Katie- Everything is wrong hun. Its not your time. I promise you that. You can do this, I know you can.
Have you managed to tell anyone how hard things are at the min with the anniversary etc honey?
I know the feeling bout your head not being wired right sweetie. But things can change. Things can get better. You must know that they can because you are still trying. Your going to DBT. Your trying everyday to keep going.
Please.
Here for you darling xx
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Not told anyone. CPN rang yesterday and said anniversary was coming up but not how bad things were. Now weekend and on my own. Pushed everyone away. DBT not going to work. Nothing's going to work. I think this weekend is going to be it. When I finally destroy myself. When there's no turning back.
Me too Katie. Tonight sounds good to me. I am waiting for my parents and husband to leave home. Then I'm going to buy alcohol and throw all my pills in a bag. I'm so screwed. Oh well. I don't care. I have tons of people who love me. I have no control in my life. I'm a nobody. They love who they think I am. Maybe I'll even go to a bar and do it there.
I can't feel anything good right now. Nothing. I'm in the worst place I've ever been. And I don't want to help myself. An ambulance will probably come get me tonight. Unless I can figure out a bus while I'm drunk and high on pills. Hopefully I will make it
Rachel & Katie- Please guys. You have to keep fighting. Can we please not do the 'If your not going to, neither am I' stuff. Please.
Holds you both tightly- I would like to say that were all in this together but its not sounding like that right now.
Please get help. x
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
If I'm not here for a long while know that I love you both Roli and Katie.
I can't cope with life tonight. I'm crashing and want to. Keep getting help. You deserve it. I'm really fucked right now
I'm sorry you guys are struggling too.
I feel numb. My attempt last night failed. MH people don't know what I did. I've spoken to the Samaritans about it. It helped a bit.
I still feel hopeless. I'm tired of fighting
This thread breaks my heart because it kills me to know there are other people out there who are struggling. I wouldn't wish these feelings on my worst enemy, let alone any of you guys. Sending love & hugs.
My mom is very sick and has been for a long time. She fell and broke her hip last week and had to have a replacement done. Since the surgery she's been horribly sick...a terrible fever, can barely feed herself, etc. At midnight my dad got a call from the hospital that my mom's heart stopped and she was gone. By the grace of God, a staff member happened to be in the room at the time and performed CPR and brought her back. Now she's sedated and on a ventilator in ICU. I'm so scared. I think her body is just tired of fighting. I can't lose my mom. I'll go crazy. My poor dad. I just can't handle this.
~ Megan
"Even on my weakest days, I get a little bit stronger."
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
