Dawn, I'm tempted to do the grass myself! Only problem is that I'm really allergic to grass :S I come out in a terrible rash, start being sick, have trouble staying awake, and get feverish. Sigh :( I'm tempted to do it anyway... :S Why are they saying you have violated your probation? I hope things work out *hugs*
Oliver, it sounds like things with your Grandma are going to be quite stressful. an you have a safety plan in place for those days? Like could your sister or mum be available for if you need to get out of the house and away from things for a bit? Or do you have any friends or interests in the area that could be an excuse? *hugs*
Got my CMHT appointment at 10. I can't be bothered.
Nope I know no one in that area, my grandma is in Wiltshire, I come from Berkshire, even if we were in Berkshire I have no friends there either. My sister and I are going to just try and stick together and have fun, my sister has just said she wants to basically rave it up with me and mum. We shall have to be sneaky and change the place names on the table so we are sat with each other! There is a little field up the road in the housing area where my grandma lives and the local town is about a 15-20min walk from her house, but I know that if I try to leave on my own at any point when I'm not meant to, I shall get questioned and possibly told off. I just hope me and my sister can just have lots of fun and stay out of the serious stuff and my grandma's way. My aunt and uncle who are also there can be quite serious and my aunt is a snob. But my grandmas partner is funny, he just takes the piss out of her in a friendly way and will probably let us help a bit with cooking and things as he is in charge. I will no doubt end up texting the Samaritans though at some point.
*hugs Mark* Had similar said to me Mark, really not helpful.
I failed today to do anything, or do my eating plan, woke up at 5.30pm having fallen asleep about 7.30am. I am going to take a diazepam tonight at about midnight because they make me sleepy, then force myself to turn my laptop off and try to sleep, because I HAVE to be up tomorrow, must ring my GP, must post a couple of cards, must pick up stuff from the post office, must start tidying and do some clothes washing to pack for Monday.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Suzie, ah, ok. I figured there was a reason. I have allergies to grass I'm pretty sure too. Maybe just pour bleach all over the lawn, and call it good? Lol *hugs*
Oliver, Thank you. I hope I'm accepted too... I'll be letting you all know. I hope you can maybe have a good time at your grandmas with your sister. *hugs* I hope you can maybe have a better day today with your plan.
Things went okay I guess... I basically was verbally reamed a new one, so to speak. She really hates me, I swear to God. Really, utterly hates me. I go back in a month, and basically it's a "Oh, let's see how much more you can f*ck up" sort of thing. They're saying I'm not complying with my tether, and that I'm "not attending my classes, even though I've done the best I can. I'm trying, but it's not good enough. She makes it out to seem that I'm just blowing it all off, and I'm not. I'm just getting so burnt out with all this sh*t... I'm ready to say f*ck it all. I hate the legal system. It seems some people they just really treat worse than others, and I'm one of them. I'm just really ready to burn the whole world down. *sigh* I'm so sick of all this sh*t
So your scars fade away/You soaked up the pain/A better person 'cause you lived through those days/And now you know what it's like to prove/You can overcome anything that gets to you/Well it's alright/We're sayin' our goodbyes/To the past and everything that ain't right/We won't waste another day/With all these silly things in our way-Crossfade
Light a candle for the sinners...Set the world on fire...
Oliver, I hope you were able to sleep and you were able to try and eat today. Please do try.
Suzie, how'd your apt go?
So your scars fade away/You soaked up the pain/A better person 'cause you lived through those days/And now you know what it's like to prove/You can overcome anything that gets to you/Well it's alright/We're sayin' our goodbyes/To the past and everything that ain't right/We won't waste another day/With all these silly things in our way-Crossfade
Light a candle for the sinners...Set the world on fire...
hugs everyone, i have been reading the posts, but i have no words just now, buti had my last therapy appointment with my therapist and have been referred onto CMHT therapist, i have a appoinment with CMHT tomorrow and the therapy is on the 14tg but how can i cope with this change
my CMHT appointment was good was a bit all over the place but she was talking about plans for the future and offering pratical advice, like get back on the dole and have money coming in and the long term plans i was like im not sure where this is heading but ill go with it, and i found that i was agreeing with her and not having the interest in it she worked it out and asked why gave a explaination i said waste of time but of she went in a ramble then got back to the point, everytime i was speaking she was writing it down a whole page ofa4, didnt want to say that ive stopped taking prozac, for nearly a week i just feel tired i was like be quiet, for once, how is everyone doing
what are CMHT meant to do all they do is offer me appointments to talk about things
hi all, sorry I haven't posted for a few days, been coming in and reading, but getting overwhelmed and not sure what to say.
Nicola, the CMHT can offer different things, usually if you are taken on by them you are given a care co-ordinator who is a CPN or social worker, they co-ordinate your care, like make psych appointments for you and talk to other people involved in your care. My CC comes round to my flat about once a week or once a fortnight depending on how I am, she talks to me, plus she can help with other stuff, like she helped me go through my ESA form and she rang the council for me about my council tax. I've only been seeing her since august and I'm not really getting on with her, so I'm not sure how else she can help.
*hugs all* how is everyone?
I'm feeling quite sick from starting fluoxetine. My psych is annoying me, she is lovely and great as a psych, but useless when it comes to admin, she was meant to fax my GP after my appointment on Monday to tell her about my new meds, I rang up today to get another prescription, my GP wasn't in so spoke to another, she said there had been no fax, but did still give me the meds anyway and posted dated another prescription for next Monday, so I'm only getting 7 at a time. My psych also said she would ring me after my appointment on Monday or Tuesday morning, she hasn't rang and nor has my CC and my psych said she needed her to keep an eye on me, so I'm guessing my CC is off for some reason. I just wish my psych was a bit more organised when it came to this sort of thing, because she is lovely and a great psych, just bloody useless at admin.
I haven't done anything else today really, so I am going to be spending my weekend cleaning and tidying and forcing myself to get up early tomorrow, shower to wash my hair and go to the barbers because it seriously needs a cut.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
