Contains sexual abuse - struggling with telling

[Pops.]

You're not alone. A horrid feeling, but not the truth. People are here for you. You can get through this. xxx

[l.e.g.o]

dont feel it
im fed up of this
fed up of life
fed up of being worthless
fed up of being lied to
fed up of not counting for anything

[Pops.]

Lied to how and by who?

Have you thought any more about moving out?

[needle girl]

no ones worthless hun

[l.e.g.o]

doesnt matter
sorry
feel like filth at the moment

[Pops.]

You've mentioned being lied to a couple of times now, so to be honest it sounds like it DOES matter to you, so it's okay to talk about it if you want to. You're not filth, not at all. Have you thought any more about moving out?

[l.e.g.o]

whats the point
im worthless i promise
i just get one story from one person and another from someone else
and i know someone is lying
curls up

[Pops.]

What's the point in what? Moving out you mean? You're not worthless.

[l.e.g.o]

i am i promise

[Pops.]

I'm not getting into that debate with you again, Jo. You're not worthless. I hope one day you'll see that. *cuddles*

When you said "What's the point?" were you referring to moving out or something else?

[l.e.g.o]

yeah moiving out

[needle girl]

your family is very abusive, which in and of itself is very bad
you cant heal when youre still being hurt hun
you dont deserve the abuse, no one should ever be abused

[l.e.g.o]

curls up small
im sorry

[needle girl]

*snuggles*
the ones who should be sorry are the people hurtin you

you can get help
theres shelters that will take you in, organizations that will help you
you therapist might know be able to help you move out

[l.e.g.o]

she wont help me
says she doesnt think i'll cope with moving out
im sorry

[Pops.]

<3...

[Pops.]

*cuddles*

[l.e.g.o]

i have mentioned it to her
im sorry

[Pops.]

I'm not sure why you are saying sorry, but you don't have any reason to.

[l.e.g.o]

i feel im hurting so many people