Hey sorry i didnt respond earlier just thought it wasnt a good time. School was just a mess. I got hit and i was told to fuck off. Then they just ugh a lot of stuff happened. I feel like i shouldnt be here. Maybe tonight my last night its just so hard
katie... im not harmin now. unsuccesfully tryin to get school work done. got boat load and cant do it. i dont want write letter. nothin say. thanks though. is k if out words. ill just shut up. is fine.
These kicks take me far away my dear; Far away from myself Far away from my troubles
Far away from heaven
Libz - Sorry I useless. Useless suggestions. Glad you not harming but sorry school work not going well. Don't need shut up - should keep talking if helping.
Em123 - Sorry school went so badly. Don't think tonight should be last night.
*hugs for both*
I really don't have brain power or strength to keep on. I try but nothing working now. I just gonna try hide and hope stuff go away. Please keep fighting guys <3
If there was a god, he should have killed me a long time ago, and given my life to someone who deserves it, I just want to die, I dont deserve life. I dont want her to know I did whats gonna happen, it might be because of her, but if she knew tha t she might try to follow me, and nobody should ever follow me, because I'm always wrong, I'm just so tired, and dont want to keep going on
Take me away, I just want out from this self-imprisoned self-made Hell. Don't be surprsed, this is your mind coming to life by self-sacrifice. This tragedy of death will walk hand in hand with every thought of regret. Blame yourself for what you've become. The mind is a powerful thing set to self-destruct.
~I, Dementia - Whitechapel~
squishes jdenning, very low on words honey, but I am thinking about you.
hmm going to forget sorting stuff out today,had a really rough night.
felt extremely suicidal last night, when i finally got to sleep. I kept hearing my name being shouted
went to check it out as it sounded like it was important, only to find no one there, happened alot of times. feel shattered today.
still feel suicidal, and extremely low. hope everyone is okay
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I just feel like i need to die, to get away from it all, but im scared. Scared that i wont actually make it succesful and scared that i wont actually do it. Im just so confused right now. I hate this feeling. I wish i could just hurry up and do it, but i keep on making new plans that will have a 'higher success rate'. meh.
without hope, theres no life. so whats my point in living?
I'm tired of trying, sick of crying, I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying.
I am so sorry everyone is struggling so much.
Please keep fighting.
I am very sorry, I really don't have words, but things can get better. Reach out. Fight. Hope.
Hugs to all who would like one xx
Here's the day you hoped would never come,
Don't feed me violins, just run with me
through rows of speeding cars.
21 on the run, on the run, on the run
From myself, from myself and everyone
I better leave the light on
The darkness, The sweetness, The sadness, The weakness,
O, I need this
Hi, I'm Roli Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
JDenning - What makes you think you don't deserve life? No one does or doesn't deserve it - we have it and it's as simple as that. What support do you have available to you?
Taylor - Sorry you're still feeling so low honey - I'm glad you managed to get some sleep, even if it wasn't much. It sounds like it was your brain working overtime making you hear your name.
slurpslurp - Do you have a support/care team around you who know you're feeling low?
No ive told no one i feel this way, last week i was gonna see doctors but i chickened out and now i am left here to deal with my shit my way!
*hugs everyone*
without hope, theres no life. so whats my point in living?
I'm tired of trying, sick of crying, I know I've been smiling, but inside I'm dying.
raising hand.. been feeling like it for several days now. at hospital yesterday for p.t.... and came soo close to going to the er, but instead i just went home... at work now... feeling worthless.... tired of fighting... yet at same time i want to...
You are never to old to have, hold, or hug a stuffie. Mine are a bulldog, elephants, and a baby harp seal.
katie, yeah your probley right, felt so real tho. like something was happening. its sounded so urgent.
got to find some strength to deal with work tomorrow. Just want to hide and not deal with it.
hmm how are you honey? how's everyone else?
I don't know where to go
I don't know what to be
I don't know how to change from being me
I don't know what to say
Maybe another day
I'll stop getting lost and find my way, home
All I know is gone......
slurpslurp - sorry you didn't feel could go to doctor. Do you think you can try again?
CelticWings - Sorry feeling so bad. Do you have people you can talk to about things?
Taylor - Can feel very real. Me used to have problems with hallucinations. Used to think they're really real. Try not push self too hard for work - not good when already struggling.
This is my support, I have no money to see a psychiatrist, and if I did, I would have no money for anything more, so thats about it, i just see the world as there are so many people that want to live and die early, and I want to die and seems like I cant.
Take me away, I just want out from this self-imprisoned self-made Hell. Don't be surprsed, this is your mind coming to life by self-sacrifice. This tragedy of death will walk hand in hand with every thought of regret. Blame yourself for what you've become. The mind is a powerful thing set to self-destruct.
~I, Dementia - Whitechapel~
JDenning - Well, as you know people on here are always willing to listen and help. Is there any way to access help for people with limited income? I kind of get what you mean; I see people ill and stuff who want to be okay - and I'm trying to end my life...it can be hard sometimes and adds to the guilt doesn't it?
I'm losing reasons with everything right now. I want so badly to say I'm feeling better...but I'm worse and I know it.
Take Care, Stay Safe, Shout if you need anything
