Katie- *Squishes tight* Darling. Its ok not to be able to say your feeling better- it is most important that you dont lose hope that one day you will be able to say that you are feeling better and it be the truth.
I'm sorry your feeling worse darling. Hang in there darling- I think your meeting etc went well, thats something to hang onto isn't it hun? A tiny sliver of hope?
*Holds tightly* xx
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Roli - *hugs* I guess it did. I can't help but think though that if I think it went well I'll only be more disappointed if nothing changes. Everything's going wrong and I can't stop it. I'm alone and I'm sick of it. I hate weekends. I hate medication. I hate crisis. I hate everything right now. Sorry. Gah.
Katie- *Holds you so so tightly*
Darling- I know what you mean. You dont want to get your hopes up- but please try to imagine that things could change for the better, even if you don't want to get your hopes up that they will.
I'm sorry you feel alone, I'm sorry you hate weekends, medication and crisis. *Holds tight* These things can get better hun.
Why do you hate weekends?
Why medication?
Crisis?
Hold close x
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Hannah- I'm sorry your struggling today darling.
Anything you want to get off your chest hun. Were all here for you.
Its not time to leave yet hun- there is still hope. Promise.
*Holds tight*
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
Thankyou both. Its fine. It is time to leave im sure it is. I feel like im going crazy. I have everything ready i just don't have the guts to do it. I'm more scared of failing again and having to deal with the consequences, I wish my body would do what I wanted to. I hate myself and that I hurt everyone around me, I don't deserve to be here.
Katie, im sorry you are struggling so much, try and stay strong. I know its hard but try *hugs*
Roli, how are you? Sorry I hope you are okay *hugs* keep fighting
sorry i didn't mean to have a light rant...
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
sorry guys, sat here and all i can think about is how much i want to hurt myself. damn my heads so messed up tonight. don't have enough strength to fight this tonight, or deal with my brother, can this be over now?
I don't know where to go
I don't know what to be
I don't know how to change from being me
I don't know what to say
Maybe another day
I'll stop getting lost and find my way, home
All I know is gone......
Katie, thankyou, how are you supposed to know when the time is? We all die eventually so why not now, it would save so much hurt for everyone. Just saying. But thankyou *hugs*
Taylor, you do have enough strength honey, you can find it within yourself. Can you move away from your brother? Go to your room? It will be over soon honey, but not in the way you are thinking. *hugs*
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
thanks charmed, hmm my brother is in my room. I am once again trying to keep the peace and not try and throw my brother out. Cause all that does is start arguments, that i end up getting shout at. Really not in the mood for that. This nightmare just keeps replying and replying, and the one person who could possibley help, is no longer here, i really wish i could just climb up there and i could speak to the one person i really want to speak to, she would know how to sort this, or at least make it better, sorry guys
I don't know where to go
I don't know what to be
I don't know how to change from being me
I don't know what to say
Maybe another day
I'll stop getting lost and find my way, home
All I know is gone......
I didn't sleep at all last night. I still think I'm evil. I'm not even tired. That's two nights in a row. I'm going out this morning. Glad. Gotta get away from myself.
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
