Lucy *pounces on* I was getting worried about you. *hugs*
*hugs Abbie*
I am **** scared about my gp appointment tomorrow, I am writing a suicide note tonight ready incase it goes badly then I will get on a train and travel to the place I want to kill myself. Just can not go on if she will get my surgery delayed. have to die if that is the case.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
I'm not sure, my life is pretty much in pieces. And I cannot concentrate on anything.
Oh I'm sorry to hear about your cousin's death. My condolences.
Parents tend to be like that, and it's usually a hard thing to cope with, especially when you're already grieving. But the SH could only make it worse..
Could you try and keep distracted? Maybe do something you enjoy? x
Hey Oliver <3 Missed you x I was actually thinking of you today, 'cause you know it's the BPD awareness month I think, and there was this photo on a BPD facebook community where there was someone that looked pretty much like you and I'm pretty sure it actually was you(I know I sound like a stalker or something lol).
Anyways, I'm sure your appointment will go just fine. I know how much you want your surgery, and it is going to happen soon. You deserve to live the life you want to live X
Hey Oliver <3 Missed you x I was actually thinking of you today, 'cause you know it's the BPD awareness month I think, and there was this photo on a BPD facebook community where there was someone that looked pretty much like you and I'm pretty sure it actually was you(I know I sound like a stalker or something lol).
Anyways, I'm sure your appointment will go just fine. I know how much you want your surgery, and it is going to happen soon. You deserve to live the life you want to live X
I agree!
Trust is like a hurricane.
Never give up.
Never say never.
Live life to the fullest.
Keep smiling.
Abbz, I know I also cope like that most of the time. Or drink, or smoke..or both or who knows what else. But these things aren't good for us. Just try to stay safe *hugs*
it probably was me Lucy cos I gave permission for them to use my fb profile for an awareness poster, if I was in a white shirt and black jacket holding a french horn that would have been me.
but I won't regret it if I'm dead cos then I'll be free from pain and all the **** life brings.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Commiting isn't the answer... You desevre to be here, so don't end it all now Oliver!
Yeah I can, Jordan is downstairs anyway, I'm going to text him as I'm in the bathroom.
Trust is like a hurricane.
Never give up.
Never say never.
Live life to the fullest.
Keep smiling.
Well Abbz try and keep talking to us? Maybe that'll keep you distracted X ETA: Texting him sounds like a good idea. X (Can I ask who Jordan is? )
Yeah, definitely sounds like you Oliver. I shared the photo in case you were wondering. Hmm I also want to wear some kind of awareness symbol this month, like a bracelet or something, like I did for SH awareness day. :)
Sweetheart, life does make us suffer. But I believe it can also bring happiness in certain ways. And how can you know, if you're not alive to live it. Just think about the people you love, and the things you'd like to do. You're not completely hopeless. This is not the end. You can go on. *big hugs*
I'm sorry but no one gets how important this surgery is to me, it is literally life saving, may not seem it to a lot of people but it is, to have it delayed would literally end me, I could not cope and they would have to bloody section me and sedate me again to stop me killing myself and even then I would fight like hell to go and kill myself.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Oliver, I can't even imagine how important it is to you. This is why I'm saying that you shouldn't throw away the chance to get it, do you get what I'm saying? I reaaaally hope they won't delay it, and they wouldn't do that without any reason, right? X
Abbz, that's great that they took you in. Sounds like you to get along quite well. I think you should definitely text him then. X
I agree with Lucy here Oliver. We understand it's really important to you, we get that honestly hunnii. Just stay calm and strong and you'll get through this I promise. *hugs*
Yeah, we do(I still have feelings for him) ah. Yep I am :)x
Trust is like a hurricane.
Never give up.
Never say never.
Live life to the fullest.
Keep smiling.
sorry if I came across like I was having a go at everyone in here, I meant more medical professionals not getting how important it is. my few closest friends get it, because 3 of them are trans themselves and the other is a great guy who seems to understand. plus the general public don't seem to get how important it is they just think it is a waste of money and ****. sorry everyone.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
