Don't you dare hunni, stay in and talk to us, I am working at 7 but I'll sit up and talk to you all night if need be, whats up hun?
I know what you mean about going to be a group and everyone being older, self help groups I been sent to befre have been like that and well tonight at GA, there was one girl who was mayn not too much older than me but most people about double my age, you know...okay so I am 23 and got into the problems early and sought help now....
Way to look at it hunni is maybe they were feeling the same as you back then, but they have gone most of their life without seeking support and now sit there 20 years on, no further forward and seeking support now....you have seeked the support at the right time and you are on the right track, stay with it and try to stay focussed and you know we are all here for you and please keep talking xxxx
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I've lied to my dr. Despite me being on 14 day scripts I have stockpiled gradually. I want it all to go away. I don't want all this therapy malarky. I'm a fraud. People like me don't need help, they just don't need to be alive.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
we need you on here.
your such a strong sense of support and we all go through times when we cant be that support and need to be given it though.
Ok stock pillin on meds isnt a fab idea, and you know that whats done is done.. do u feel able to get rid of them ?
or at least tell your doctor ?
hun your not that much different to us if you dont need help.. then we dont either and you wouldnt say that to us now would you. so dont think it about yourself
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
I can't get rid of them, I need them. i want some OTC painkillers to help me along my way. I am sorry for being such a fraud. I'm not supposed to be here. OMG, I wish I had something to drink to make it all go away.
EDIT - I have some old ADs - a couple of varieties, the more the merrier hey?
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"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Yeah Stockpiling isn't a great idea, I get my meds weekly so I don't get the chance now thankfully, but don't for one minute think that you don't merit our support and that the way your feeling, doesn't deserve any either.
We all have good times and bad times, and you feel bad for lying. I lie to people all the time (as I have mentioned before) because I constantly covering up stupid things like I've done (do you know tonight I was at the cinema, thats what I told my parents) and well you lie and things escalate yeah, but you just need to be open and honest.
You say that you are a fraud and you don't need to be alive, well I think thats the biggest lie and lying to yourself isn't good hun, because you know you are not a fraud and you are needed in this world and we all want you to be alive, to talk to us and we all need to be here for each other and well, thats the god honest truth....
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
OK, so maybe don't get rid of them but how about putting them somewhere out of sight? is there anybody you can call right now, so you can be talking to someone as your typing? you are NOT a fraud
Life Is Like A Beautiful Melody Only The Lyrics Are Messed Up
I can't get rid of them, I need them. i want some OTC painkillers to help me along my way. I am sorry for being such a fraud. I'm not supposed to be here. OMG, I wish I had something to drink to make it all go away.
EDIT - I have some old ADs - a couple of varieties, the more the merrier hey?
No, now come on, it is not the road to go down. Am I a hypocrite, god damn yeah, look at the fankle I got into afew weeks ago on here and I was in a bad way and thinking the same, drink is not good and please get rid of those pill, flush them down the toilet or something hunni,
What you need is our support and we are here, we will listen and most importantly we bloody do care.
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
OMG, the replies of you two have made me cry, do you not know how horrible I am .
I can't call anyone b/c I promised myself I wouldn't call the crisis team after my last admission.
I'm sorry but I really do want it all to be over.
You don't need to call the crisis team, you could call another number or even someone on here, we are here to listen. I think one of the most importan things I have taken from tonight, is the support of others is the key to overcoming any battle, it really is.
I am going to need to sign off here soon, as my quetiapine is making my eyes squirm everywhere because I took it before came back up here and obviously I can't control the dedative effects now, I will fall asleep shortly.....
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
***
Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
OMG, the replies of you two have made me cry, do you not know how horrible I am .
I can't call anyone b/c I promised myself I wouldn't call the crisis team after my last admission.
I'm sorry but I really do want it all to be over.
You don't need to call the crisis team, you could call another number or even someone on here, we are here to listen. I think one of the most importan things I have taken from tonight, is the support of others is the key to overcoming any battle, it really is.
I am going to need to sign off here soon, as my quetiapine is making my eyes squirm everywhere because I took it before came back up here and obviously I can't control the sedative effects now, I will fall asleep shortly.....
You are not horrible hunni seriously, just going through a had time and want to feel bettter, we can relate to that. You say you want it all to be over, why don't you try and get some sleep and awake fresh in the morning, new day, new start....
I'm also going to PM you my mobile number as obviously we all cant be on here 24/7 andif it helps to talk/text then good, because tomorrow night the tables could be turned and its swings and roundabouts, at the end of the day if we show some solodarity with each other...then we can overcome this.
I really hope you'll be okay but I must apologise, my eyes are rolling and I can't keep them rolling, stay safe and text me and make sure you keep posting on here as other peope are about and if it gets quiet, go into the chat room or whatver, just stay distratced and keep talking hunni...
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
I've lied to my dr. Despite me being on 14 day scripts I have stockpiled gradually. I want it all to go away. I don't want all this therapy malarky. I'm a fraud. People like me don't need help, they just don't need to be alive.
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Thanks, really!
Yeah, my Quetiapine makes me sleepy, maybe I should try it for at least tonight?
Yes, please do this. Try it for tonight. If it doesn't make you sleepy the come back on RYL, try chat or text Hollz (or pm me).
Im gonna have to come off line in a mo, cos my laptop is about to turn itself off!
Life Is Like A Beautiful Melody Only The Lyrics Are Messed Up
Evening everyone.
hope your all ok.
Hollz im here if you want to chat hunny, your more thn welcome to pm if you want.
xx
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Hope you can sleep No Reason. If not, we are here for you. I'm sure somebody will be around tonight. I'm pretty awake at the moment so may be around for a while :) x
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