Well it's not fair
It's not even close
You tied me down
Where I'm forced to watch as you poke holes
In every part of me
Containing something secretly
Something sacred to me
Well I lied my face off
When I said that I would be okay
It's never fine when you go away
These cuts run deep these scars are permanent
And always on display
This makes things difficult for me
Well It's not fair
It's not even close
You fed me the sun Burned me up inside and watched me choke
On everything we did
On everything we lived
Let's see if I can live again
Well I lied my face off
When I said that I would be okay
It's never fine when you go away
These cuts run deep these scars are permanent
And always on display
This makes things difficult for me
And like an empty sterile room somehow I made a mess
Like watching newborn babies crack from work related stress
And like an empty sterile room somehow I made a mess
Like watching newborn babies crack from work related stress
I'm bad luck
Can't ****
Got no reflection today
Maybe I'll stay down next time I get hit by a train
By a train
Well I lied my face off
When I said that I would be okay
It's never fine when you go away
I've got to take what I'm making
And turn it into something
I've got to take what I'm making
And turn it into something
For you
I've got to break what I'm making
And turn it into nothing
I've got to break what I'm making
And turn it into nothing
For you
I mean well, I'm well, well I mean I'm in hell well I still have my health at least that's what they tell me.
If wellness is this what in hells name is sickness?
Dear Friend, what's on your mind
You don’t laugh the way you used to But I've noticed how you cry Dear friend, I feel so helpless
I see you sit in silence
As you face new pain each day
I feel there’s nothing I can do
I know you don’t feel pretty
Even though you are
But it wasn’t your beauty
That found room in my heart
Dear friend, you are so precious Dear Friend
Dear friend, I'm here for you I know that you don’t talk too much
But we can share this day anew Dear Friend, please don’t feel like you're alone
There is someone who is praying Praying for your peace of mind
Hoping joy is what you'll find I know you don’t feel weak
Even though you are But it wasn’t your strength
That found room in my heart
Dear friend, you are so precious, Dear Friend
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.’ – Oscar Wilde
‘It’s hard to dance with the devil on your back.’ Sydney Carter
A blackout in the room again
a busted lip and broken skin.
I wake up in the bathroom
and dare not bother asking
why the mirror's craked and all I see
are shards of glass inside of me.
hen the weight of all the world's gone wrong.
It's gone wrong again.
Gone ****ing wrong.
It's gone wrong again.
Well liars they leave a guilty trail.
And let me tell you something people,
I've been lying for ****ing years.
That must be why I'm standing in this space.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break even
Her best days will be some of my worst
She finally met a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven... even... no
What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
They say bad things happen for a reason
But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding
Cos she's moved on while I'm still grieving
And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even... no
What am I gonna to do when the best part of me was always you,
And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces, yeah,
I'm falling to pieces
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)
Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain
You took your suitcase, I took the blame.
Now I'm try'na make sense of what little remains ooh
Cos you left me with no love and no love to my name.
I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing
Just prayin' to a god that I don't believe in
Cos I got time while she got freedom
Cos when a heart breaks no it don't break
No it don't break
No it don't break even no
What am I gonna do when the best part of me was always you and
What am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up that you're ok
(Oh glad your okay now)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(Oh I'm glad your okay)
I'm falling to pieces yeah
(One still in love while the other ones leaving)
I'm falling to pieces
(Cos when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven)
Oh it don't break even.
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
I would dig a thousand holes to lay next to you
I would dig a thousand more if I needed to
I look around the grave for an escape route of old routines
There doesn’t seem to be any other way
Cause I’ve started falling apart I’m not savouring life
I’ve forgotten how good it could be to feel alive
Crazy as it sounds you wont feel as low as you feel right now
At least that’s what I've been told by everyone
I whisper empty sounds in your ear and hope that you won’t let go
Take the pieces and build them skywards
Cause I've started falling apart I’m not savouring life
I've forgotten how good it could be to feel alive
I've started falling apart I'm not savouring life
Take the pieces and build them skywards
I've forgotten how good it could be to feel alive
Take the pieces and build them skywards
I've started falling apart I'm not savouring life
Take the pieces and build them skywards
I've forgotten how good it could be to feel alive
Take the pieces and build them skywards
I've started falling apart I'm not savouring life
Take the pieces and build them skywards
I've forgotten how good it could be to feel alive
Take the pieces and build them skywards
Take the pieces and build them skywards
and
Take the pieces and build them skywards
and
Take the pieces and build them up to the sky.
The world is just illusion always trying to change me.
You will find wonder wherever you can, and spread joy whenever you are able.
I felt emotions of gentleness and pleasure, that had long appeared dead, divide within me. - Frankenstein.
silence screams, "you're just so beautiful in blue"
breathless stares escape your undying eyes
are you blind to my sorrow and sympathy?
a piece of me will die with your last breath...
this will all be over soon for you are so lost inside
glazed eyes long for the waves' embrace
drawn to an end so near...
It's like I'm paranoid lookin' over my back
It's like a whirlwind inside of my head
It's like I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like the face inside is right beneath my skin
You will become the victorious (become what may)
With the skill to fell the rest of them down,
You are what I despise .
And I hope you judge your life on all the friends you've made.
To think,
To think you went away
(Yes, I did for you and I'm far away from you).
To think,
To think you ran away
(Yes, I did for you and I'm far away from you).
It's the same as I feel low,
Everything's the same,
Nothing matters, but it is all right.
You will become the victorious (become what may)
With the skill to fell the rest of them down,
Fit you into your mouth.
To think,
To think you ran away
(Yes, I did for you and I'm far away from you).
