If you are feeling suicidal, post here...

[CaptainB2]

Anyone else ever feel guilty for feeling the way they do or is it just me? Honestly, I feel like I have no right to feel depressed or suicidal as there are those who certainly have it far worse than I do. I just feel really guilty for being really sad.I even feel guilty for posting the things I post on this thread knowing I'm causing others to worry. Then, of course, the guilt just makes me feel a whole lot worse and eats at me and I feel even more depressed and the whole process starts all over again. Sometimes I wish I wasn't so messed up and could just be a normal human being :(

[non volo]

No you're not alone in that train of thought, it's a vicious circle.

[PainfulSecrets]

Everything I do is wrong... even my love, which is the purest most amazing thing in this life, is wrong. I hate this. I can't do this

[non volo]

PainfulSecrets: has something happened to make you feel so bad? Do you have someone to talk to?
Hugs

[Mum24]

Captain I feel that way a lot. You are not alone. And I think if you could just get the right treatment you would feel differently about a lot of things. Please tell your therapist about your deadline and depression. We care and u can talk to us any time.

[Mum24]

Painfulsecrets. Hugs. What's wrong?

[non volo]

How is everyone today?

[Niniane]

The fact that could kill myself pretty easily popped into my brain. Now it won't get out.
Now I'm afraid of myself, because I know I can. And I've been wanting it for so long.

[Mum24]

Niniane please dont. Hows it going with your doctor and school and counselling? Please stay safe.

Hi non volo. I'm doing better but I'm still depressed and still an inpatient at the hospital.

[Niniane]

It's going quite fine with my doctor, but school is on hold. I'm waiting to see if they've agreed to let me enter the "homeschool" program, because I can't bear to stay at Uni and am due for another stay in hospital quite soon (supposedly - last time they said that, I waited 6 months because they had forgotten my file).
Counseling is not going very well, I don't understand what my psychiatrist is telling me. I see my psychologist on wednesday though, long time no see, I'm happy to meet her once more.

[non volo]

Hugs to you all
Just don't have the words right now.

[scrunchy10]

Help. I'm really scared of myself. I don't know what to do

[Lucano]

Is my love for her so wrong? Why I can't just walk away and forget everything? I gave her my life and she threw it to the garbage can. My whole life was her. My whole future was her.

[Mum24]

Non volo hugs how are you now?

Scrunchy and lucano hang in there. What's happening?

Niniane I hope they don't take so long this time. Sorry about your psychiatrist. Good about your psychologist. How are you doing now?

[non volo]

Hi mum *hugs back*
I feel confused now, a bit like an emotional rollercoaster.

How are you?

[Mum24]

I'm ok I guess. Have to go back to the hospital tomorrow. I just realized I double booked my appt time. Oops. I just woke up from a nap. These meds make me SO tired.

What are you confused about?

[non volo]

Just strange thoughts that I shouldn't be thinking, nothing bad just stupidity really.

The meds may make you tired but they will be worth it when you get better.

[Mum24]

I've had lots of confusing thoughts. What are yours about?

[non volo]

That I mess up everything I touch and that if I get something good it's going to go wrong.

What are yours?

[Little_Miss_Rebecca]

I just got out of hospital 3 days ago, and I wish I was back in because there at least I feel safe from the sh*t that has become my life. I had more freinds in the hospital on the emergancy admission unit with the other patients than outside in the real world. :'(