If you are feeling suicidal, post here... - Page 169

minnietheminx · 31-01-2012, 12:48 AM

I just joined. I've been on anti-depressants for two weeks, seen a counsellor for 4 (of just 6 sessions)...tonight I went to the river...but I didn't do it. I just want to fade away. When will these anti-depressants start working?

Niniane · 31-01-2012, 10:08 AM

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Niniane can you talk to someone else or her again?

I don't know, I don't want to annoy them with my problems.

TheGiantPanda · 31-01-2012, 10:52 AM

Want to walk up the railway track into darkness, it's right next to my work place where i am supposed to be tonight, not sure i can carry on much longer :(

Heaven Knows · 31-01-2012, 12:52 PM

Mum24 - how're you feeling honey?

non volo - have you told anyone how conflicted you feel?

razorbladekisses - I hope you managed to tell your CPN. Please don't be scared to; they want to help you.

bettyboo - Can you try getting rid of the pills you wanted to take? I hope you've managed to keep yourself safe.

minnietheminx - Welcome to RYL - anti-depressants can take a few weeks to start helping; all medication takes different time for different people. Have your care team said anything about further counselling or anything?

Niniane - You won't annoy people with your problems honey - they'll want to help <3

CherryUK - have you told anyone how vulnerable you feel? It's scary knowing how close you are to temptation but you're not in this alone.

*hugs to all*

x Katie x

non volo · 31-01-2012, 01:25 PM

Tried to talk but couldn't do it, I don't think anyone wants to hear it anyway.

How are you Katie?
Hugs

Heaven Knows · 31-01-2012, 01:33 PM

*hugs you*
I'm sure people do want to hear honey. Well done for trying though <3
I'm alive. Struggling but alive.
x Katie x

non volo · 31-01-2012, 03:35 PM

I'm a failure all I do is make things worse, I don't deserve anything good in my life.

x-love/hate/tragedy-x · 31-01-2012, 03:41 PM

non volo - I do not want :)
The reason I clicked on this thread was because I recognised the Latin :)
You are not a failure or undeserving.
x

x-Silvermist-x · 31-01-2012, 03:43 PM

My CPN was away, unforseen circumstances apparently.

I sent an SMS to the crisis team last night and they replied this morning saying I have to contact my team during the day.

I give up.

x-love/hate/tragedy-x · 31-01-2012, 03:53 PM

Please don't give up! Have you tried to contact the team today?
x

x-Silvermist-x · 31-01-2012, 05:20 PM

I tried, but my CPN is unavailable. A lady there just said distract yourself.

The crisis team text me this morning and said 'take care, have a nice day' how frustrating!!!

suicide solution · 31-01-2012, 05:22 PM

Feel like i should be dead

x-love/hate/tragedy-x · 31-01-2012, 05:22 PM

Have you told them it's urgent?
Maybe you could try calling the Samaritans?
x

Heaven Knows · 31-01-2012, 05:54 PM

I feel like I shouldn't be here anymore. I've started storing meds...and I know what that will inevitably lead to.

DrWatson · 31-01-2012, 06:15 PM

Heaven Knows - is there any way you can tell someone to get rid of the meds, or at least store them for you? I don't know you, but I can tell you that you SHOULD be here, and that you definitely make a difference to the world :) Please tell someone that you have a plan, so that you can be safe. Please, if not for us at RYL, for yourself. You are worth it. PM me any time if you need to talk xxx

Heaven Knows · 31-01-2012, 06:20 PM

Thank you scarlet ladder. There is no one I can tell. My care team no longer care. My boyfriend thinks everything's back to being okay and wonderful again. My friends don't care. They don't have time for me anymore.
I'm just sick of it all.

non volo · 31-01-2012, 06:28 PM

Just back from picking up my meds, I've been ordered to go see my GP tomorrow, wasn't even an option, the appointment was made there and then.

She's gonna be pissed but all I can think of is I now have a weeks worth of a bunch of painkillers and sedatives, I don't feel I have a choice at times, it's almost like I'm a puppet

[Luna] · 31-01-2012, 06:34 PM

breathing is so painful right now, with every breathe I know I shouldn't be here. I feel like the only thing I can say is sorry. I'm sorry for my very existence.

DJR · 31-01-2012, 08:16 PM

been stashing meds, mine and ones that i have stollen from my mum.

Niniane · 31-01-2012, 08:27 PM

Still feeling suicidal. I gave the pills to my Mum as I don't trust myself around them but now I can't help but to feel it was a mistake, that I must have them back.
Since this WE, every day I wake up and wonder why I didn't end it the previous day. I feel like such an idiot for thinking that way.