yeah good idea. I guess catch up TV and the internet will be there, could always text the samaritans if needed, but then again they may piss me off.
I saw my DSA study tutor earlier and when she asked how I was I said meh and she took that to mean so-so. I don't think she saw the cuts on my hand as I kept my sleeve over it, but I was pretty down in the session. Kind of wish I had told her the truth so someone professional knows how bad I am, but I really can't risk that.
Whats up Kat?
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
We will be here for you too if you need it. Sounds like you have some good plans though. Why can't you risk them knowing?
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Was just having a really bad night, ended up cutting too deep again. Ended up in emergency department where they glued the wound closed. Back home now and finding it really hard not to just reopen the wound and do more damage.
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
*hugs Kat* please don't reopen the wound, you need to look after it. Can you distract yourself with something.
I can't risk them knowing because if my GP or psych find out they will get my chest surgery delayed, because the surgeon said I need to be mentally stable to have it and she was already in two minds about going ahead because of my od in january and my GP said any sign I am too unstable and she will contact the surgeon. I literally could not cope if my surgery was delayed anymore, so i have to pretend I am ok to professionals or anyone who may contact professionals if they find out how bad I am.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
What lies behind us and what lies before us is so small compared to what lies within us. And if we carry what lies within us out into the world, miracles can happen.” - Henry David Thoreau
“Don’t give up, I believe in you all, a person’s a person, no matter how small.” - Dr. Seuss
“You can complain about roses having thorns. Or you can rejoice that thorns have roses.”
- Ziggy
*hugs oliver* well i haven't been doing very good especially today
my thoughts have just become overwhelming and it seems like all i can ever think about is how much i hate my life and all of the anger directed towards me and all the times i f***ed up
but how are you?
What lies behind us and what lies before us is so small compared to what lies within us. And if we carry what lies within us out into the world, miracles can happen.” - Henry David Thoreau
“Don’t give up, I believe in you all, a person’s a person, no matter how small.” - Dr. Seuss
“You can complain about roses having thorns. Or you can rejoice that thorns have roses.”
- Ziggy
*hugs Ashley* sorry you are struggling, can you do something to distract yourself from your thoughts? like something fun you enjoy, or watching a good film or tv show.
I'm really struggling with suicidal thoughts and bad urges to OD.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
well theres a few movies i love that i could try watching theyll help for awhile i guess :) maybe play some video games
and as cliche as this may sound it gets better that is my promise
suicide dosent remove the chance of life ever getting worse it removes the chance of it ever getting better
since im not good at the whole comforting thing ill tell you what i tell everyone else
please stay strong
What lies behind us and what lies before us is so small compared to what lies within us. And if we carry what lies within us out into the world, miracles can happen.” - Henry David Thoreau
“Don’t give up, I believe in you all, a person’s a person, no matter how small.” - Dr. Seuss
“You can complain about roses having thorns. Or you can rejoice that thorns have roses.”
- Ziggy
Oliver that sounds like a really bad position to be in. It sounds like you need the support but then if you gain the support you could also lose an opportunity for something that is really important to you. Can you try and keep reminding yourself of this as a reason to fight through the difficult feelings? Remember we are here for you too.
How are you Mark?
Ashley sorry that your struggling too, it is good that you are trying to distract though. Would it help to journal your thoughts just so you can get them out of your head so it feels less overwhelming.
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
*hugs Kat* I'm sorry you are not doing good either.
*hugs Mark* how are you?
I'm trying to keep myself distracted.
I got a letter today inviting me to an info meeting for the group therapy fifteen, which is the group for people with personality disorders I have been referred to, so that is next monday to go along and find out more info.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
