Major bad day today, went from ok to breakdown, suicidal, wanting to go somewhere high, hating hub and son, verbally leaving hubby and son, didnt happen as hub talked to me, self harming not bad tho. Now left feeling deflated exhasted completely messed up and feeling like an unrepairable writeoff.
Colour - hope you got through the night ok and todays not too tough, i know when ive mixed alcohol and meds i always cop it the next day and end up sleeping most of it. Hope the job interview goes well.
Bittersweet, sorry yesterday was tough, i hope today is a better one.
Qualified Peer Support Worker (2017)
current mental health diagnoses: depression, PTSD, GAD, self harm, bpd
current meds (as at Feb 2017): , thyroxine, metformin, iron, b12, vit d, atenolol, Butec, Naproxen, Nefopam, Lanzoprazole, Bupropion, quetiapine (prn)
Glad things are a bit better Mark.I hope they continue to improve for you
Hope your knee feels better soon and you enjoy Brave Colour. I want to see it too but not sure if it's still showing here
Oliver I am sorry they haven't contacted you yet, are you able to contact them to see what the hold-up is? Also well done for cooking a healthy dinner I know how hard that is when your feeling low.
Wendy keep fighting hun, you will get through this
BittersweetSurprise-That sounds tough to deal with. I am glad your husband helped talk you through it though. Can you do something nice for yourself to help you relax a bit now?
How are you Rachael?
How are you Lucky?
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
It went ok with my cpn, i had some anger at first but got it under control. Se agrees i desperately need some dbt and is looking to see if i can do an emotional coping skills group which is usually done as an acutes inpatient but shes gonna see if i can do it outpatient. Shes starting the transition from perinatal to adult services which should be complete by November. The plan is to have dbt first to give me the skills etc needed then work on my past as the abuse issues. Xx
Kat- Hi there, glad you're OK. :)[and yay you changed your avatar & sig pics!<3]
Bittersweet - Glad it worked well with your cpn. I hope everything goes well with getting dbt and all that.
Colour, I hope your interview went well! :)
I'm a bit down today.. I saw the schedule for the entrance ceremony at school as well as a chart with where our classrooms will be. It makes everythign seem so real..And I don't feel like going back and seeing everyone..I just want to curl up in a ball and hide.
okay , sooo would like a drink but I'm saving up/waiting for Film night with my bestest on Saturday , She doesn't like horror films but said go on then I'll watch one with you , I checked my DVD collection , 3 days is not enough to wittle it down I am just going to try a range of Films , Let her pick one.
Phew , How are you hun?
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
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''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
How is everyone? I'm OK, feeling down as per, I had a rubbish Dr appointment this morning, but nothing spectacular. I've been discharged from the HTT at least.
I'm happy about it. I don't find them too useful anyway. Additionally, I'm busy these coming few days so it would have been impractical to continue seeing them, they were only useful for keeping the meds out of the house and they had re-instated that control to my carer again anyway.
So I'm not too bothered. I'm more stable than I was, and I'm trying harder to stay strong.
