Thanks guys <3 I have to be strong I have to pretend like I'm fine so S won't worry about me at all. Seems like it's working. I can't let him see.
Emma, I'm so sorry you're struggling with flashbacks and not being able to accept it. *big big hugs <3* I think that by continuing your counselling you will be able to find a way to accept it and leave it behind(not sure if I'm making any sense though so sorry if anything I said wasn't right x)
Yes that happens to me quite often. TOO often. And when I'm irritable and snappy I somehow tend to either yell for no apparent reason and everyone thinks I'm nuts or I tend to destroy things. Like just a few hours before I had a bit of a fight with my dad over the phone and I ended yo throwing the phone on the floor. I could reassemble it but I can't find the battery which sucks.
hello oliver :) im not doing too good but how are you?
and lucy
and pink bear
and emma
how are all of you?
What lies behind us and what lies before us is so small compared to what lies within us. And if we carry what lies within us out into the world, miracles can happen.” - Henry David Thoreau
“Don’t give up, I believe in you all, a person’s a person, no matter how small.” - Dr. Seuss
“You can complain about roses having thorns. Or you can rejoice that thorns have roses.”
- Ziggy
What lies behind us and what lies before us is so small compared to what lies within us. And if we carry what lies within us out into the world, miracles can happen.” - Henry David Thoreau
“Don’t give up, I believe in you all, a person’s a person, no matter how small.” - Dr. Seuss
“You can complain about roses having thorns. Or you can rejoice that thorns have roses.”
- Ziggy
Emma sorry you are struggling with flashbacks, they are not nice, I suffer with them too sometimes.
Lucy whats up?
I hate uninformed people, a guy at LGBT youth group was saying how people who have been sectioned are mudering psycho's who should be locked up forever. Felt **** and suicidal on the way home, slightly calmer now but still got urges to cut.
Plus student finance haven't emailed me to reset my password, even though they said it would be done within 24 hours and the solicitors for the flat my parents are buying for me to live in haven't sent my mum the contracts or anything, even though last week they said they were emailing it to her while she was on the phone to them and we want to exchange contracts by monday so I can move on the 24th may. All this extra stress on top of my exams is making me feel ****, will be surprised if I get out of this self harm free or not getting more suicidal/oding.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
hey oliver not alot
dont worry everything will turn out fine and everything is going to work out okay just do your best not to sh/od
What lies behind us and what lies before us is so small compared to what lies within us. And if we carry what lies within us out into the world, miracles can happen.” - Henry David Thoreau
“Don’t give up, I believe in you all, a person’s a person, no matter how small.” - Dr. Seuss
“You can complain about roses having thorns. Or you can rejoice that thorns have roses.”
- Ziggy
Ashley- what's going on? Are you feeling any better?
Lucy- it's only natural to feel so low and find everything so hard at the moment. You have had socking news regarding your mum and its only going take time for you to come to terms with it. It must be hard seeing S like that. Do you know what's making him suicidal? Does he want to talk about it? Your certainly NOT useless or worthless! You're amazing and mean so much to me that I would be lost without you!
Hi little pink bear. Welcome to the thread. Sorry that things aren't good for you. How are you now? Did your worker call back?
Oliver- glad the pain from the injection has it slightly less. That sounds really stressful. But you can try chasing them up. Call sfe to ask for the link to rest your password as its been over 24 hours and you need to sort out your finances ASAP. Can you also call the solicitors and chase up what's going on there is well? Good luck at the psych appt. let us know how it goes.
Emma- that sounds really hard. I still find it hard is well to accept that it has happened and stuff. I think that I've made it up and I'm sick and twisted. I think it's quite common to feel like that. But look at how you're still suffering and how it's still affecting your life. You couldn't of made it up! The evidence is there like you said and you're getting flashbacks so you really couldn't have made it up. How are you feeling now? *hugs*.
