I think youre coping really well, once your dad is out of hospital and feeling better you should take some time to treat yourself/pat yourself on the back for coping so well with it. I know that youre working hard to keep yourself together but dont forget it is ok for you to bed upset or worried and when people ask its ok to say youre worried or whatever, they will expect that from you.
I hope hes home soon and that he feels better, hang in there.x
There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you.
But there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.
I aint no abacus but you can count on me.
Oh i'm so sorry, I didn't notice people had commented on here D:
I am super grateful and thank you!
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Sorry for bumping this but I feel I owe it to you all to keep you updated.
Today I got a letter from the support group I was on the waiting list and I have an appointment on the 5th of March! I'm finally getting some help :D
I'm super nervous though.
I think this one will just be me sitting down with someone talking and explaining things but what does one say to these people? What kind of things will he ask?
Oh Mike that's great :) I'm really pleased that things are looking up. I know it seems majorly scary and it's a big thing, but it should really help, and make things easier for you. I'm proud of you and you are awesome and it will all be okay. Really pleased for you.
Oh Mike that's great :) I'm really pleased that things are looking up. I know it seems majorly scary and it's a big thing, but it should really help, and make things easier for you. I'm proud of you and you are awesome and it will all be okay. Really pleased for you.
N'aww, thank you! I'm kinda proud of myself too, if i'm honest.
Ah I thought it might have been something like that..Thank you.
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I'm sorry for bumping this but yesterday I had a really bad experience on a train and it's got me thinking and a little worries :/
Basically I was on the train home and this man started to say stuff to me about my arm and was harassing me and I can't stop thinking about it.
Here's the story, the train was really packed so I was stood there minding my own business when a man started asking me about my union stuff (I don't mind questions about that) but then he noticed my arm..
He was like 'why do you do that? You know you are really selfish for doing that, why not just kill yourself etc etc'
I felt really uncomfortable so I went to cover up my arm and he grabbed my wrist and went to life my sleeve up by force, I raised my voice asking him to let me go and when he did I quickly moved to another part of the train, great it was over...
He followed me and started to say other stuff about my arm and all that but my stop was coming up so I just put up with it.
Went to get on my next train and he was getting on the same train (it was my last train so I had to get it)..
I stayed away from him but he found me and come up to me and was like 'what are you thinking about? You are thinking about buring yourself ain't you?!' while he was doing the action of burning himself on his arm..
I asked him to leave me alone and I was feeling uncomfortable but he refused to leave me alone so I got up and moved, he followed me again so I said I would call the police if he didn't leave me alone and he said if I did he would have me arrested for SHing :/
On top of all that, he went to his friends and said pretty loudly that I burn myself and about 4 lads got up to look at me, it was soo horrible!
So my question is, am I really that selfish? Am I really that bad that I deserve that kind of attention?
Oh Mike :(
First of all, NO. You are not selfish at all. You're one of the least selfish people I know! Everybody has their own way of dealing with things. Unfortunately not everyone agrees with those things. People like him don't matter okay? What does matter is the people that you love and care about accepting you, which they do.
I completely understand where you're coming from, and I can understand why you're feeling upset about this. You need to remember all the people on here, and in real life who love you for who you are.
That man sounds like a particularly nasty piece of work. You did the right thing by not rising to it.
PM me if you want, but please remember you are a good person who is loved and valued and cared about.
And none of us would care if you had three heads and green skin so don't worry. Just look after yourself <3
It was just really uncomfortable and I wasn't ready for that kind of thing, funny looks and all that I can deal with and the odd comment is fine but the fact he was following me even after I asked him to stop was just scary and I could tell it was making other people uncomfortable too, there was even a young girl that looked at me like she felt sorry for me.
But yeah, I just try to remember the good stuff and all that.
You are not selfish in any way shape or form, I am sorry that you had to experience that it must have been awful.
Send love and best wishes your way. Hope you're ok
Thank you, means a lot to me!
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*hugs* You are not selfish at all Mr Goldfish! Sorry you had such a terrible experience on the train.
I've had something similar where a guy harrased me on the train trying to get me to sleep with him, it only ended when I got off the train.
Try to not let it get to you, he is a narrow minded idiot and not worth your time at all.
<3
Pfft, some men just have no respect! *shakes fish* :P
I seen the doc person today, we did a lot of talking, I said more than I ever have and he praised me for my honesty etc.
He says he sees no reason why I can't join the group and thinks it will be helpful for me to join but that's just the first hurdle.
He now has to take my case to the group and they will talk about me (A little paranoid about that) and then decide, I will be asked to come back in and I will have to talk to the group about myself (that's a scary thought) and then I will have to leave and they will take a vote if I can join the group or not.
This won't happen for around 4 weeks or so but yeah, moving forward.
Oh good luck for that. It's good that you were able to be honest with the doc.
Fingers crossed that they will accept you, please do keep us updated.
Wannabe CPN : -)
"He who is tired of Weird Al is tired of life." - Homer Simpson "I hear those voices that will not be drowned" Sanity is a nasty disease. The world would be a happier place without it. - Rilic
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Well done for being honest to the Doctors Mike, that is a really brave thing to do and I hope that you get a place in the group.
Love from MEERA xx
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Mike asked me to post this:
I'm so, so sorry for wasting space and time in bumping this.
I keep commenting here and deleting it, i've been doing it for the past few days but i'm going to try my very best not to.
Basically, lately i've been having some horrible thoughts and it's getting harder and harder to fight them, I don't know if I can even be bothered fighting anymore, it's just too much effort.
One of the images I keep having is me ODing on my meds, it's kinda hard because i'm only allowed x days worth at a time but I just keep thinking about stock piling them so I can just do it, that sounds rather pathetic :/ I know I can take other things but my head is showing me using my meds so i have to use them to do it :/ I don't know how not to do it, do I tell the woman in the chemist? Do I just keep taking them so I can't stock pile? I don't know what to do.
It's not that I want to die, I don't, I just don't care anymore, i don't want to die but I want to OD, well I don't want to but I feel I have to :/ I don't know.
Sorry, this is a waste of space and peoples time :/ Sorry.
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Mike lovely your not wasting time and space! Your deserving of help.
Im sorry your feeling so bad at the moment, is it possable that you could tell your doctor about your thoughts of ODing, it might be possable that they can put you on daily perscriptions which i know owuld be annoying but if it keeps you safe its worth looking in to.
If you ever want to talk im here for you lovely! xxx
