Do you think if I have a word with the chemist tomorrow they could sort something? Like they keep my meds and I pop in during the day each day? Or does it have to be the doctor?
I pick up my next supply tomorrow and it's just meh.
Hey mike , I know we haven't talked before but I just wanted to let you know that I care about you.
Also your idea of talking to the chemist regarding the medicine is definetly a good idea it is worth a try.
Love from MEERA xx
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Mike you're being really brave by telling us here and I don't think you're wasting space at all. It's important that you keep yourself safe, but I think it's even more important to give yourself credit for being willing to talk to the chemist about trying to sort something out. If that doesn't work then a word with your GP next might be a wise idea. I genuinely hope you start to feel a little bit more hopeful, you're a lovely and very funny guy! You mean well and I would hate for something bad to happen to you. You're not wasting anybody's time, just reaching out for a little support and there's no harm in that. You have my listening ear.
Do not be dismayed by the brokenness of the world. All things can be mended. Not with time, as they say, but with intention. So go. Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally. The broken world awaits in darkness for the light that is you.
I think tomorrow I will have a quiet word with someone in the chemist, they've got to know me pretty well already seeing as i'm in there every week so that makes it a little bit easier but it's still scary bringing this up with an "outsider" so to speak.
Sorry have neglected this thread, I think talking to someone at the chemists' is a very good idea, remember you can always ask to go somewhere else to discuss it, every chemist should have a private room somewhere. Lots of love and hope you get the help you need and deserve and well done for trying to take precautions.
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Sorry have neglected this thread, I think talking to someone at the chemists' is a very good idea, remember you can always ask to go somewhere else to discuss it, every chemist should have a private room somewhere. Lots of love and hope you get the help you need and deserve and well done for trying to take precautions.
Katy, don't you be sorry for anything, silly :P
Thank you, your kind words mean a lot to me.
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Thinking about you, Michael <3
Mary, Thank you soo much for thinking about me, it means more than I can put into words, thank you! <3
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Thinking of you, sorry you are having a hard time. My PM box is always open use it if you need, that is an order!
Thank you! Now that's an order I think I can follow.
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I asked the chemist about being allowed just one days worth, they told me to go next door (to the doctors) to ask. I asked at the doctors and the receptionist looked at me like I was crazy and made me feel rather uncomfortable, anyway, she had to go back to ask someone if it can be done and when she come back she said I would have to talk to my doctor. I think i'm going to leave it for the time being.
The point is, one tomorrow you won't feel like.
One tomorrow you will find something which lifts you a little bit and everything will be easier.
Unfortunately I can't tell you whether that tomorrow is tomorrow or next week or next month.
In October, I could barely get out of bed. In December, I could get up and about but couldn't really manage many tasks during the day. By February, I had recovered completely from my depressive episode. Slowly but surely you can make progress. I have faith in you. You can and will do this too.
One thing that helped me on my darkest days was to have a physical list of my "protective factors". Things that are strong enough that you want to live for them. I had things like completing my degree, my niece, my best friend.
What distraction methods work for you? I find washing up really helpful when urges are strong, I think its the combination of keeping my hands busy, being able to see progress and also the warm water help to satisfy the thoughts in my mind.
Thinking of you, stay strong.
Oh one other thing, I find repeating the mantra. You cannot live tomorrow if you die today. Depression keeps you stuck in a moment and I think it is possibly one of the worst things about it. Find some way of having moments thinking about other times, the future you can have or the past where things have been better etc.
I get those thoughts completely. I understand not wanting to/ not being able to do anything too. My support worker during this time got me doing activity schedules where I would plan to do something each day and rate my mood before and afterwards and then plan a reward afterwards. Do you think this is something you could do? I understand it sounds incredibly daunting, I think the first week I only managed to do one activity but within a few weeks I was doing more. The tasks started off as small like pick clothes up of bedroom floor. Reward sit with a cup of tea in front of the telly. It really did help (more so than I thought it would do when I started.)
Michael, you know how much I care for you and I'm not the only one. You're one of my dearest friends and it really pains me to see you in this much distress. Love you lots and shit and I will give you a gargantuan hug next time I see you <3 Keep your chin up, I know you can get through this rough time.
Thank you for bumping this for me the other day, Mary (even if it didn't do much good trololol!)
I would have commented sooner but I kinda couldn't bring myself to look at it, feels shame just looking at it now.
Thank you for taking the time out, it really does mean a lot to me, at a time when I felt most alone, most worthless you and a few others were there to help me out. Thank you.
