Well tomorrow's meeting is mainly about finding out how the harassment issue is affecting me and they will be using it to judge if they have to go through the complaints and discipline procedure either with or without my agreement.
Which has made me highly paranoid that I am over exaggerating the problem. But I know I'm not, because otherwise those in authority at the university who are now involved would not be looking to take this further right?
Have you not been taught any techniques to help distract from panicking before lectures?
Yeah I agree I'm sure if uni thought you were exaggerating they wouldn't be looking to take it further, so they obviously believe you.
My therapist has talked to me about grounding techniques, but when I'm so anxious and panicing I don't think to do them and when I do they don't work that great.
*huggles Mark* how are you otherwise?
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
*hugs for all*
I'm not quite sober enough to come up with individual responses. I know I suck at responding people in here. I do read, and I do think about/care about you all, but I often get overwhelmed, either because I'm depressed or anxious, or not entirely sober. If any of you ever want to talk though, about anything, please feel free to PM me, and I'll pretty much always respond (not necessarily right away, but usually soon enough).
I do want to talk/respond to you guys, honestly, and I feel bad that I'm always coming in here and just talking about myself. So please don't feel like I don't care, and please do take me up on the PM offer, even if you don't know me that well and it's just to distract yourself a little.
I cut yesterday for the first time in about a month. I'd actually had a really good day, and managed to convince myself that everything was ok for a while, then as soon as I was home and alone, I guess I sort of snapped out of it. I ended up crying so hard that I could barely breathe, and I felt this horrible overwhelming sadness that I couldn't handle. Which is why I ended up cutting.
I feel a bit better today, although like I said, not quite sober at the moment.
I've got a rehearsal at 10, so for once I'm up early, after only about 4 hours sleep. got a really long day as I won't be home until about 10.30 tonight.
how is everyone today?
"Never be a spectator of unfairness or studpidity. The grave will supply plenty of time for silence." Christopher Hitchens
'When words fail, music speaks'
I am transsexual and homoromantic and proud to be.
Hey all, not really read anything else, sorry! Just wanted to pop in and say thank you to everyone who has posted messages of love and all that jazz to me. Currently mentally preparing myself for this meeting. I have a list of points for what I need to say and stuff.
*leaves hugs for all who want one* I'll be back online later and paying attention.
Katy, glad the meeting went well! :) I hope he will leave you alone.*hugs*
*hugs Colour*
*hugs Kismet*
*hugs Mark*
Hey Oliver*huggles*, I hope today went well. Just wanted to tell you that school's pretty much similar for me, like how's Uni for you. I skipped more classes than I should have since school started, because I was too anxious, was too late or was too scared - I ended up spending most of the time(when I skipped) in the counsellor's office...and I also got too many bad grades in the first month of school&I find it hard to focus..so let's just say that my school year hasn't started so well.
I was just thinking of something, though. You like what you're studying, right? It's music, it's uni; you're studying exactly what you like. (unlike me, as I'm stuck studying all sorts of stuff I hate, at least for now) It's way harder to study sth you don't like, than something you enjoy.
Maybe it'll make you feel better, thinking that you don't have to study calculus! :)
Also, maybe you should talk to your therapist more about what causes your panic attacks. I know it can be hard, but if you don;t work on the cause, they won't be solved..Just think about it: what is it that makes you anxious before a lecture? Can you identify exactly what it is? Can you do anything to change it?
