I'm not doing so good...my moods are really bad at the moment. SI isn't controlling them any more:( I attempted suicide last night. I thought it would be enough to let me die. But no, life is sadistic. It wants to torture me for a little while longer...
It just 'happens' from time to time...but this time I've become scared of myself. I always used to managed to keep control, now I really can't:( I apologise if a similar message comes up again, but my computer deleted my comment before:/
*offers gentle hugs to Kitkat* You can get through this:) You're stronger than all this. Trust me. x
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Oh I'm sorry to hear that Scarlet ): I hate it when things seem out of my control.
*accepts hugs* Thanks, I've been struggling with it for years though, haven't really learned any coping mechanisms (well, non-destructive ones anyway).
What exactly is wrong? I'm not saying this will cure every problem you've got, but if you pinpoint the problems, maybe you'll be able to find coping mechanisms that are healthy x
I agree with Scarlet in that pinpointing problems makes thinsg easier to deal with.
The problem I have, though, is actually pinpointing actual problems. A lot of the time I feel miserable for no logical reason. I guess most of us on this thread could relate x
How can the light that burned so brightly
Suddenly burn so pale?
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Oh no I know it is, don't worry you don't sound patronising but I have a hard time pinpointing. Well at that moment in time. When I look back I can see (sometimes) what caused it, but I couldn't see it at the time.
Bit pointless shutting the stable door after the horse has bolted though.
I definitely get what you mean Kat - my counsellor is always telling me to pinpoint my problems before I turn to SI, but when I feel like SIing, I can't think straight enough to find the problems. So it's a pretty pointless exercise, finding out what caused it after the damaged has been done:(
I would love to loin you guys as i feel so alone and having to separate potential diagnosis dont help, the drs are not sure if im schizophrenic or have pshchotic depression. No one seems to understand this and its affecting my everyday life and that of my son x
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Feel free to join in Lizzie (: When I was in therapy I was having all these ideas about what was wrong with me, because it didn't just feel like depression. I thought I was suffering psychotic depression, then something else, then another thing... I was just desperate to try and find out what was wrong because it's hard to treat someone if you don't know what you're treating. Then I was diagnosed with BPD and it all made sense.
Yeah I see what you mean Sparky, it's just that I go through periods of having "mental dullness" where I can't even think to figure it out then racing thoughts where everythings going too fast to figure it out. It's just all so extreme.
I'm sorry to hear that Scarlet ): but maybe if you figure out what triggers you, even after you've SI'd, you can know for the future and be able to stop it then.
Doctors screw my brain...they say I have depression, but sometimes it feels like A LOT more...but they never say anything about my depression. The only time I've heard it mentioned by name is when my doctor diagnosed me. What it's usually referred to is 'the things you're dealing with'. This makes me think they aren't taking what I say seriously. Has this happened to anyone else? x
Hi am XSamX i have depression for a few years now.
I am on medication for it
It's a thief in the night to come and grab you
It can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind it can control you
It's too close for comfort
Hi all,
Hope you are ok? im not too bad at the moment just waiting for my appointment to see a senior house officer who works with a psycharatrist on Thursday. Not hoping for miracles but it would be nice to finally know whats wrong or at least be a bit closer to getting all this sorted so i can live with it better and also inform my son so that he dont have to worry so much.
*hugs*