Ballerina123 - My lovely superstar
Call me R -
The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time - Abraham Lincoln
Lucy - *hugs* How are you doing today? Sorry you suffer from the irritability too. It does suck indeed. Remember you can talk freely here and don't have to pretend your fine for us x
Ashley - Want to talk love? *hugs back*
Oliver - Sorry the person at the LGBT group said that, they sound incredibly ignorant! Sounds like you've got a lot on your plate at the moment love, we're here for you *hugs* I hope you managed to get a bit more sleep x
Rupi - Thank you for your kind words. It helped to know I wasn't alone in thinking this way. How are you doing love? Well done on getting your uni place, proud of you x
Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
after a nice nap with my amazingly soft teddy bear im feeling alot better but...i still have to get through school today where people dont like me all that much :(
i dont need to talk about it but thanks for the offer emma:)
What lies behind us and what lies before us is so small compared to what lies within us. And if we carry what lies within us out into the world, miracles can happen.” - Henry David Thoreau
“Don’t give up, I believe in you all, a person’s a person, no matter how small.” - Dr. Seuss
“You can complain about roses having thorns. Or you can rejoice that thorns have roses.”
- Ziggy
Thanks Rupi and Emma. I managed to get to sleep at about 4.30, was not impressed when my mum rang me at 8! Psych appointment was ok, told her abut last night and how I got suicidal really quickly. She is still angry that i don't have a care co-ordinator! Going to go down to 5mg of olanzapine for a week then stop and I am seeing her in 2 weeks time to probably put up my aripiprazole and maybe talk about changing my anti depressants around or adding a new one in to help. I'm in uni now until 9pm with rehearsals!
Glad you are feeling a bit better Ashley, hope school goes ok for you.
how are you both?
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Emma- your welcome. You will get through it Hun. It's going to take time and you WILL get through it. How are you doing today?
Ashley- I'm glad the nap helped. Hopefully it won't be too bad at school today.
Oliver- I'm glad the appt went well. Hopefully you will get a better night sleep tonight.
I'm doing to well at all today. I couldn't cope and ended up taking pills and I have an appt with my CPN at 1 but I don't know if I can tell him. I know how much I've taken requires a drip but I can't.
Ballerina123 - My lovely superstar
Call me R -
The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time - Abraham Lincoln
Just wanted to say I love you Rupi and you are one of my best friends and I can't wait to cone to London so we can meet up.
I know it's going to be hard. But you have to tell h about the pills love. Try your hardest to tell him. Xxx
thanks everyone :) hope everyone has a good day but for now i must get off
rupi just do your best to tell him its important that you do tell him
*hugs to all*
What lies behind us and what lies before us is so small compared to what lies within us. And if we carry what lies within us out into the world, miracles can happen.” - Henry David Thoreau
“Don’t give up, I believe in you all, a person’s a person, no matter how small.” - Dr. Seuss
“You can complain about roses having thorns. Or you can rejoice that thorns have roses.”
- Ziggy
Ashley I am glad to hear that cuddling your teddy helped. I hope school ent okay for you hun
Mark enjoy seeing your nephew, baby cuddles are the best :)
Little-Pink-Bear first off welcome to the thread I'm Kat :) Did your worker end up calling you back? Did you want to talk about what's bothering you?
Oliver sorry about what that guy said in group, people really can be ignorant sometimes. I am glad the psych helped though. Hope uni goes okay for you
Lucy CAT stands for -Crisis assessment and treatment team. I think it is similar to what you guys call home treatment team. Sorry your struggling love, but your not useless. It sounds like you are doing all you can for your friend by just being their for him. Just remember to look after yourself too
Emma sorry you had a hard counselling session, abuse can be hard to come to terms with but with time and support you will get through it. Have you been taught any coping techniques to deal with the flashbacks at all?
Rupi I know it's hard but please do try and tell your CPN so they can support you. We all care a great deal about you and wouldn't want anything bad to happen to you.
I was discharged from CAT yesterday, but after seeing my case manager today she re-referred me back to them. It was either that or be admitted to hospital. I saw the CAT team tonight and they wanted me in hospital, it seems everyone wants me in hospital at the moment. However they said at this point they won't section me as they want me to go in voluntarily but if things continue to deteriorate then then they would look at making me involuntary if I continue to refuse. They have increased my seroquel too and have taken my meds and only giving them to me on a daily basis.
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
Thanks crazyKat there are a few things going on right now and I just can't cope anymore I dont even want to be around anymore and yes she did phone me back but it wasn't any help she didn't even listen to me
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