why do you want to join your nan fangurl? Dont you think your nan would want you to join her once you are old and gray and have lived a great life? I hope you dont do that :( tell us more how you're feeling honey
"Best Friend, Angel of the get-through, all living is storm chasing." -A.G.
I'm never going to see her again otherwise. And I need to see her again to apologise for not going to see her before she died. I'd go out for a walk but I'd probably end up down the fields standing on the train tracks waiting for a train. Everyone thinks I'm being stupid feeling like this anyway. I can't deal with feeling like this anymore. I just want out
sweetie do you talk to a therapist or a counselor? you are not stupid for feeling this way at all. Is it possible you could write her a letter and then burn it. The smoke will take it up to heaven to your grandmother :)
"Best Friend, Angel of the get-through, all living is storm chasing." -A.G.
I was seeing a counsellor but then I went away and she said she would ring me when I got back but she never did. I always get let down by counsellors. I'm giving up now. I just have to live with all this. It's my only option
it's not your only option. Call her love. Or call a hotline or go to the hospital. Please dont do this. It isn't your only option and not a good way out. You are so overwhelmed. Keep talking to me
"Best Friend, Angel of the get-through, all living is storm chasing." -A.G.
I need to do it. I've tried everything else. Two overdoses haven't worked but you know what they say, 3rd time lucky and I'll just go to sleep in the bathroom and never have to wake up tomorrow. I can't go to the hospital cos my auntie and uncle work there and I don't want anyone to find out. If I'm dead, I'm dead and then no one has to worry about me or not believe me about anything anymore. Keeping alive isn't worth any of the pain I'm constantly feeling
thanks for caring nough to ask erayn.
im doing bit better, manage to quiet the bad dreams from last night and focus on some revision. thers still the urge in the background but i feel strong enough not to act on it.
*leaves hugs and teddies in thread*
*hugs everyone* Fangurl:Please be careful. Please don't overdose. Please go to A&E, even if your aunt and uncle work there. They can help you, and keep you safe. Jen: I'm glad you're doing better today. Are the voices any quieter? Naty-Dolens-Ortus: Good luck with your appointment.
Keep talking to us.
It doesn't matter where you come from; it matters where you go.
No-one gets remembered for the things they didn't do.
We won't all be here this time next year,
so while you can take a picture of us.
We're definitely going to hell,
but we'll have all the best stories to tell.
Fangurl... Please don't leave us. You belong sweetie. We care. Please go to emergency where you can be cared for. Have you been gathering what you need for your plan? I'm worried about you love. Keep talking to us.
Naty, I really hope you're able to get an appointment in the morning. What would help you tonight? Do you think you'd be able to get some sleep, or do something to distract yourself - watch a film, keep posting here, call the Samaritans or something? If you're really unsafe, you could call NHS Direct or go to A&E.
My real name is Katy, but i respond to loads of things really (I have many many nicknames) Naty is one of them.
But i'm staying safe atm, I'm just trying to stay in my room and in my bed all night and am trying to not move from my bed until the time i can ring the drs to get help.
"Best Friend, Angel of the get-through, all living is storm chasing." -A.G.
