Struggling this evening...bad thoughts. Want to pull stitches out. Trying to stay distracted.
"Excuse me but can I be you for a while
My dog won't bite if you sit real still
I got the anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again
Yeah I can hear that" - Tori Amos - Silent all these Years
What are you doing for distraction snixxy? Keep at it! We can try and think of some other distractions. Pulling the stitches out won't help matters, although I know it's really tough when you're struggling.
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Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
LavaLamp is right, it's good to stay distracted,
I guess the hardest part is finding out what distractions work best.
I hope things stay well for you Snixxy *Hug*
Hi, thanks for the replies. I rang the crisis line and they calmed me down. Had a sleeping tablet and took myself off to bed.
Managed to sleep with some music.
"Excuse me but can I be you for a while
My dog won't bite if you sit real still
I got the anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again
Yeah I can hear that" - Tori Amos - Silent all these Years
just popping in really quickly to send you all hugs. I have to get on with work and my sister will not be happy if I'm not working. Shall try to get on this evening to do individual replies. Have a good day everyone. *hugs*
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
snixxy - Really well done for calling the crisis line and taking yourself off to bed. How are you feeling this morning?
Mark - Happy Easter, hope you have a great day and eat plenty of chocolate.
Oliver - Good to see you! Hope you manage to get some work done and today is a good day for you.
Happy Easter thread! Hope everyone has a lovely day. We're setting off for Church in an hour for the Easter production then going to my parents for dinner. Hopefully today will be okay.
Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
Know the feeling Mark! All my friends are popping out babies and getting married all over the place.
So I'm going to sit on my own on easter sunday eating chocolate!!
Lavalamp - Still feel low this today. IHTT came round this morning. I feel ok during the day, but in the evening I'm a complete wreck. The team are going to ring me this evening to check on me.
*hugs everyone *
"Excuse me but can I be you for a while
My dog won't bite if you sit real still
I got the anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again
Yeah I can hear that" - Tori Amos - Silent all these Years
*hugs Mark* know the feeling, I wish I was in a relationship, just to have that special someone, feel lonely a bit.
*hugs Snixxy* did the team ring you? I am worse at nights, better now though cos of meds, but most nights I used to spend roaming the streets and finding ways to attempt suicide.
*hugs Emma* how are you?
I found out today that my sister has self harmed once, she has two cuts on her hand. Feel like it is my fault, if she didn't know I did it then she may not have turned to it herself. I just don't want her to go down the path of self distruction and then have to deal with scars etc.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Hi Everyone,
im new or essentially new(not new to RYL but to this thread) Im feeling very lonely right now.
I have BPD not sure how long ago I was diagnosed it wasnt like a boom you have BPD no one really told me it was more implies, I started DBT...and started seeing BPD on my insurance claims. that was 3 years ago I guess.
I have also really been struggling with eating. I don't believe its Anorexia because I don't meet the qualifications, but I do restrict. I have been these past fw weeks with eating but im feeling awfull, i know im gaining weight and I dont awnt to. and I feel horrible. thats just amking everything else worse
Good day to you, Mark and Oliver,
And everyone of course :)
Yesh, I did eventually get to sleep.. at like 8am...
I think I was listening to music for like 3 hours instead of sleeping o.o..
I dunno, I just can't sleep most of the time,
My body both craves and rejects sleep o.o..
I'm going to Paris tomorrow though!
It's the annual school trip for the first year students.
I'm actually properly nervous though.. It's a 4 day trip,
I guess I'm not comfortable being away from home for so long...
Really out of my comfort zone o.o..
I don't like prolonged public/social situations,
I often need time alone to myself, to lower my anxiety levels..
How is everyone? Everything going okay with all you guys?
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