Don't be fooled by my smooth skin. The deepest scars are the ones unseen.
Remember compliments you received, forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how..~ Baz Lurhman.
Letting it get to you - You know what that's called? Being alive. Best thing there is. Being alive right now that's all that counts. ~ Doctor Who "The Doctors Wife" 06.November.2011
I hate you, you did exactly what you said you wouldn't do. One more person who betrayed me. I will always hate you for that. I'm actually glad you're happy, but, you're a bitch. I hate myself for letting you hurt me.
I miss you more than you'll ever know. You say you miss me and love me and think about me...but I cant help but wonder how often you actually do. Because if you do, you sure don't tell me about it.
I wish I could help you. I wish you'd understand that because I can't doesn't mean I don't love you.
You'll never know or believe me or what I've been through. That's okay. I'm not sure if I do either.
It's a poor sort of memory that only works backwards...~Lewis Carroll
after i came out of the pav today, i sat down on the bench by the bus stop, and i cried. alot. and then i got on the bus. and i cried some more. and then i wiped my eyes. and i got off the bus. and i came into my house. and i acted like everything was fine. and then when i came in, all i could think about was suicide. but don't worry. i won't do it. because then i wouldn't be able, to sort it all out. and prove everyone wrong. and be a whole new person. screw all those people who judged me. i'm going to have a happy year. 2008 is going to be good. it has to be. because screw all of the people who hold me back. thankyou. x
Last edited by *phantom* : 01-01-2008 at 02:42 PM.
I made my new years resolution. I wanna tell you so much what it is I'm just scared that if I fail then I'll let you all down and that hurts more than letting myself down
I know I should start this year on my own
I shouldn't be with him anymore
I'm sick of all the disappointment
I'm always pushed to the back
Sarah can wait. All the time.
I lied - new years wasn't good. I cried all the way home on my own.
Thanks for paying for my ticket though Dad :(
i need to talk to you now. i'm having a breakdown. and ur the only one i want to talk to. i need you. don't you f***ing get it!?!?!?!? f**k. you're supposed to be my bestfriend. why do you never call me? why do you like all your other friends better? why am i always locked up while you go out? why don't u want to see me? i need you. i feel like i'm dying and your not here with me. you don't give a ****. i can't tell you anything anymore b/c you don't understand. you tell me i need to be strong and that si is bad. but u don't understand the degree of my addiction anymore. i'm sorry. i shouldn't say this. i love you to death. but i'm so sad and lonely w/o u. i haven't talked to u in over a month. i'm sorry. i'm sorry. okay, i'll just go die now. bye.
you know what i'm not fine
i NEED help
i NEED it fast
I love you but
don't trust you enough to tell
you i'm losing control
and grip on reality
I"m not happy
i'm not fine
i'm not sane
i need you
but i'm pushing you away
i can't handle this anymore
but i'll act as though i can
Last edited by LANA : 03-01-2008 at 04:51 AM.
Reason: spelling
1. i ended up slipping the other day and cutting.. not alot but still. but i dont wanna tell you cause i hate letting you and all my other friends down
2. i wanna tell you exactly why my grades were so low this past semester, but you wont ****ing listen to me :( why :(
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
I'm on my last nerve here. And you don't try to think about how I feel when you feel exactly the same...
I could be your everything, you could be my all.
But whenever you take a stand, instantly I fall.
Like dust blown in a gentle breeze.
This assertive passivity will never make us happy.
Please stop looking at me like I disgust you. What have I done that's so awful? So much for 'unconditional love'.
I don't know what you expect me to do - remain loyal to you or leave so that you look like the injured party? Will you think that I'm idiot either way and do you even care?
You're not that perfect either remember. Be careful what you joke about because one day it could come back and bite you and what then?
Just because you've spent twenty-five years doing the same thing (and are 'experienced') it doesn't mean that you're any better at it than anyone else. It just means that no one can tell either way.
