I'm so tired and alone and impulsive

[Kyaneos]

You arent alone Aimee, we are here!

You are going to get through this, try to hold on to how positive things have been in the last few days <3

[Snow White.]

Thank you both so so much. I'm in bed! Safely! The lady was very helpful we just talked a bit about reasons to live and then I got really sleepy so I've had some choccy and my night time meds I should be asleep in five minutes!

Thank you for your kind words. That is a good saying too. Thank you for being here so much

[Kyaneos]

Well done, I hope you sleep well!<3

[sherlock holmes]

I hope you sleep well and feel better when you wake up x

[sherlock holmes]

Also, what happened in your appointment? Did something trigger off your suicidal feelings?

[akita]

Please don't kill yourself the way you want to and don't kill yourself at all. My cousin did the exact same thing that you want to do and the same place too. I know that so many people love you and want to see you alive and recover from this.

Can i do anything for you? I dunno, maybe send you a surprise/cheer up/smile Amy parcel? Or meet you at Eastland?

I hope that you get some proper rest tonight.

[Snow White.]

Thank you all so much for checking in. I slept so well, this medication has come at the right time.

Andrea sorry if I triggered you, and I don't deserve any parcels but thank you for the kind offer. .

Sarah my psychologist appointment went really well actually. I rated my suicidal thought as zero in the session.

But I did binge at lunch which created a down mood.

Feeling better this morning, the sun is out and I'll have a shower and hopefully get things done.

[talaiporia]

Aimee, I'm sorry I missed this before. I'm glad the medication helped, and you're feeling better this morning. Do you think you might be able to discuss a plan with your psychologist/people for what to do next time you feel like you need to self harm / suicidal?

[Snow White.]

We did touch on that, but I suppose it's all things I already know but just didn't really engage in. But I think I've had enough now. I've woken with bruising on my neck which I now have to hide along with my arm and I'm starting to build a world of lies, which I don't like. Plus the medication should kick in soon and help ease the urgency of the thoughts perhaps.

I guess I need to look at my safety plan more readily in these situations.

Thank Sophia, no need to apologise!

[Cacoethes]

Thinking of you aimee. Love you xxx

[Snow White.]

Thank you Beckie x

I spent so much money today and half managed to restrain myself but ostensibly spent my whole pay check I got Thursday. I feel awful but part of it is an amazing ring that I'm yet to pay off but when I do I can't wait to get it. I got a new tablet too which I bet will be useful for uni.
Then I binged :/

So I've done my nails to try and relax and will play with my new technology hopefully to amuse me

[crazykat]

Sounds like things have been difficult but you are using some good strategies now to help you get through these difficult feelings safely. Proud of you

[akita]

You didn't trigger me, i just don't want you dying the same way as he did. It's great to see that you slept well and your mood is slightly improving and you had a lovely shopping therapy day.

Show us your nails and the ring and the tablet?

[Pi.R^2]

Hey Aimee, I'm sorry things are so difficult at the moment. It sounds like you can see that you're sitting right at the top of a really slippery slope of self harm at the moment and want to make the choice to turn around but it's really hard. Hold on and keep pushing through- you can do this and not get into a vicious cycle of self harm all over again. This can just be a slip up, not a relapse.

You're doing all the right things in terms of seeking support and distracting yourself, and I have every faith that you can get through this safely.

[Revival]

I'm so sorry that things are so bad right now Aimee wish I could take away your pain you don't deserve this. Thinking of you don't give up <3