Hi Katie, I have been absent for a while so I'm only just catching up. I'm really sorry for your loss. Please be kind to yourself. Remember that everyone reacts to death in different ways.
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When life gets you down do you know what you've gotta do?
Thank you love xx I'm trying. My cpn said today that I can have another two weeks at the day hospital, which was a lot longer than I was expecting so I guess that's good. It should cover me until after the funeral. I managed to half sort my flat out too. Guess distraction does work!
That's great! I am sure going to the day hospital will help keep your mind occupied. Well done on doing some tidying. It sounds like you've achieved quite a lot today.
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When life gets you down do you know what you've gotta do?
The funeral is on the 12th and I'm due to get discharged on the 11th. It's bad timing, I was hoping to still be still at the day hospital until after the funeral in case I freak out. And I found out I've got a further assessment at a supported living place to see about a longer stay there. They do 8 month placements. The idea that i could be out of hospital for 8 months is awesome.
Edit: and I just checked what reading I've got to do this semester and it's loads. Who am I kidding i can't handle this!!
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Looking for some advice. Basically I'm thinking of discharging myself from the day hosp a week and a half early because I just don't have the time to go in and other things, like uni, are taking priority. Do you think it would be stupid of me to turn down help? Apart from food I'm feeling quite settled and alright although I do have the funeral soon which will be hard. Don't know what to do.
Okish. Quite a lot has been happening. I tried to discharge myself but they said it wasn't the right time with the funeral next week and when I've got so much going on. So I basically agreed to stay at the day hospital for a little while longer. I've been b/ping and overdosed the other day. Things are generally on top of me. I behind with uni work and money stuff. I've got an assessment for an24 hour supported living place at the weekend. My eczema is still really bad. My cc, my mum and the day hospital all want me to defer uni for another year because I'm so stressed but I'm not keen. Not sure what to do. Dunno, I'll stop rambling now!
I'm sorry things seem to be on top of you right now. I think they're perhaps right about staying a bit until things have calmed down/the funeral has passed.
How do you feel about the assessment for supported housing?
Take care,
x x x
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
I'm nervous about it because I think it could be a massive help (it's a 24 hour supported hostel for up to 8 months), and I'm scared I won't be offered a place. It's used as an alternative to hospital so if I got a place there I could be out of hospital for the full 8 months which would be amazing. The longest I've gone in 3 years is 6 months.
I'm really stressed out cos I've eaten too much and want to purge >.<
That sounds like it could be very, very positive for you. I wish you all the best of luck with it.
I'm sorry you're feeling so stressed. Can you do something to distract you...?
x x x
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
I've got uni work pending and I'm heading over to the supported living place in a bit to stay there for two nights to see what its like. I really want it to go well. I don't know what to expect. My Eczema is flared, yet again and my eating is a complete mess. Good news is I finally have a washing machine again after it being broken for three months!
It's really good you like it and you're feeling safe. I hope it helps you being there and you manage to find some time to focus on Uni work.
x x x
♥It's the ups and downs of living life this way. Promise me you'll never go away. Just stay with me through one more night because it's always darkest before the light and now I promise you I'll never turn away. I won't let you give us one less heart to break...♥
I'm back home now and really struggling . My weight, the funeral, my eczema, my uni work, my lack of control over everything is making me suicidal. I can't handle this. It's too much. I'm too much. I don't know what to do.
How did the stay at the supported accommodation go?
It's understandable that you are struggling right now, you have a lot going on. Do you think you are able to stay safe tonight? If not it may be worth ringing the crisis team.
Are you back at the day hospital tomorrow?
'Cause I'll always remember you the same.
Oh eyes like wild flowers within demons of change ♥
