I agree with Mari, when something like that happens it can throw up all your personal insecurities. You wonder why. But there could be many reasons, Sarah, like perhaps he got nervous and chickened out, or perhaps something important came up. Hope you are able to take care of yourself.
thanks guys.
ende dup cutting but managed to be calm enough to stop before i did anything major.
done some jobs around the house and kept myself distracted.
i know its because i see guys as my way of valuing myself . and i know that needs to change. and to be honest he's just a guy a few years younger who thinks its cool to have sex with an older girl. its nothing more than that. and i dont like him i actually find him irritating, he was just there to use. so i havent lost anything
but im back on stable(ish) terms so its ok.
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
tell me about it.
its all very well suriving but sometimes it would be nice not to have to distract yourself and keep yourself busy.
but its good that you are. im proud of you :).
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
evening everyone.
how are you all?
I know it's horrible having to distract yourself but its fab you are hunny!
x
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
tell me about it.
its all very well suriving but sometimes it would be nice not to have to distract yourself and keep yourself busy.
but its good that you are. im proud of you :).
Thanks Left in the Centre, sorry, I don't know your name.
I am busy watching trashy tv on itv player but I am going to end up cutting tonight, I know it.
I really don't want a life where I constantly have to use "copin mechanisms" or resist the urge to self-destruct. So tempting to give in.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Sometimes i dont know why i find life so awful that i have to die, i wonder if its whats going on around me or just my illness, either way sometimes i cant understand. I got thinking sometimes we dont remeber what makes life great and worthwhile, it isnt all the massive events that happen, its all the little things that you easily forget that make you the happiest. I mean i rember when i was with my friend sitting in the rain playing clapping games. Something so small and non important that makes you really happy.
I guess what i want to say is sometimes you cant see how great life really is, its all the small non important things that makes you happy.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
your so right hunny!
I feel really sad and i wanna cry and i dont know why.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Just wish it was over. Tired of this game called "life". I didn't ask for it, I didn't want it and I certainly didn't want it to be filled with the crap it has been.
"Everything is possible through Christ, who gives me strength". Phillipians 4:13
Hi. *Hugs to all*. I'm sorry I haven't been around much. I don't feel too connected with myself at the moment so I'm finding it hard to give proper advice to you folks.
I wondered if anyone here suffered with anything seasonal affective? I don't have depression persay. But I really - really - struggle in winter. I'm already getting nervous because the weather is starting to feel a bit "back end-y" (of summer) and experience over nine years (eight of which I have really suffered in winter) tells me I'm just going to get lower and lower until I crash in November. Anyone identify? xxx
i really struggled in winter too.
my head of year said to stare at a lightbulb and stuff.
it actually worked. its something ive kept doing over all these years.
but its harder in summer when you know its sunny and yet you still get covered by the grey cloud that is depression.
no reason - sorry your struggly. keep sticking at it with me yeah ? it has to pay off in the end .
A tyrant spell has bound me And I cannot, cannot go
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Emily Bronte
my boyfriend took them :( i take them to help block out the rubbish, i hate everything sometimes, i was useless at hiding them today, now that means what little money i have will be wasted,
i feel so rubbish i want them, but i have no idea where to look for them, ive tried while hes downstairs but i dont know where to look i want to cry and curl up in a ball for ever
