I picked up my Meds today. Piss taking Dr Prescribed me 8 Diazapam for the WHOLE Month , It says " take one twice a week" well it should be 20 a month and they didn't give me any last month and gave me 60 extra 400mg Lithium tablets . I can't regulate when I'm going to need a Diaz because of anxiety and stress but My Pysch Dr Gave me 20 a month for a reason , Luckily I have a pysch appointment next Thursday so I'll ask him for some more but I am ANXIOUS now , I've had to take a Diaz because my Dr is messing with me AAAARRRRGGGG!
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I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
How are you two doing? (besides the diaz, Mark, I mean *extra hugs* Sorry to hear about that, that sucks quite awfully)
New&shiny is making me happy. :) *random* Ummm... cancelled my nutritionist appt for today and rescheduled it for Monday as I've also a NP appt today and that is a HELL of a lot of driving to do. :( Sooo... I just have to drive myself to my NP appt (and parallel park which I ABHOR!!!!) tonight... while Jarrod does laundry. Grrrrr. That means I'm going to have to take the four-lane (highway-soon-to-be-interstate) which I hate hate hate... but... NEW&SHINY IS MAKING ME HAPPY so that's what I'm going to think about now. :D
In other news... got two new sweaters at the Goodwill store... beautiful Woolrich ones (that will have to be hand-washed, grrr) but that I can wear as business casual. Well, one of them anyway. The other is too warm for October (wool). Wheeee... :) And, umm, that's really about it. BUT TODAY marks 12 weeks SI free. :D
*cuddles all* Sorry it's not more...
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
*hugs april* nice job on the 12 weeks!! and yay for new clothes!
*hugs mark* im sorry about the diaz situation. Hopefully it gets worked out at your appointment on thursday.
*hugs jill and julie*
*hugs helen* im glad that your bus pass is finally there!
*hugs nicole* that was very nice of her to let you stay. i'm glad that you are feeling better after getting everything out.
I havent felt safe for 2 days... I don't want to keep going like this. Can I give up now? please? i have nobody to talk to. nobody even wants me around... or well, no thats not exactly right, people don't even give me enough thought to not want me around, i'm just invisible.
In other news, i got the web editor position. Now i have to tell my other work that I have meetings on sunday so I won't be able to work for them that night. They are going to be so mad... i'm anxious.
<3
forgiveness is the release of all hope for a better past - buddy wakefield
no giving up laura :(
*hug* good luck with the work sit
*will be proper on later... class*
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
Today was a bit sucky. Had all my lecturers, 4 out of 6 suck. Great. I went to do maths for a mental challenge, not to be spoonfed answers and work. *sigh*
Just tense and stressed today, not gotten over mum thretaning violence and theft last night
I know there hasn't been that many posts since my last but it feels like there were *shrug*
Thanks all for the luck and sweet comments on my new outfit :) I'll totally post pictures after it comes in :D
Grats April! That's awesome!
Mark is there anyone you can talk to to get your med issues cleared up for good? They seem to do this to you FAR too often. :(
Yay for your pass Hels! Hope your hearing aid is fixed up quickly/soon.
Laura you are not invisible and we like having you around. Congrats on the editor job. They probably won't be too mad since it's just one day, you aren't totally quitting.
Glad your doing better Sarah, was the lecture important? Can anyone give you notes?
*huggles everyone*
*waves at Owen if he's in*
Hmmm first proper reply in ages... Feels good :)
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Been working like crazy... so far this week my assistant has been out sick... Since he usually comes in on Mon and Wed he's gonna try to come in tomorrow and Friday instead. I've not been doing too bad by myself though today. Got 25 boxes of files pulled to be moved downstairs (by L) in the last hour. I hope to get the other 5 or so done before lunch. Then back to rearranging the other files so there's more room and all the files fit on the shelves again.
P.S. Mocha frappe w/ a shot of espresso, some chocolate syrup and topped with whipped cream rocks my socks :D
I'm so excited to be totally debt free by the 10th of next month :D My ex can't ruin things for me anymore *cheers*
Ok that's enough rambling for me I'm off to do more file pulling *sings along to the music that's playing*
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I was lei'd in vets! ***** Proud Plumeria Sister!
"He said look inside your heart/ And you'll see stars/ Falling stars/ Look, deep into my eyes/ Don't look down/ Or you'll fall, he said/ Here, the sky goes on forever"
*hugs all*
I harmed today. Found out my roomie has been spreading lies about me to the people in BCM (Christian group on campus that I'm the secretary of) because I "spend too much time with them and care too much about them and that's not healthy". So.. maybe I won't go to the camp out so no one in BCM will know I harmed.
On a positive note, this week is Jesus Week and last night we had a campfire and concert and video screening. And the praise band I'm in did a few songs and I got complimented on my voice! Eeep! Also, someone said I had an interesting accent, but I don't think that's a compliment =/
"Life is easy to chronicle, but bewildering to practice."-- E.M. Forster
*Hugs Crimson* I have spoken to my Psychiatrist more than once about it and he has written letters to my GP saying I need 20 a month but my GP just keeps doing this to me . I would have thought a GP would HAVE to follow a Consulant Psychiatrists instructions don't you think ?
Just wears me down *sigh*
EDIT: Oh thats Freaking wonderful , I was just organising tonights meds and realised that my "Dr" has only given me 2 weeks supply of Lithium!! instead of a months supply . I can't beleive it , it's Ridiculous , Its a good job he gave me so many more last month than was prescribed , at least I have a few back-up tablet even if I do have to cut them in half myself :S ARG!
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I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
*Hugs Felicia* Your Roomie is just being a bitch it sounds like :(
Way to go on your singing , I liked your accent in that video you posted here a while ago :)
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
*huggles everyone* thanks guys. its good that i got it all out and feel better, but i'm still really triggerd :( scared about whats gonna happen at college now, i mean they were really nice about it but i suppose im still scared that it might turn out like school....i mean theyve already said i should see the college counsellor, which i dont want to but im gonna go to one meeting just to show willing.
You called me an angel, there must be a twist,
Have you ever seen an angel with scars on her wrist?
And blood trickling down from a gash on her arm,
Have you ever seen an angel self harm?-Unknown
She is being a bitch, but I am NOT going to let myself quit/ be kicked out of BCM because of what she said. I love these people far too much for that.
Thanks, Mark =) I'm just not sure if "interesting" should be taken as a compliment. It's kind of like when I laugh (I kinda squeak a bit when I do, and it's really high pitched sometimes) people call it "interesting" but it really means "annoying". haha.
"Life is easy to chronicle, but bewildering to practice."-- E.M. Forster
*sits in the corner and starts rocking back and forth* Please make the thoughts stop, please. I don't wanna do it. I'm trying to stop. Please make the thoughts go away. please.
There's a hand;
Reaching into the darkness,
Pulling me back towards ethereal white.
Did we know this?
That we would be each others...
Never-ending light?
