The nightmares and the violent images that keep coming to me all day are really wearing me down. I cannot keep myself safe and am doing all I can not to do worse. I've tried acting some of the visions out with very blunt objects instead but they still keep coming. My ex stopped me from jumping in front of a train on Tuesday but right now I hate him for it. Hospital is not an option. I internalise even more when I am in there and it'll cost me so much more than just my life if I go in. I've been hanging out at the youth centre so that there is just someone around. Only useful in the day though.
Im sorry, i'm scared to phone someone, no one will listen. I'm not sure i really want them to listen anymore though. I dont really have any more options.
Im so sorry, I hope you are okay *hugs*
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
Charmed if you can't phone anyone then talk to someone here, people will listen and sometimes that's what helps the most, just to know that we are being heard.
Libz same for you, I really hope you can tell someone who can help you.
Nobody here deserves this, you all deserve happiness and if anyone needs to talk I am only a PM away
Hey guys. I'm sorry you're all feeling like this, and I genuinely wish I could make this better for all of you. I know words won't make much of a difference at this stage, but I promise things will get better, this will pass, and you will get through this.
If you are feeling suicidal right now, please speak to someone, please reach out for help, and please tell someone what's going on. If you think you might act on your feelings, please go to your nearest hospital, or ring 999 or 911.
I am so close to the edge now so I do not even care what everyone else will feel if I do it, have planned for almost two months now trying to think of whats the meaning of my life but I can not think of anything has asked me several times about why I am still alive, but get no good answer back and I just feel so worthless, even if my friends say I'm not, for every breath I take, I think why even try when nothing helps, but I'm still here why? because I'm too cowardly :(
Close your eyes, so many days go by.
Easy to find what's wrong, harder to find what's right.
Dance With The Devil - Breaking Benjamin
There is nothing like driving so fast that you can see the thin line between life and death
*hugs all* I wish I had the words... just please keep strong :/
Just... ugh... not sure I'm going to make it through this week. I can't stand it.
Don't even know why I'm posting >.< Waste of time/space and why bother. Sorry.
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
im so close to giving in right now.. nothing seems real.. i am even starting to plan it all this isnt good. wish i had the pills with me.. just want to fade into nothing.. disappear forever..make all the shit stop :(
Heaven Knows - no I have not tried to talk to someone, but have not even found someone who would really listen, to see if it gets better when they've got some time to myself a therapist.
why am I still here?
Close your eyes, so many days go by.
Easy to find what's wrong, harder to find what's right.
Dance With The Devil - Breaking Benjamin
There is nothing like driving so fast that you can see the thin line between life and death
