Nobody understands me. Nobody gets my pain. I'm just so alone in this cruel world and I don't know how much longer I can last. Everyone around me just seems so miserable too lately and it makes me feel worse about this world. I don't know that I'll ever be able to function as a human being in this world.
My mom wants me to wait til February before I start therapy. She sort of wants me to wait it out. Part of me is glad because I'm not sure if I'm ready but the other part of me thinks I need help. As I've mentioned before, I am SO anxious about even going into it as I've had nothing but bad experiences in the past and I also wonder if I'm putting too much pressure on someone I don't know to "fix" me. Honestly, I'm starting to even hate my repetitive posts on this thread. God, I can't stand myself sometimes.
I at least hope someone in this thread can understand why I just feel like wanting to escape and end the pain. No one in my "real life" seems to get it. This was supposed to be the year I made my life better and got a girlfriend DAMNIT! But, no, so far it's just the same old shit and I find myself feeling even worse.
I hate being alone! I even hate being alive sometimes!
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
Captain I get it. I understand. But I also don't want you to die. If it seems like people don't understand they are probably just worried. No one wants you to hurt yourself. Please start therapy as soon as you can and give it a real try.
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Non Volo (sorry i dont know your name, or have forgotten it...) Just stuff :( its okay, im okay, everythings okay.. how are you? *squishes* sorry i just read what you wrote. Whatever happened isnt your fault, promise.
Rachel honey, im not much help tonight, but stay strong *holds tightly*
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
Non Volo, you are not a failure. Everyone goes through struggles in their life, this doesnt make you a failure. You matter to a lot of people. Keep fighting. <3
StuckInReverse (Billy...?) Stay strong <3 is there anyone you can talk to at the moment? *hugs*
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
Oh sorry Sammy :) Can you ring her to ask her to come back now? Or friends? Even crisis or something? Is there anything you want to talk about? Keep fighting <3
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
i hate myself and how i feel. i will never amount to anything. I have to watch people with better lives than me every day. i want to go where i cant see them.
i hate being here around people who hate me and i want to leave permanently. very few people will miss me. let me leave...please let there be a way. please, please let it happen. its for the best, i know it is.
Crazed wolf in store "a mistake" admits Asda
Oh what can you say at the end of the day, was the plot so sound or the lines profound. Was there rather less grain than chaff. Oh what can you say at the end of the day. You can say you made them laugh.
Oh sorry Sammy :) Can you ring her to ask her to come back now? Or friends? Even crisis or something? Is there anything you want to talk about? Keep fighting <3
She's back now (: so i feel a bit better. thank you:) x
