*huggles Lia* How're you doing now? & what makes you feel/think there's something in your closet? (wish I could be there to check for you) I have had those fears before... even had my mum come and check for me, hah. But it (whatever closet/cubby it happens to be) is empty of everything but my own stuff 99% of the time and the other 1% of the time it's a mouse or something kicking up a racket. *extra comforting hugs*
Go go Reaper, with the distractions!! :) What are you staying busy doing? (if you don't mind me asking) Please keep distracting yourself because I/we really don't want you to do anything dangerous... I'm worried about you, love. Stay as safe as you possibly can. *gentle hugs*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Haha. I don't mean that kinda closet. Although there's probably something in there too. I don't even wanna know what's in my real closet, but anyway. I was on about the skelingtons in my 'closet' if that makes any sense at all.
*Returns comforting hugs and hands tissues.*
Oh whoops, lol, my bad. Gotta admit that's one of the funnier mistakes/interpretations. :P Yeah, I understand what you mean about the "skeletons in your closet" thing. I get that too sometimes. :( It can be scary. If you want to talk more about it, I'm here to listen - real closet or skeletons closet. ;) *cuddles*
Reaper, those sound like good ways to distract yourself. :) Way to go!!
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Sorry I've not really been in a position to post much , am watching a movie with my parents . Just to let you know I am trying to keep up and reading the posts .:)
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
Thanks April. I was gonna call you Lia just then- then I remembered that was my name. Wow, we're a clever pair.
Pain pain go away, come again another day. Then again, maybe don't. Please just go now. That hurts to much. I can't deal. Go away before I do. We can't both live in this body together. Go...please...
Wow, now I'm talking to my emotions. I have truly cracked.
I just spoke to someone from the crisis team for over half an hour. I think i'll be safe for tonight because it passed the time and now i'm almost ready to go to sleep but I don't think i'll be safe tomorrow. My support worker is calling me in the morning and then i'm going to the gym with her in the afternoon but if i'm still feeling like overdosing i'll do it in the evening.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Hi Mark. *cuddles* Glad that you're managing to keep up, also glad that you're distracted (are you??) at your parents'. Hopefully you can stop yourself from SI'ing at all when you're there although please don't beat up yourself if you can't. Post when you can, we're here for you. :)
Lia, lol, that made me giggle. Yes, we are a clever pair indeed. ;) I have to admit I've never quite pulled that one - I mean, calling someone else by my name - but I have talked to my emotions before. Doesn't mean you've cracked or are crazy. Just means that you're expressing how you feel. It doesn't really matter how (as long as it's not in a destructive way, although I understand where that comes from too), as long as you manage to do it. Because - as many of us have found - holding emotions in is NOT healthy. :( *cuddles*
Hels, how are you doing now?? *cuddles*
Lindsay, how are you? still managing to fight off the OD urges?? I really hope so... *cuddles*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Whoops, we posted at the same time. :P I'm glad that you're gonna be okay for today... worry about today, today, and tomorrow when it comes. Please try & keep fighting the urges. You deserve health and safety and happiness. Please take care of yourself the best you can and if you can't, phone the crisis team just like you did. (Well done, btw!!)
*hugs*
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
Yey for not harming today, but no yey for it driving you bats. :( But at least you've been safe. :) That's a plus!! ^_^ I'm happy about that now... hehe.
My stomach hurts. I ate too much for lunch. Stupid'ness. :'(
RYL family: Doikers is my brother
All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter into another! - Anatole France.
You're not stupid April. How are you feeling now? I know. That holding in emotions isn't healthy that is, but I can't help it. I have to protect myself. It's explained on my R/V thread. First post. I've been too hurt.
Well done on not harming today Mark, we're proud of you :)
Linday- I'm glad you're safe for now. Please do try and stay that way.
I'm tempted to cut. That will make it the second day in a row.
*hugs Hels, April, Mark, Felicia, Lindsay, Reaper, Lia, and anybody else*
Just got back from work, urgh. Brother is having a ton of friends over tonight for beer pong. Most of them are alright, but the last thing I want is people over... hopefully I can hide in my room in the basement and not be bothered.
I SI'ed earlier today which I'm kinda bummed about... because it was just out of frustration at the new meds, and how my brain still can't comprehend that they don't mean I'm psychotic... this probably doesn't make any sense so I'll stop rambling now.
If someone ever says to you "You need to stop thinking so much," call them ignorant in your head and keep thinking deeper. It is this mentality that breeds stupidity and sheeple. Your mind is the most important tool you have. If you stop using it, it will atrophy.
I'm sorry Taz, but try not to be so hard on yourself. We all slip and it doesn't make us weak, just human. You can hide in here with us :)
You're welcome Mark :) I actually feel better from talking to you guys. Just in general that is. Not talking about feelings. Not gonna make a habit of that.