To think,
To think you ran away
(Yes, I did for you and I'm far away from you).
It's the same as I feel low,
Everything's the same,
Nothing matters, but it is all right.
Why would you bow down?
Why would you bow down?
Would you, would you stay?
Stay a while for...
I found God
On the corner of First and Amistad
Where the west
Was all but won
All along
Smoking his last cigarette
I said, "Where you been?"
He said, "Ask anything".
Where were you
When everything was falling apart?
All my days
Were spent by the telephone
It never rang
And all I needed was a call
It never came
To the corner of First and Amistad
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
In the end
Everyone ends up alone Losing her
The only one who's ever known
Who I am
Who I'm not, who I wanna be
No way to know
How long she will be next to me
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me
Early morning
The city breaks I've been callin'
For years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
Ya never send me no letters
You got some kinda nerve
Taking all my world
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me Lyin' on the floor Where were you? Where were you?
Lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin' on the floor Surrounded, surrounded Why'd you have to wait?
Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late
You found me, you found me Why'd you have to wait?
To find me, to find me
let's take this one day at a time
i'll hold your hand if you hold mine
the time that we kill keeps us alive
your words won't save me now
i'm at the edge feeling the sweat drip from my brow
get a grip on yourself is what they say
every hour every day
hands over my ears, i've been screaming all these years
Tell me that it's gonna be okay
Tell me that you'll help me find my way
Tell me you can see the light of dawn is breaking
Tell me that it's gonna be all right
Tell me that you'll help me fight this fight
Tell me that you won't leave me alone in this
'Cause I need
I need a hand to hold
To hold me from the edge
The edge I'm sliding over slowly
'Cause I need
I need your hand to hold
To hold me from the edge
The edge I'm sliding past
Hold on to me
The deeper |you cut| The deeperI |h.u.r.t| The deeper y.o.u cut
It only gets w.o.r.s.e
What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?(Oh,Oh,Oh,Oh)
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't tell this anymore
What would you do, do, do?
Come, break me down
Bury me, Bury me
I am finished with you
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life.
What would you do?(Do,do)
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for
I'm not running from you (from you)
Come, break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now: this is who I really am inside
I Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, THIS IS WHO I REALLY AM
Oh oh
Oh oh
Oh oh
Come, break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come, break me down
Break me down
Break me down
What if I wanted to break...? (You say you wanted more, what are you waiting for? (bury me) I'm not running from you...)
What if I, what if I, what if I... (bury me, bury me)
I'm not threatened, by every pair of legs you watch go by
I don't cringe when you stare at women, it's just a thing called guy
I don't notice your side ways glances or where your loyalty lies
I'm secure and out of me, it's hard to get a rise
I'm not jealous
I don't get moved by much
I'm not enraged
Not insecure as such
Not going insane
Rational stays in touch
Doth I protest too much?
I'm not tortured by how oft your busy, Cause I've got things to do
I'm not disappointed about how you don't miss you me, cause I don't need you to
I'm not needy
I don't get clingy much
I'm not scared
I'm not afraid as such
I'm not dependent
Rock solid, stays in touch
And Doth I protest too much?
So much energy to prove to you
Who I can't possibly be So much energy to prove to you
I'm not who you hate for me to be
I'm not saddened
And I don't miss you
Cause I have moved on too
I'm not concerned about your new lover
Cause I have a new lover too
I'm not depressed
I don't get down that much
I'm not despondent
I am not dark as such
I'm never sad
Keep Chin Up, Stays in touch
And Doth I protest too much?
I'm not jealous
I don't get moved by much
I'm not enraged
Not insecure as such
Not going insane
Rational stays in touch
And Doth I protest too much?
"I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night wanting, but still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen."
I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone
Stay with me, this is what I need, please?
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope
This time I will be listening.
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
(My heart, it beats for you)
This heart, it beats, beats for only you (It beats, beats for only you)
My heart is yours (My heart is yours)
This heart, it beats, beats for only you (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
My heart, my heart is yours (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
(Please don't go, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is...
You could've been all I wanted
But you weren't honest
Now get in the ground You choked off the surest of favors
But if you really loved me
You would've endured my world
Well if you're just as I presumed A whore in sheep's clothing
F***ing up all I do
"I have this dream of being whole. Of not going to sleep each night wanting, but still sometimes, when the wind is warm or the crickets sing, I dream of a love that even time will lie down and be still for. I just want someone to love me. I want to be seen."
Location: around about here somwhere, coventry uk that would be
I am currently:
What’s your problem?
What’s your problem?
I don’t get what your problem is
You got me racing
Anticipatin’
And I don’t think I can handle this
Coz when you look at me funny
Well, it makes me worry
It’s gonna get me excited and I’m gonna get frightened
So stop your smilin
And stop your starin
I’d rather talk and be friends with you
All this bravado
It makes me nervous
But that ain’t gonna sink through to you
And you’re still lookin at me funny
And it’s makin me worry
It’s gonna get me excited and I’m gonna get violent
You need it
You want it
You know just how to get it and you will
Oh, yes you will
You started punchin
And started screamin
I seen my face scattered on the floor
I tried to block you
I couldn’t stop you
I couldn’t hold you down no more
Coz when I looked at your face
It made me shiver and shudder
It weren’t a beautiful face
But it was that of a woman
You need it
You want it
You know just how to get it and you will
Oh, yes you will
Please don’t pile on the pressure today
I can only deal with it sometimes
But if you told me close to my face
I’d respect you more of the time
What’s your problem?
What’s your problem?
I don’t get what your problem is
