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[Frail Existence]

not good.
cryin and somewhat hyperventilatin atm.
i hate my life.

[out of ashes]

hugs rachel. I agree with what other have said, your not evil hon.
how everybody else today?

man today has sucked so much, felt very suicidal last night, this morning was no better, wanted so badly to take some pills. wasn't that busy at work, which led to more time for me to think about stuff, not good. Still want to take the tablets and just not be here for awhile. No closer to working this out. Just want out. sorry

[StuckInReverse]

feel so alone. just want to die.. gf at work.. perfect time really.. :(

[Heaven Knows]

Libz - I'm sorry you're struggling so much right now. Please, don't give up darling.

Taylor - I'm sorry you're still having the thoughts honey - but well done for not following through on them. It is a good thing, even if it does seem like it right now.

Sammy - You're not alone darling; we're all here for you. Is there anyone you can call/text to ask them to be with you while your gf is at work?

x Katie x

[Mum24]

Out of ashes please don't take the tabs. Need you here. You promised. Squish I'm sorry you feel so bad.

[StuckInReverse]

Might go hang out with my friend. But dont want to bring her down :'(

[Frail Existence]

talk me sammy.

[Heaven Knows]

Sammy - It sounds like a good idea. I'm sure you won't - even if it seems to surely they'd prefer that to you being alone and struggling?

x Katie x

[Frail Existence]

how katie an rachel?

[Heaven Knows]

Libz - honestly? Not good but I'm still alive. How're you doing now darling?

[Frail Existence]

glad you alive. can talk me if want.
keep picking at my head. i had stitches to and tryin keep way from those. tempting. tryin stop pickin and toucchin those to

[Heaven Knows]

Libz - good you trying not to pick. Make things worse and can be dangerous to do.

I keep seeing how I'm going to do it. I had a dream about hanging myself today. I was gonna show my Psych the thing I wrote last night to my friend but I don't think I can - I don't wanna risk not going back to work. I also think if they knew about my thoughts - the real thoughts they'll admit me. I don't want to be admitted...

[Frail Existence]

admitting you would only be for thebetter. please do show the the note.... honestky i think you should them the note and that they should let you go back but limited a bit so you dont hae yourself overdone or anything from work. they really need to know inorder for them to really help you

[Heaven Knows]

Yeah...I guess. I'm scared of being admitted though. They said about it after my last attempt - but they didn't think it'd be right...I'm just worried if I had to go in; but also to stay out because I know I'm not safe. I finally got work to listen to me about how I'm doing and I'm more unsafe than ever.

[ladybug]

i cant do this anymore, i dont want to do life anymore, im ready go.

[StuckInReverse]

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Originally Posted by Heaven Knows

Sammy - It sounds like a good idea. I'm sure you won't - even if it seems to surely they'd prefer that to you being alone and struggling?

Yeah but i might have to go babysit actually. Which is a better distraction cuz could just take them to the park or something.

[Frail Existence]

Katie... Ho does your work believe youre doing? youre probly just gonnna feel worse and worse as time goes on and you keep lying to others but whats really goingg on and what youe feeling... i dont want you to die. please please pretty please show someone the note.

ladybug.. sorry you feel this way *offers hugg* please try be safe.

[Heaven Knows]

Libz - They think I'm getting better...kind of. I told my manager about Ad and stuff and I kind of mentioned the hospital thing but for the most part they think being back will help me. I guess I do it because I don't know how I feel. I want to say to people that I'm determined to beat this and I'm going to get better - but truthfully; I'm struggling worse than I have in years. I want to destroy myself and give it all up. I want to push every one away and I want to be left to curl up and go. I constantly think about suicide and I keep having dreams about it. I've seen how I'm going to do it. I wasn't asleep but I saw it - how I'd do it. What song would be playing. How I'd have a half-smile on my face as it happened. I've seen it all and now I can't stop thinking about it. I'm more alone than ever.
Sorry.

[Mum24]

Katie, I agree with Libz. Need you alive. Please. Luv u

I just finished my run. Thoughts keep coming. Makes me want to get a gun and shoot myself in the head. I'm obsessed. I suck

[Mum24]

Katie hugggggs