deep trouble, losing control. Primary resistance at a critical low.
On the double gotta get ahold. Point of no return one second to go. No response on any level. Red alert this vessel's under seige, total overload. System's down, they've got control.
There's no way out.
Location: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
I am currently:
I have to be.
I'll fight with everything I have to be...
It's sad, but the play is more important to me than my own life...
Deep trouble, losing control. Primary resistance at a critical low.
On the double gotta get ahold. Point of no return one second to go. No response on any level. Red alert this vessel's under seige, total overload. System's down, they've got control.
There's no way out.
Location: Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
I am currently:
Thanks Shannon.
Deep trouble, losing control. Primary resistance at a critical low.
On the double gotta get ahold. Point of no return one second to go. No response on any level. Red alert this vessel's under seige, total overload. System's down, they've got control.
There's no way out.
Don't be fooled by my smooth skin. The deepest scars are the ones unseen.
Remember compliments you received, forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how..~ Baz Lurhman.
Letting it get to you - You know what that's called? Being alive. Best thing there is. Being alive right now that's all that counts. ~ Doctor Who "The Doctors Wife" 06.November.2011
It's easily the best of the Potter films.
Shame they're getting their act together right at the end. they should have been this excellent from the start.
Don't be fooled by my smooth skin. The deepest scars are the ones unseen.
Remember compliments you received, forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how..~ Baz Lurhman.
Letting it get to you - You know what that's called? Being alive. Best thing there is. Being alive right now that's all that counts. ~ Doctor Who "The Doctors Wife" 06.November.2011
Don't be fooled by my smooth skin. The deepest scars are the ones unseen.
Remember compliments you received, forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how..~ Baz Lurhman.
Letting it get to you - You know what that's called? Being alive. Best thing there is. Being alive right now that's all that counts. ~ Doctor Who "The Doctors Wife" 06.November.2011
