hey Tine, have you seen a doctor or a psych about it?
also on the abandonment issue, it is a big thing with people with EUPD/BPD. I get it really badly. The first time I was on a psych ward they wanted to discharge me after 8 days, discharging to me meant being abandoned, so i seriously kicked off, kicking chairs, punching walls then left the ward (no one stopped me) and tried to hang myself then I just layed on the ground for ages and it was pretty thick snow. They kept me in for an extra day, but it didn't make me feel any better.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
I'm Oliver by the way :)
I know it is hard and scary to go to the doctor about mental health stuff and self harm, took me 5 years to go to a doctor and that is only because a friend dragged me there. But I really urge you go. No one on here can diagnose you with BPD/EUPD and nor can you self diagnose, so I urge you to see a doctor.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
well school told my mum about my self harm when I was 15, then a few years later they told her I had attempted suicide. so she sort of knew stuff was going on. When I went to uni I pretended everything was better, but then got diagnosed with severe depression on my 19th birthday, but didn't tell my mum. Then in december 2010 I ended up in a psych ward and told my mum over the phone where I was and then a few days later I got the diagnosis of EUPD, which I told my mum. Then last year when I was sectioned the hospital rang my mum to tell her. Then in the last month I have written my mum two letters telling her a lot of stuff about my mental health, self harm and suicidal ideation and attempts.
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Busy weekend. I'm currently trying to write an article on Hallowe'en which was due at least a week ago...and my mind is completely blank, and I'm wondering if I should explain the concept of Paganism or not..and I also have a bunch of stuff to edit aand I have to study for my Calculus test on Tuesday and so on ..:))
my mum and sister are coming to see me later today, because I rang them up last night crying down the phone saying I was going to kill myself. My mum would have come tonight, but she was out with her mum having a meal and she had, had a glass of wine and my sister can't drive anymore due to her epilepsy.
feel really guilty that they are coming, but I'm glad at the same time, because I really can not keep myself safe at the moment.
*hugs all*
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
*hugs Oliver*. Your doing well in asking for support from your family when you need it. I'm so happy that your mum and sister are great and look out for you. The surgery is a major step and I can see why you desperately want it but maybe the dr are right in
Not doing a life changing operation when your so suicidal? Xxx
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The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time - Abraham Lincoln
Hey Kat, I'm fine ty. :) Didn't manage to write that article yesterday, and I gave up on writing it..oh well, otherwise I guess I'm OK. :D
How are you?
*hugs Mark*
*huggles Rupi* How are you hun?? Haven't seen you here in a while. Missed you <3
Barbie, you do deserve to post! You do deserve our help. What's going on?
*hugs Lucky* - sorry I havnt been around much. Was having a hard time (r/v). But I seem to be doing a bit better now :). How are you doing love? I've missed you too. I've been stalking your Facebook though hehe.
How are you Kat today?
*hugs mark*. How you doing mate?
How's the day going Oliver with your mum and sister? X
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Call me R -
The best thing about the future is that it comes one day at a time - Abraham Lincoln
